Waiting for my Surgery Date! Excited!! - Miami, FL

Recovery is a [RS bleep]..... I'm getting these off and on headaches that Are driving me nuts! And this drain is poking into my skin somethings fierce! I'm still swollen and the other compression garment was to tight to wear today because I actually pooped for the first time since before I had surgery! Take it off and on was just to much since I was by myself today. Also my first massage was nuts! That [RS bleep] hurt!!!!! Omg ... But day by day things slowly get better :)

Man so I was dreaming a nice dream and woke up in a surgery center. I immediately started crying. I'm a big baby and the shock of it all just hit me like tone of bricks. The nurses were great I was just emotional and cold and I couldn't stop shaking. Getting back to the hotel was fine it was literally 4 min away. But let me tell you, those first couple hours I was sick, just nauseous! But I took the meds for nausea and it slowly went away. And then I slowly ate some soup and took my pain meds. Which are [RS bleep]! They keep me up. I haven't slept at all. Plus I have to get up every two hours to walk and to reposition myself. My bf is here and he's helping but he's useless when he's sleeping. So I peed on myself once and I'm not happy about it, well I was over the toilet with the fake penis thing to pee thru and it just kinda went down my leg! Anyone who has Bette suggestions of peeing let me know. I am gonna request different meds because I am in unbearable pain if I take what I have I cant sleep. And I'm exhausted! That's why I'm up at 5am with a headache writing.

Think Ima buy the booty buddy today too. I have a long ride back to Alaska soon