30 Year Old Making over Her Small, Tuberous Breasts - Melbourne, AU

The surgeon saw me for the first time since operating today. I have to wear a band over my breasts for the next two weeks to encourage the implants to drop into position. I'm worried about this, but he says everyone is the same, I'm not a freak case or anything. Having a small frame and zero breast tissue beneath my nipples before the operation only made this more likely. The surgeon also mentioned there is a chance I might have to have nipple repositioning done. The idea of another surgery doesn't really bother me if it gives me beautiful breasts - a bit of nipple repositioning doesn't actually sound like a big deal to me and would probably require less downtime than the lift and implants did. I'm just a little worried about the extra costs and very worried about my final results. Perhaps it was stupid to think I could have beautiful breasts, and to go through something that's just giving me scars and stretching my skin out in weird places for nothing. Feeling very pensive right now. I can't help but be afraid.

Yesterday was my first post op check up with the nurse, exactly one week after surgery. I was pretty nervous about what I'd see under those bandages - preparing myself for the worst and not knowing what the hell to expect. I was so scared of what my nipples and stitches were going to look like. I closed my eyes as the nurse peeled the dressings off and felt my pulse soar and my heart jump into my throat when she asked me to stand up and come look in the mirror. I looked up and laughed uncontrollably in one long exhale - the receptionists outside probably thought I was going mental! I was pleasantly surprised with the shape of my nipples and the stitches were clean and unnoticeable. Yes, I'll have scars, but judging from first look I think they'll fade nicely. My breasts still have a fair way to drop over the coming g weeks and months but I am already liking the shape and enjoying the fact that my nipples are permanently erect! I'm not sure if this is permanent, or just a side effect of the extra sensation in them right now due to the procedure - they're extra sensitive. There's still a lot of things to get through and I'm not clear of anything yet - I need to prepare myself for complications that may arise. But I have had a good run so far and am feeling grateful.

The operation is done and the pain is gone. I'm at home feeling good but my brain is going a bit mental wondering if and how and when the implants will drop into the correct position, how hideous my nipples and scars must look under the bandages and whether or not I'll develop capsular contracture or some other problem. I'm scared but I can't help being excited. Already this is better than the breasts I was born with but I'm still so nervous and waiting for something to go wrong. My boobs feel heavier and more swollen by the evening and my left drain hole is hurting. I hope tomorrow is better.