I Had a Very Painful Experience with Labiaplasty

I went to this doctor to have labiaplasty. He said it would not be very painful afterwards but it was exceptionally painful. I am only 21 years old and I really really regret having it. I saw "bits" in my inner labia and I thought they were abnormal. My mum now tells me they were not at all abnormal. I thought that I had to look like the girls I had watched on [RS bleep] sites with my boyfriend. He didn't even know that girls and women had "bits" that are different in their inner labia. I was worried that when it came to having sex he would think I was abnormal. Now, I realise that I am abnormal because there is just a "slit" there and I don't look like other women.

There was nothing wrong with me and I still feel lots of pain from time to time. I have become afraid of sex because it can be painful and I am too embarrassed to tell my mum. She is furious because I used money that my gran had left me, and the doctor never ever explained that things might go wrong or that I might be in pain afterwards. Now, I think maybe something has gone wrong, because I am in pain a lot but I could never ever go to another doctor as I am scared of them and I am too ashamed. I wish I had never had this done. I am in pain a lot and too ashamed to ask anyone for help.