I Decided It's Not Too Late to Feel Good About Myself - Miami, FL

I have been reading reviews here for a couple of weeks now and finally decided to write my own. I am 51 years old, happily married, mother of two, grandmother of one and another grandbaby on the way. I am 5'2", 140 lbs. and wear a size 34 A. I have always been unhappy about the size of my breasts but while I was in my 20's I was busy raising kids (both breastfed) and did not think too much about it. In my 30's I started to think about getting implants but it never seem to be the right time; I was either too scared or felt like I couldn't afford to spend the money in something that I did not really "need". For the last 8 years or so I thought I had come to accept my breast as they are and thought I would never actually get the implants. I started seriously thinking about it again in the last couple of years but then I thought "well I am kind of too old to do it now".

My husband said if it was something I wanted to do, he would support me 100% and he also assured me he did not think I was too old to do something that would make me feel better about myself. It was only about 3 weeks ago that I finally had the nerve to pick up the phone and schedule two consultations. The first Dr. I went to see did not have much of a personality but he did take plenty of time expalining to me the procedure, what to expect, etc. My second consultation was with a Dr. that had been highly recommended to me by another physician in the area; he was more friendly and personable however did not take as much time in explaning things. In the end I decided to go with the second Dr. because of his credentials, number of years as a plastic surgeon in this community and online reviews by his patients. Since I made my decision everything has been moving forward so fast!

My husband and I have a business and our busy season will start in the next few weeks so we decided I needed to do it now or wait till after the summer was over. I called the surgery coordinator thinking they would not be able to schedule me so soon but to my surprise, she said the Dr. could do it on Tuesday March 6! I said go ahead and put me down for that date thinking that if I gave myself too much time to think and stress about it I would chicken out and not go thorugh with it.

I went for my second visit yesterday to sign the paperwork, get my prescriptions and all pre op instructions. I have to admit I was very nervous signing those papers; not that there was anything new since I have done my research but still almost felt like running away and forgetting the whole thing. However I just kept reminding myself that this is something I really want to do and I am sure my biggest regret is going to be why I waited so long to do it. I had already decided during the first visit that I was going with silicone under the muscle. Both of the doctors I consulted with recommended against saline for me because of the fact that I have very little tissue on top. I tried 370 cc and 390 cc sizers; I liked the 370 but I was told I should go with the 390 to get closer to the look of the 370 since they will be under the muscle and look smaller once they are in. I told the Dr. I would be happy with a full C; I don't really want to be so big, I just want to be more proportionate with the rest of my body and I would like for my clothes to fit better. Right now, there are so many styles of clothes I don't wear because they are always too big on top when they fit me everywhere else. The nurse practioner said that the Dr. will have several sizes on hand and he will make sure I get the look I want so I just have to trust him; after all he has been doing this for over 25 years.

Tuesday is coming up so soon, it's hard to believe it's really going to happen. I am very excited but at the same time I am also really scared. The only type of surgery I have ever had was a C section when I had my second child 24 years ago; even for that I just had an epidural so I have never been under general anesthesia. I know I will be in good hands; my surgeon has many years of experience and I will be in a center with certified nurses, anesthesiologists, etc. Just three more days!

The last two days have gone by so fast; I cannot believe "that" time is almost here! Yessterday I had to go to my family doctor so he could review my blood work and give me clearance for the surgery. Fortunately I am in good health so he could not find any problems that would prevent me from the surgery. After this appointment, I decided I could use some help to relax so I decided to use a gift certificate for an hour massage that my husband had given me a couple of months ago as part of my birthday gift. This was just what I needed as I am getting pretty anxious and nervous as March 6 gets closer. We live approximately 1 1/2 hours away from the surgery center so we decided to get a room in a nearby hotel for the night before and the night after the surgery. So tonight I have been packing; even though we are only going for 2 nights there still seems to be so much you have to take. I forgot to mention I picked up my prescriptions yesterday so this was one of the first things I packed as I sure don't want to forget them! It still seems hard to believe than I will be only be a flat chested size A for one more day...ha, ha!