40 Yr Old Divorced Mother of 2 Committing to a Better Self -Manhattan, NY

Didn't want to post anything until I saw changes. But heck! I want to be of service to others who are entering this journey. I know witnessing others experiences helped me before I had my surgery.

Still riding high, square boobs, sensitive and low nipples...ugh! I feel my muscles throbbing @ times??? I don't know what else to call it ;-) I don't think I've started to drop. There is too much upper fullness, I want the lower pole fullness and my nipples to be centered already! I've learned this is when lots of patience must come in and I must allow my pec muscles to do what they need to do with their new 350cc alien silicone friends.

Last week was my 3rd week post, she said my incisions are too dark and ordered a scar cream compounded "specially" for me from some pharmacy in Florida. I've been discharged until August and given the green light to wear any bra I want. She doesn't believe in massages. I still don't love my new boobies yet I am happy with my decision to have this surgery. It has been transforming! An undeniable work in progress in and out...LITERALLY! I've been up and I've been DooOowwwwN. No regrets. I was emotional the past two weeks. After reading redglory's experiencing the same, I'll embrace the changes within and just be there for me, as I now understand this is how my body is coping to surgery and the implants.

One thing that makes me grin, is the thought of not having to use the bra inserts this summer...wooohooo!!! YES!!! THANNNK YOUUUU GOD! There were times I had been so worried the inserts would come out of place and will show by the sides if I was wearing a tank top or a dress in the summer or that they'd fall out of my bra. Once, many years ago, at a friend's bday party, one fell on the floor while I was dancing, I kicked it far and someone shouted "someone lost a breast!" I knew I'd been the one yet I laughed w the rest of the crowd "ha hahhaha" and continued dancing...jeez. So grateful I know for sure it will not happen again.

Kisses!

Well my lovely boobs sisters....Here I am 14 days later. Work has been kicking my ass this week, I still feel sleepy all the time. Keeping up w my vitamins. I have permission to start working on my lower body only. I was very bad 2 nights ago, had a work event and the dress I was wearing looked very strange so i decided to wear a STRAPLESS UUNnNnndER wire PADDED bra! Boy oh boy did I pay for that! They did look sort of normal BUT OMG was I in pain. My boobs got really hard, all my pec nerves were killing me, my nipples were extremely sensitive, my sternum was painful. My incisions where swollen. When I left the event, I took my bra off on the train!!!! Yes I DID! Thank God it was a bit chill in NYC so I wore a thick shawl over. When I arrived home I iced them, gently massaged w the arnica cream and lavender oil, took 2 ES Tylenols & a sleeping pill. Slept propped up on all my pillows & woke up w the worts morning boob pain & while holding on to my boobies I kept punishing myself for deliverately disobeying my PS post op instructions & begging my ELEVEN THOUSAND FIVE HUNDRED FIFTY DOLLARS BOOBS to plllleeaaassseee be ok! It was very scary my boobies sisters...don't do anything as stupid as what I did...They seem to feel better today. They look lopsided to me, righty still high, now higher that b4, but I take accountability for my stupidity. I keep icing them...ooh :-( I see my PS next wednesday...kisses to all - this was my week...

Hello my dear all...one week yesterday. I believe the swelling is down. I'm still very sleepy all the time. Laying off the muscle relaxants. Haven't had pain killers for quite a few daya, just ES Tylenol. Getting ready to go back to work Monday...I really don't think anyone will notice bc I look exactly like I did w my paddings & chicken cutlets. I really want them to drop and fluff but so do all of us right? I'll be patient :-)
Oh nipples, jeezzz so sensitive....
Have an entire day scheduled w my 12 year old, hair, nails, pedicure, facial. I told work I was on vacation and right now I look like like I just got back from the valley of death! My little one goes back to skl Monday...she was a great nurse along w my oldest and my Mum. Mum flew back home last evening. She actually behaved!!! She didn't feel too much like a stranger + she complimented how my daughters and I love each other and said "you've done well"...you see, I have siblings and we haven't spoken in years. My Mum & I speak every so often during the year & both her & one of my sisters come to NYC to shop...we r very different! I fight hard to deep root sisterhood, acceptance, respect, forgiveness, compassion and tolerance in my girls...
Aaaanyhoo...you all know more about me than the ppl i've worked w for more than 10 years! I thank you everyday!!
Ok so i'll update everyweek for now...to show u how these babies start dropping.