Well where do I start. Ok Im 42yrs old, married...
Well where do I start. Ok Im 42yrs old, married ,mom of 5, & gramma to 2. I think Im about a 42GG .Spilling out of anything I buy ...just sort of stuffing and pushing into bras. I have wanted to have this surgery since I was about 27 (which is the age I had my 3rd son and my boobies turned into torpedos) . I have 4 wonderful boys (ages from 15-22 yrs old) & a beautiful daughter 11yrs old. My husband is my best friend and totally supports me in my decision !!! I have been suffering with migraines for about 17 yrs and complete back and neck pain for as long as I can remember. I have for the last 3 years getting injections and RAF shots in my back to help with pain. I have been big chested all my life. In the 7th grade my mom bought me a padded bra ...I had nothing but I had to cover up the lil' buttons that were evident under my shirts. My 8th grade summer I think I was the most popular in my neighborhood...at the time I LOVED IT!!! My lil nubbies blossomed into big size 34 Ds. Wholly Toledo !!! I did play softball and cheer in high school but it was under some heavy duty bras. My porch had a lot of boy visitors from that time on. Other girls didn't like it and of course they all said I was a whore. Why do people think that because you have big knockers that you must be easy? I hated it ...the names ,the looks ,and having to wear the big shirts so I wasn't dressing inappropriate. Sweatshirts were my best friend and people thought I was crazy for always being too covered up. For a long time I wasn't sure if any knew there was a face to look at above the boobs...there was I swear. Since forever I have been known as "you know the one with the big boobs". What a way to be known... but I survived. Ok now I am 42 and have these things on my body that I hate !!!! I see this awesome PS and am amazed he took 2 hrs with me at my consult...says I am good to go. Got my Ok from insurance company they say what was very evident I HAVE BIG BOOBIES. Now here I am 20 days until surgery 6 until Pre-Op appt. I have drove my husband CRaZy!! Shown him so many pics of before & after pics...he said he's not sure if likes boobies anymore! I am obsessing...I know I am. I am getting the Anchor Incision and PS said something at consult about removing 750 on right and 450 on left. Never knew how lopsided I was...I NEVER LOOK !!!!! SERIOUSLY....he took the pics & measurements and told me to look ....ummmmm YUCKY !!!!!!!! Here are some pics...told ya' YUCK !!! Im just so excited.....talk to you soon
Ok 18 days to go.....
Ok we have survived the big storm we just had. Kids have been off school the last few days so instead of pulling all my hair out, we ventured to the mall. Kids off to Hollister, me to Dillard's.Got measured while I was there, I swear I almost passed out. Of course the woman who did it is straight out of the Victoria Secrets mag ...perfect body, cute, and tan. In walks big mama, with sweats, see through because I'm so pale and should've had a bone in my hair because of the Pebbles ponytail I have piled on my head. Well we do the measuring and she says " Ummmm, looks like you are a 42 I " Hold on, did she say I .?? An I ???? I think I may have blacked out...because she said " Ma'am, would like me to see if we have any styles?" Ummmmmm.......NO!! I don't want to be an I....I wanted to be the DDD I was squeezing myself into. I thought that was bad!!! I for insane, I for impossible, I for I seriously can't believe its even possible. I put on my "tent" of a shirt and walk out ...pouting!!! I guess I shouldn't be surprised they do look like fried eggs. I can't wait 19 days and I might just be in a beginning of the alphabet letter bra. I can't wait
From the mouth of babes
OK we are total Gleeks here at my house. We have Netflix just because they carry Glee. Since we got a foot of snow this week, my daughter and I have started watching Glee from season 1 from morning to night! As I am writing this Journey is singing in the background. So one day my daughter said, "Mom, is that how you feel? Like an outcast? Like you are not noticed?" WOW is this my daughter? My 11 yr old ??? She must have gotten all of her in depth intelligence from her mother. She continues, "You know Mom like the kids in Glee....where you wanna be like all the others but you can't because you are just different. I'm not saying its just the same but in a way it is." Is it just the same, well maybe. Not sure if I want to be like every else.but I do want to be the " normal" I'd like to be able to wear normal size clothes, shop in normal shops, and have a normal nickname. Am I a closet Glee kid? Am I still the kid who was still embarrassed by the looks, stares and names girls called me in high school? Have I never out grown the self esteem problems I had back then?
My little girl has struck a cord. My Lil Gleek might have seen something I've been hiding for years. Wow....you can learn a lot from the mouth of babes!
Just too tired.....
