My First Breast Implants C to DD 4/9/2007 - Marin County, CA

My consult was good, I was excited, was done with babies, mommy make over! April 9, 2007 big day,,,,, Months later I got a contacture right breast. She recommended I go larger to prevent another. I did it. 800cc , replaced both implants, Months later, same side, another contracture and an infection, she recommends another surgery, replacement and antibiotics, surgery 3, then, again she recommended a fiber technique to stop it from happening surgery4, again infections, now a hole in my right breast, green fluid, it hurt so bad. 3 years into, antibiotics, pain pills, sleeping pills. I ve lost most of my arriola . She recommends I replace the implant and stay on the meds, for 9 months I'm on meds and the hole will not close. I can't take showers, my stomach hurts all the time . I can't sleep. Im so depressed, 5 years into this I'm so sick. I feel like I'm done, I feel ugly , gross , insecure. I can't swim, drink, party . It's been 6 years 8 surgeries, she recommends taking tissue from my hip to close the hole. Leaving the contracture and a deformed breast. At least the hole will be closed. Now , I'm scared of the lumps that have developed. I rushed to get a mamogram!! Omg, I'm so scarred . My test results are good. It's only scar tissue... Moving right along 7 years 8 surgeries, now I requested she take the implant out, it hurt so bad, it was left out from January 2014 to July 2014,I don't know what to do. It's out, now I'm considering the other out, but it looks so bad, I cry everyday. It's leaking still and there's no implant. She convinced me , or I did to give it another shot, she went in , under the breast because of the hole. This way the hole will not happen. October 2014, the hole opens back up, yellow fluid is comming out. Wtf...... Why? I'm still taking antibiotics , had it out for 6 months. I'm done with her and this whole nightmare. I'm searching for help , I'm sick, I'm on meds 8 years now, my arriola is almost gone , I'm always week, I'm depressed, I can't do anything. I felt like I had to tell me entire story today. I need you all to know that it's ok to feel and do what I did but it's not ok for your doctor to keep you medicated and keep performing the same surgeries knowing that's not going to work because of what's happend. I'm sure she didn't mean harm me and I'm sure she wanted me to feel good and it to work out but it's amazing that a doctor would do this so many times. I would of preferred years ago, if she said " you know what , you are going to get a contracture no matter what we do, because you've had several" why keep me believing that it could get better? Why keep me believing that another surgery would help fix? I hope that all these medications didn't do permanent damage to me. Fyi all 9 surgeries cost , what was suppose to be 6,000, turned into over 27,000 , Time of work, medications, severe depression, this has taken 8 years to end up deformed from my right breast, to large, leaking , I don't know why I continued to have all these surgeries over and over. 4 days ago I had them both removed. I feel good.

I'm recovering and my Breast is changing as time goes by. I'm not sure how much better it can look and honestly I feel destroyed . All the infections, all the surgeries, removal and new forming scar tissue, medications that weekend my immune system now I'm having to take supplements , hoping that it helps me heal better.