29 Yrs Old, No kids, 5'6, 109 lbs, 320cc

Just got back from my pre-op appointment! Super excited!

So at my first, initial consult appointment, we tried on 290, 320 and 350cc sizers, based on my BWD. Even though my PS said it would be a game-time decision when I'm on the table, as far as which one we'd go with.. I guess I still left there, thinking that 350 would be possible. So I made 350 rice sizers and felt pretty settled and happy with that size.. I did feel like they looked a liiittle smaller than the look I wanted, especially in clothes... So I tried out 420cc rice sizers just for fun.. and I loved them! But they looked borderline ridiculous looking, and so big that there was literally not enough space to fit them in the boob area.. They were spilling out into my armpits and I had a uni-boob situation going on! I'm not opposed to the more augmented look for myself, but my shape was definitely top-heavy with the 420s. My bust measurement looked much wider than my hips and I felt like I looked like a bodybuilder. So I felt pretty resolved with 350.. They gave me a nice hourglass shape.

When we went over it today at my pre-op appt, I expressed that I had been going back and forth about wanting to go larger than 350.. because I couldn't decide if I wanted a more augmented look. But he explained that even 350 would be REALLLY pushing it, based on my narrow BWD! :( So he said he would TRY for it.. but it would probably be too much of a stretch.. and that 295 or 320 would probably be what ends up happening. So that's disappointing.. but not a whole lot I can do I guess. He said "you cant fit 10 pounds of flour in a 5 pound bag.." My boyfriend and I loved that quote. hahha
So anyways, I guess when I left my consult, I didnt really realize how much 350 was going to be "pushing the envelope" (another clever pun by my PS.. funny guy) so much.. so I feel like I've gotten my hopes up for that-- or something bigger-- since my 1st consult a few weeks ago. :(

He had an interesting point.. Most women who get BA's have breastfed, and I have NOT (and dont plan to have kids). So he said I'm more of a unique case because we're working with a.) a super narrow frame... and b.) VERY little breast tissue since I'm kid-less.

So.. I would be THRILLED to get 350cc's... but I guess I'd better plan on 290.. and if I end up with more, I'll just be extra happy! I trust that he's going to do whatever is best for me... he knows I wanna go bigger.. but he's the professional, so I'm sure he'll make me look great, with whatever he chooses!

Also..
My left BWD measured at about 10.5.. and my right was 9.5 That seems like a huge difference! So since my right is smaller, that boob is going to be the determining factor for how big we can get 'em. Stupid asymmetrical body!

He will be lowering my crease a little bit and using the Keller funnel method, where instead of shoving the implant in there with his hands, they squirt it through a funnel. Kinda like piping icing onto a cake. haha. I guess its more sanitary since he doesnt have to touch it, and also the incision can be much smaller. I'm getting them placed partially under the muscle, and partially over. So the bottom of the implants will be overs, and the tops will be unders.

Not too concerned about pain.. I got my prescription for 30 5mg percocets today, and also he will be giving me a nerve root block during surgery, which is a 72 hour pain relief shot. So that'll be nice. Apparently some of his patients dont even need Tylenol, it works so well!

I'm nearly one week out now and it's starting to feel super surreal!! I feel like I'm annoying my boyfriend because it's all I can talk about.... and I'm having dreams about it like every night.. but I just can't help it, as it's been something I've wanted for over 10 years!

I put a question out here about whether or not I could be firm to my surgeon, about my wishes for 350cc's, on the day of surgery. I think I still will, because I guess the overall opinion I got was that it should be very do-able. But I have resolved that I really need to keep relative proportion in mind. What 400cc's might look like on another girl of similar height and weight, might be what 320 or 350cc's looks like on me. Their height/weight might be similar, but my torso could be shorter, and my chest cavity is much narrower than the average girl. There are SO many different variables, and we all carry weight differently, so I need to remember that it's not productive to compare myself to others' outcomes so literally. I plan on expressing ONEEEE more time to my surgeon that I'm really not going for a "conservative" look, but I trust that he'll do whatever he fcan to get me as close as possible to the look I ultimately want.

So. Putting size concerns aside.. I'm feeling so ready!!!!! I'm having moments of anxiety, but just about being put under. They seem to come and go, though, and I usually feel more anxious at night. That's pretty typical of me though. I have struggled with severe anxiety throughout my whole adult life, so I'm a little predisposed to that, you could say. But I haven't had any fear or anxiety about the actual procedure, or the pain afterwards. I can totally deal with that. I think a lot of the pain factor is controlled by attitude, too. I have a very positive attitude about how quickly I'm going to recover.. I don't like people taking care of me, and while I don't think I necessarily have a great pain threshold, I still feel confident that I'll be completely fine and can handle it!! Hopefully I'm not just being naive... but I think that shitty attitudes and having negative expectations are totally not productive!

I have all my prescriptions ready to go.. This weekend I'll stock up on some saltines and lots of bottles of water.. but I feel like now, it's just a waiting game! :)

All I can think about is GA and being entubated... Having major anxiety about it. I know it doesn't do me any good to worry about that... I know the doctors and nurses know what they're doing and I trust that I'm in good hands. And I wont even remember anything that happens. It's pointless to be anxious over things that are out of your control. But still worried that I haven't taken care of my body enough to prepare for GA.