Today has killed me. I literally feel like I am carrying a very large adult on my back. My daughter is a fabulous softball player, she is 11 and plays on a 14 U travel softball league. She started last year at the age of 10. Which means she plays with girls that can be 5 years old than she is ( depending on which month the girls birthday is in). Anyway she has started practicing and today we went to the mall to buy her new equipment. We walked everywhere, from one end of mall to the other. I normally have lower back pain but today had the worst pain in my back ( like where your bra goes) I've had it before but wow it was rough today. I tried to keep up with the others but it wasn't happening, nope pain too intense not doing it. Maybe the weight of this HUGE sweatshirt to hide under was doing it. Nah...maybe the 2 sports bras was doing it. Nah...if anything it was cutting off the blood supply and making it numb! I wish I could just embrace all this lovely ness... let the puppies be free. Ive seen some " blessed" women wear cute tees and let there blossums be out for everyone to see. Why couldn't I? Is it because I'm 42? Or that I'm with my family at the mall? Or hearing my mom in the back of mind saying "Angie, it is not acceptable to show all you have to everyone" Really???? Its a tshirt. I don't have on tassles or pasties....wonder why I have issues with my boobs!!! Everyone has always said if you got it, flaunt it. Evidently those people have never been around women with very large breast. You don't flaunt these things. They flop, droop, and rest on the inside of your elbows. If you are lucky you might not zip them into your pants. My kids when they were younger called them " pillows" and would get upset if I had a bra on and it interfered with their snuggling.
With only 16 more days to go, I'm getting so excited. I bought some jammies that button up, comfy leggings, panty liners, anti bacterial soap, peroxide, & bandages today. Just a few things, waiting until Monday after Pre-op to see what other things to get. I wanted to ask everyone a question :
My PS said something about 750 on 1 side & 450 on the other side...do you think that's what he wants to take off or what they are in size now? My mom says they are heavy...I don't think so but they are all I have ever felt. My insurance is paying so I don't know what their requirements are taking off. Whacha think?? Well I hope you all are healing nicely and feeling incredible. Good Night All have wonderful dreams tonight and perky days!!!!
Went for my pre-op today at St Lukes Hospital. Very nice hospital, have never been there before. I'm gonna break in that hospital with a "WooHoo, YIPpEe, and Hallelujah!" in just 14 days. 14 days from right now I will be laying in my hospital room with a forever smile! Since I have been 14 years old these ginormous things have been around. Kind of hard to believe that all this pain that I have felt in my back, neck, & shoulders will be gone!! Its held me back so much in the last few years. These are the years I should be really enjoying. I have wonderful children,family& friends. I have 2 of the most beautiful Grandbabies... our 2 yr old grandson is my heart. He says the best things! He stayed the night last night with me & PopPop (my husband) and I asked him " what is GG gonna do when I can't hold you for 2 weeks?" He grabbed my face and looked at me with his beautiful lil voice he said " I will hold you GG and give u lots of kisses and watch Paw Patrol with you " Priceless!! After this surgery I am going to do so much with all my babies & their babies. Wish you all the luck today ladies happy healing & beautiful looking boobies!
i have a question....
I forgot to ask all of you wonderful ladies earlier some questions.My PS has said no drains and has said I will only have stitches on the inside. Help ....I'm confused! He hasn't said anything about using Arnica or Bromelian (?) I am staying the night of my surgery is that why I will have no drains? OK maybe starting to freak a lil bit....
Help!!!! Only 12 more days
OK I have some questions ( u know I only have 12 more days YayYay)
1) with buying sports bras ( the ones you can wear after the surgical bra) how in the world do you know what size to buy???? I've got some "Biggens" and don't have a clue of what to buy for afterward.
2) Where can I pick up Arnica & Bromalien???? Do I ask the pharmacist? Or do I try a whole food store? Questions & more questions...nerves starting to kick in!
11 days & counting....
Hi all you beautiful beast out there...just checking in. I've been feeling nauseous for a few days now. I feel great otherwise. I'm really thinking I must be more nervous than I am letting on. I told my husband I would swear I was preggo if I could be. See we have 5 kids--- we finally figured out what was causing me to have all these babies and put a stop to it!!! I told my husband if he ever wanted to touch me again he had to get neutered, so 11 years ago while I was still pregnant he did the deed. Plus 7 years ago I had a hysterectomy...so no chance of pregnancy here. Anyway this nausea thing I think is nerves.
I've had surgeries before but I guess not one that is this emotional. Sounds weird I know, but this one is going to change a lot about me. I'm the one with the big boobs---thats my identity! That's been me forever...not saying I've liked it but that's the way its always been. My husband said something that shocked me in a way. He said " I hope u aren't disappointed when its over. I know you, you are going to stress out about your stomach so much afterwards." Okay, ive heard everyone say that they never realized how much bigger their bellies were until their boobies were gone. I get that I will finally see my belly, I get that I'm not in model mode, I get that I'm bigger than I used to be. Was he saying something that he noticed?Did my belly bother him? I'm not vain...I'm doing this so I can finally move!! How in the world am I supposed to have a six pack when I have a full case on my chest? This heavy ness causes more injury than it does anything else. I can lose weight every where but on top, the boobs like this body for some reason and have refused to leave! It sort of upset me when he said this to me ....but then he surprised me and said " U better ask your Dr about the price on a tummy tuck so you will be as hot to yourself as you are to me! Gawd I love that man! Well only 11 more days...not sure if I will be able to handle it!!
