Its Time for a Change

Back in 2008 I had a Breast Augmentation (at the Plastic Surgery Group) and now looking back I probably should of just had a lift, but for the first couple of years everything was fine with them and I enjoyed them. back in 2013 one of my implants started to leak so I had to have them replaced. Luckily they were still under warranty, but I wanted to have my areolas reduced this time around and I wanted my breast smaller also, I wanted to go from a "DD" to a full "C" to a full "D" (which is the size I wanted when I first went in to have them done back in 2008). I had larger areolas before and didn't really think that with getting larger implants would cause my breast to stretch even more and cause my areolas to get even BIGGER. When I first had the corrected surgery (done by a different Dr. then the 1st time) done I was very pleased with the results. My areolas were smaller and looked great and my breast were firmer and perky again. And then the swelling went down and some of the perkiness went away. The stitches that the Dr. used did not hold very well. I had some pull apart and left huge keloid scars around my areolas, I finally finished healing and soon after my areolas started to stretch again due to the weight of my breast. Now I have huge horrible scars all the way around my areolas and they look even bigger then thy did in the beginning. I have been horrified with the way they look, I don't even want my husband to see them or even touch them. I hate looking in the mirror at them and wish I never would of touched them back in 2008, they absolutely look disgusting now. So many times I have just cried thinking what did I do to myself. I finally got up enough courage to go see my Dr. back in October and he looked at them and was defiantly not happy with the results and offered to do a revision surgery for me at a small cost, I don't know he even understood me in the examining room from all my crying trying to tell him how unhappy I was with everything. I had to think about it and talk it over with my husband and see what his thought on it would be but deep down I wanted this done so bad and I think my husband understood and knew how these scar bags on me made me feel, I just wanted to feel sexy in front of him again. Over the holidays I finally got up the courage to call the Dr. back and schedule my revision surgery again...I'm scheduled for Feb. 12th and I am so nervous. I just want this to be the last surgery that I have to have on my breast. I have been watching the other stories on here for a while and see everybody else's positive outcomes and just hope that I will have somewhat of the same outcome. I'm not asking for perfect but anything has got to be better then what I have now. I just want to feel sexy with my husband again, and leave the lights on and not cringe when I see him looking at them again.

Well tomorrow morning is my revision surgery. I'm getting a bit nervous and just want this all to be over with and have normal cute boobs again. I'll post pics tomorrow of the before and after. I'm going to try to get my original pics for 2008 from the Dr. that did them. I used to have them on my compute but its locked up and I can't get to them right now.
I will be having a Lift with smaller implants than what I have now. Anybody have any idea on how long the pain will last? How many days should I be taking off work?

Feeling a bit better, still a struggle to sleep. I'm used to sleeping on my stomach or my side so being forced to sleep on my back is a struggle.