Slowly getting back to my norm!!

I can't believe it is my turn already to share my journey. I have spent months on the Real Self website and it has been a valuable resource for me. I had never thought of myself as someone who would get breast augmentation. I always had small breasts but I liked them. I have 4 sisters who are all large breasted and I have seen them struggle. Shirts didn't fit right, backaches, not able to jog or sleep on their stomachs. Two of them have had reductions. Not to mention my breasts always looked better because even though they were small, they were perky! However, age and gravity have set in and my breasts are no longer perky. I originally was hoping that an implant would give me the lift and upper pole fullness I wanted...but after 3 consultations a lift with aug is in my future. My husband is supportive of my decision but really did not want me needing the lift. The scars really worry him, and I have to say that is my biggest fear too. At my consult the PS anticipates that I will have 300 cc in the left and 350 cc in the right (to fix asymmetry) silicone moderate profile under the muscle. I am 5ft 5 in tall and weigh 132 lbs. I am 40 years old and have 2 children, a daughter who is 17 and a son who is 14. Talk about weird telling them I was doing this!! i breastfed them both, one for 6 weeks and the other for 9 months. I am currently a small C cup. The thought of being a D cup worries me but I trust my PS to choose what he thinks will look good on my body. My fear is being too big! I don't want to end up like my sisters with big boobs that are a pain! I want perky and round. Yet I don't want to b too small either! Plan to discuss more at preop on 10-29. I'm trying to not get too hung up on the cc#!! I can only take 1 week off of work so I hope I will heal quickly. I have posted a pic of my dream boobs :) and some before pics. The guilt of spending this much money on myself almost makes me want to back out. Anyone else feel this way?

Had preop today and getting very excited!! Nervous excited. Think we have finalized the size. Going with my PS recommendation of 300 cc on the left and 350 cc on the right. This seems a little big when I tried rice sizers at home and sizers in the office today but they assure me that they won't b that big. My husband felt the size looked good on my frame and I trust the PS to listen to my wishes. For all my lady friends who went before me...did u think the sizers felt bigger than the actual implant? Also, was sent home with a cooling device to use after surgery to help with the pain. PS says it will make recovery so much easier. Hope to post some before pics in some clothes later this week.

3 more days!! Time has gone by so fast. Spending today trying to get the house ready and making ice for the cooler the PS gave me to help with discomfort after. Here are some before pics. Sorry I am not the best at taking selfies!! :)