Just a question ladies....do anyone else receive an encouragement from NorthLight about doing a drawing??? I'm just confused and don't fully understand....any help out there??? Happy healing u beautiful beasts!!!
Did anyone ....sorry my mind didn't think before it typed
A lil over a week....
That's all I have left. I'm getting so excited. Today as I was putting on my sweatshirt ( of course) I thought to myself "Wow soon this will be too big"" Hallelujah!!! Do u have any idea how tired I am of wearing big shirts to hide my boobs?? I can't wait to show every one that I can be hot if I want to be. I'm at the point where I hate getting ready to go out.. to dinner, friends, anywhere!! I want to get excited to look good....be all pretty & confident. Soon.....if I don't go crazy first. The anticipation of the surgery is killing me.. well happy healing you beautiful beasts! Off to see some friends and play cards before I'm recliner ridden!! Have an awesome night ladies!
6 days pre-op....what?????
Well my demeanor has definitely changed.....I'm freaking nervous! Well anxious.... l feel like something is gonna happen and it will cause me to cancel/ reschedule my appt. A cold, a change in my cholesterol, a snow storm, an avalanche, a sink hole will emerge and swallow my car, E T will invade us .....just something! I've been making sure to buy everything that all of you have suggested... and scrubbing everything in sight to make sure hubby just has to keep things in order. I have 2 Genie bras& 2 sports bras (high impact so these suckers won't move) I got 42 DD because I'm not sure what size I will be after. I'm starting at 42I so i am hoping to get at least a D hopefully a C....fingers crossed!!! My PS hasn't said what I will be after, he has just said he will try to get as small as he can. He has also told me he will be doing the Anchor technique. I just want it done, I literally feel like I'm gonna crawl out of my skin! I have a feeling I won't be doing a lot of sleeping! My mind just thinks about boobs, surgery, recovery, bras, then REPEAT!! I need to chill I know but my mind says NO! Happy healing everyone!
And the count down begins !!!!!!
My surgery is in just 4 days...Im trying to get everything in order. The more I get things in order ,the more I find to get in order. Will it every end??? Bags packed, went to grocery store, laundry done....NERVES GOING STRONG !!! I wish once you have established that you are all set to have surgery that they say "ok how about having your surgery tomorrow?" The anticipation is what is killing me.
Ive looked at so many pics of before & after ..that I really hope I get my size ....my fantasy size! Some ladies are still so big afterwards ( well at least I think so) I don't want to be left big! I have broad shoulders and Im not a size 2...but my PS said he wanted to make me proportionate to my body. He has said that he doesn't KNOW what size I will be after. He said he will mark me up, do those mark-ups, stitch, then sit me up & mark me up again, then do those mark-ups. He wants to make sure Im even ,full enough, and not boxy. I ve got give him props for wanting them to be nice. He said I don't like they way my boobs are now ,he wants to make sure I love them after ! Yay for Dr Baibak !!!
2 of my friends' daughters have used the same PS that I am...they look wonderful! I guess my nerves are getting the best of me !!
Happy healing everyone , I hope you all are feeling beautiful and perky !!!
In just 32 short hours.....
Nerves have kicked in....!!!!
Well today is the day
24 Feb 2014
Day of treatment
Here it is surgery day....I'm leaving BoobVille today. Who ever said get a good nights rest evidently never had surgery before. I woke up every hour to look at the clock...now its 430 am and I'm like a lil kid on Christmas morn. Super excited & anxious... I've got the stomach thing going on...like I swallowed a goldfish. My best friends sent some well wishes which made me feel fabulous! I want to thank everyone on here for all your suggestions & comments...you are all wonderful!! I will see you on the other side.
The surgery is finished...
Hi guys I've made it to the other side! Surgery went great and came out of recovery telling jokes! My husband, parents & sister came up to my room after surgery and I ate my clear liquid diet....felt great! I had to stay yesterday in hospital until 7 pm. I came home kissed my daughter and was sleeping by 10 pm.
My PS said I'm a D...said that was as small as he could go with then being as big as they were. I feel fabulous today, but I know from all of you to keep myself glued to this recliner. I'm gonna get clean today...not looking forward to having to let the boobies breathe. Thanks to all of with your help, suggestions, and comments. Except for all the perverted emails from men ...but I love all u ladies
Day 3 post op
Its been 3 days & it still feels so surreal. Like its a dream and I'm gonna wake up and Blammo the big nasty knockers will be back. My back pain gone...neck pain gone...and besides getting some zingers my body feels great. I'm just darn tired...hoping to get around better &better everyday. I'll try to write more as the days go on...happy healing to all you beautiful beast!
