Excited About Doing Something for Myself

I'm excited about finally doing something for myself but I'm having guilty feelings and thinking maybe I'm doing to much and I should rethink my choices and decision?
I'm in the research phase I guess after reading through many journals and I'm reaching out for help from members because of course my BFF and family that I told thinks I'm crazy!
I'm 39, 5'5 and 146 in weight so do I gain or loose weight ? Do I remain on the states or go out of the country? Tummy Tuck and BBL at the same time or BBL first? I've research Dr.Cabral, Dr.Cardenas and Dr.Fisher in Miami but I've read on several profiles about another physician by the name of Dr. Salama? Help ladies share you're thoughts and ideas please. Any recommendations and has anyone gone to these surgeons? Hotel or Recovery Home? So I have to stay ten days wherever I choose?

This site is addicting! I'm at work checking other reviews on my breaks and lunch, can't seem to put my note pad down. I'm trying to learn and navigate the site so bare with me. Everyone have a great day!

Although I still have to take out time to learn how to navigate this site, from what I have been reading this far it appears that there are responses only on those reviews that have pics and I'm a private person let alone shy!
Secondly, hardly anyone updates their review after having surgery and those are the members the new members like myself want to really get their honest opinion from??? I found some really good reviews that I noticed have a blue emblem next to them and what does that mean, I have no idea but I shall continue to try yo figure this out! Oh let me tell you I got real bold and left someone a comment thanking then for returning to post. I hope the answer back. Ok so was I suppose to push the follow sign in the square next to their review title ? So much to figure out this weekend over a cup of tea ! Ok ladies I better get back to work or no future booty for me right, lol!