33yr Old Going to MX For Sleeve....Scared out of my Mind!! Mexico, MX

The title says it all!! I was minutes away from sending over my deposit, to only freak out and think I needed to do more research. At the moment I'm scheduled for March 10th, pending I get my deposit in within the next 24hrs. Let me tell you I am scared, nervous, anxious...I could use a few shots of Tequilia.lol Just anything to calm me down.
So here's a little back story, I'm 33yrs old married and a mother of 2 (6 & 3), my gym time is usually at 3am, with my full day starting at 5am. While I did a great job of working out the beginning of 2015, by October I had gained it all back. That's my usual pattern. Loose about 40lbs by August, put it back on by October. I've gone through about 5yrs of this cycle and it's tiring (not to mention expensive, because I keep throwing clothes away, only to re-buy). My highest weight has been 249lbs, with my lowest weight that I can remember being 188lbs.
My insurance plan does not cover this procedure and of course to get it done in the states, that amount is well above $10k. I had a friend recommend going to Mexico for the procedure, as she has gone multiple times for other things. So my research began and kept going, and kept going, and kept going. At one point I had wrote down the names of doctors and just thought about spinning around and whichever one I landed on, that would be it. I went through reviews, videos and blogs. I had finally made the decision to go through one clinic, to only have to wait 5 days to hear back in regards to getting something on the schedule. Then I decided to go through Briatric Pal Mexico and scheduled with Dr. Altamirano (Dr. A).
I reached out to BA on a Saturday. They called me back in a few hours and have been in touch since then. My patient relations manager is Bill Yanez. His emails and information has always been friendly. So I'm looking forward to moving on with this procedure, with them.

Current stats:
Age 33
Weight 237
Height 5'6"
Health Issues: PCOS & minor Sleep Apnea

Well, it's official. I'm on a schedule for March 10th. However, I changed my mind about going with Dr. A, mainly due to a few cosmetic issues that I didn't like with BriatricPal. While I'm sure I could look over those few issues, I just felt like if I was going to do this I wanted to be worry free from all angles. So I decided to up the amount I was willing to pay and went with Dr. Ramos Kelly (which was one of my very first choices months ago).

I can tell you right now, there is a HUGE difference between his practice and the others. My patient coordinator is Heath. The amount of information they send you once you get on the schedule, and before you even pay your deposit, is phenomenal. I'm a risk person by trade, meaning I spend my days reading contracts trying to get down to the bottom line. Without that information, I feel as though I'm not getting the full picture upfront. This is what I was experiencing with the other doctors. Not to say there was anything wrong with it, but it was just a personal preference and needed for myself.

So that's it. March 10th is THE day!! I start my pre-op diet Feb 25th, but I'm going to try to start the first portion of the diet (protein shake for breakfast, with protein and veggies for lunch and dinner) about a week earlier. I am sooooo looking forward to this change and new lifestyle.

My weight has always fluctuated. But due to my height I've always heard, "You carry your weight well". I don't know where these people learned that's a statement that makes everything alright. So at the moment I'm a ball of emotions. I'm happy/excited of the potential. But all at the same time, I'm scared and anxious of what I'm doing to my body.
Thursday will mark my two weeks. But on Tuesday I plan to start my two week diet. I'm extremely nervous about messing this all up.

Weight today: 237