I need help....
I'm swollen & full of gas!! I've been icing these tatas but am still so swollen. My belly is so full of gas it is hard....yesterday I finally took a poopie but only once.
I feel like a big swollen mess...I bet I could float ...no joke!! Help me ladies before I burst!!!!
A bit of a meltdown...
Seen PS yesterday he said they looked great ..to watch some tiny blisters but other than that A OK....then I come home and totally fall apart. Felt like Poop....crying actually bawled and then slept all day today. Help me ...am I losing my mind? I here everything is great then fall to pieces.....is this normal? Give me some love ladies.....
Today my husband and I decided to get some lunch and breathe some fresh air. Well I don't know what was in the air but by the time we got home I absolutely felt like I was riding under the bumper the whole ride. I hurt from all the potholes we rode over, I felt completely raw under the GIRLS and I was so nauseous I could've cried. What is going on? If I go out it seems like I come back sick and so extremely tired. I don't feel like I can get my Oomph back...I feel good until I try to be human. Showering wipes me out too. I'm gonna try to rest longer and try shorter trips I guess. I hope everyone is feeling happy, healthy, & perky!!!
2 week update....
Well its been 2 weeks & its been up & down!!! Physically my boobies are OK...my right one is oh so sore. Its swollen & bruised. My left had some tiny blisters that burst & bled but feels so good. I've iced my eighty soon many times ( about 3/4 times a day) My nipples are on high alert....they are always sensitive ALWAYS sensitive. I don't go back to PS until 3/27 which will be 1 month 3 days post op. He did say if the blisters turn black come see him earlier.
But he said I'm OK until then. My energy level is just BLAH...I'm good for about 2 hrs then I hit rock bottom and fall apart. Its not like I'm out doing anything strenuous just walking around store or something like that. Saturday I decided I was up to getting a haircut /hi-light well I was wrong! Seriously wrong. By the time I was finished I wanted to cry....not hurting just physically drained...completely drained! I love that I had this surgery I just wish I could bounce back from it. Some of you seem to be perfect after a couple weeks....me I don't feel I'm doing as good! Tomorrow is another day...hope to be better soon. Hope all you beautiful beast are healing well and feeling wonderful!
Still so bruised & sore
I'm finally going to post some pics....I've gotten so many perverts that have try to contact me but I'm gonna try 1 more time. My righty is still so bruised....it looks about its about 1 1/2 bigger than the left
You will notice that I have a couple Dog Ears off to the side. All in all I'm healing well but the swelling is horrible & my surgical bra is so terribly uncomfortable. Here are the pics ...I'm off to ice them again!
3 weeks ago
3 weeks ago I went through with the best decision of my life. I'm healing up nicely but as u know I'm still dealing with my left breast still swollen & hot!!! Now under that boobie I have a swollen tender hot spot (like onto my rib) I don't have a clue what's going on....I've been using 2000 mg of bromelein & icing everyday. Time to make a quickly trip to see Dr. Here are week 3pics.....the area of white is new skin not infection. Love u guys
4 weeks today...
Today its been 4 weeks today....I'm finally feeling human. My right boobie is still bruised and very tender but the swelling is finally starting to get under control. I still have tenderness in both breast but it isn't hindering me as much. I really like my new tatas... shirts that I couldn't get into before now are big and it feels great. I see PS on Thursday and waiting him to give OK to start exercise and diet then Blammo this gramma will rock! I hope everyone is healing great and feeling awesome!
Went to 2nd post op visit today and got all restrictions taken away and got the thumbs up to be normal again. The white areas under my breast in my last pics are still open wounds but are healing nicely just was told to put some Bactracin on it. I can now get out of this surgical bra...praise the Lord hallelujah!!! I think I will invent the next surgical bra....mine for the last 4weeks has drove me insane and irritated me so much. New invention alert!!!! I got the go ahead for no wired bras and sport bras....happiest ever!!!! Happy healing girls....pics posted later
9 weeks out.....
30 Apr 2014
2 months post
9 weeks ago I would've never thought I could feel this good! Sure I had a small set back awhile ago but I now feel wonderful. I am able to wear normal size clothes ( the ones with 1 L and not 2 or 3 Ls or Xs) Its nice. Ive been exercising more and feeling more confident than ever. I have recommended this surgery to every one that has asked about my surgery. My husband has been amazing through every bandage he changed and yucky pad he helped with. I will be putting up new pics soon. Thanks to all of you for all your stories and wise words!!!!