May 9th to July 9th

Today is exactly 2 months! The time has flown by and I'm very happy with everything. Hard to imagine when you are recovering those first three weeks that you will be close to normal at the two month mark. Better define close to normal...ha! I can do almost anything without pain, but I am still very guarded. I haven't tried an extensive workout or ab exercises. I'm still walking and jogging in intervals. I do cardio and light weight intervals as well. I have gone on a few bike rides without any trouble. I've stayed on land instead of riding our jet skis. Gearing up for a week long motorcycle trip in a few weeks. Still swelling at the end of the day, especially if I haven't had my cg on. Danced at a wedding and my husband tried to dip me back...yeah, that didn't go so well. Sneezing is a burning [RS bleep] so I try to stop that at all costs...looks pretty silly I'm sure. If I tence up quickly I feel a dull pain and burn through my lower abs. As everyone says, each day and every week just gets better and better.

The scars: still red but much better. I started using Medirma at three weeks and scar away silicone sheets at around five weeks. No science behind five weeks, it just took me that long and a spontaneous trip to Walgreens to decide to try it.

Breasts are small but so so very sweet! Nothing hangs!! Had a girlfriend comment on them from a picture of me in a swimsuit, " Did you get new boobs? They look great!". I just laughed and said, "Ha, noooo.. Look at me, I'm smaller than you!". Technically they aren't new, just brought back to standing, right, ladies? Not sure if I will ever get implants at my age so small and perky just might be good enough. I really liked their size right after surgery when they were a bit swollen. There not much different now, so I'm not complaining. I was concerned at first about the left nipple being flat but it has taken shape thank God! Scars on the left side are wider in places then the right side. That bums me out but I'm hoping they will fade. I have found that its still important to massage them on a regular basis. If I don't, they get sorta hard in places and can be very sensitive, especially when hugging people. (Lots of hugging at the wedding we went to)

Lipo is still sore in places but only when I rub it. it was the worst of the three things I did, but worth it.

My relationship still seems to be struggling. My husband has told me on numerous occasions how beautiful he thinks I am, but there is this fog still learking between us and quick comments such as," don't you wish you would have left things alone?" thrown out by him every now and then. Time will hopefully heal all things.

It's very easy to pick myself apart after the surgery. Before I had the MM I thought I was targeting ALL the things about myself that I didn't like. Now that the healing is going well and the improvements are so wonderful, I am finding all kinds of other flaws I would love to have "touched up". That's more of a dream then a reality, however. For one, I don't have the support at home to go through any other procedures, two, there are a million other things to spend money on and three, it's important to see the beauty within and not obsess with the outward appearance. PS can be addictive. I'm happy with my outcome and I'm happy with who I am! I'm going to take all my blessing and run with it!

I forgot I wanted to post measurements. I have lost a total of 20.5 inches, that's doubling legs though.

Bust -2.25 (really didn't need that but small and perky is better then LONG)

Waist -1.25 (You can see by my before pix that I had a nice curve for a waist already. I currently have a 28 inch waist. That has always been an assets of mine. Stinks however that pants never fit very well cuz I would have to buy them bigger to fit my butt and thighs. Sometimes a small waist can make your butt look bigger too!)

Abdomen -6.75 of loose skin! Yes!

Hip -2.75 this changed more then I thought.

Thighs -7.5 for both

I also wanted to share that not all husbands are instantly into this transformation. My husband didn't want me to do this. He said he thought I was beautiful the way I was. He honestly can not see/understand how I felt about myself. I showed him my before naked pictures and told him to look at them. I said tell me honestly what's attractive about this?? He then pulled up pictures I had taken of my stomach and boobs during this healing process and he said back to me, tell me what's attractive about this? I held back tears. He hates the scars and reminded me I did this for myself not for him. I have become less attractive to my husband... Not more attractive. I read how fantastic other women's spouses are to them during the very tough first three weeks. Washing their hair, helping with drains and meds, taking weeks off to help, going to PO appointments. Not everyone gets that dream either. I'm not saying any of this to be down or negative. I just think its important to know that this is no joke of a surgery. It's expensive, it's taxing on you mentally and physically, as well as, on your family and for some of you it may not be all peaches and cream. I had very little go wrong procedure wise.. I can't imagine what a nightmare it might have been had I not been so lucky. Everything that has gone wrong for me is the support side of things. No compliments, no one interested in my milestones good, bad or indifferent and any help that was there is long gone after the first week or two. Many moms are the ones taking care of the family. The fun of taking care of mom, the laundry, the dishwasher, the pets, the vacuuming, the yard...wears off very quickly. The family wants you back to your usual duties. I'm really sounding like a downer here. I truly apologize. We prepare for the big day in so many ways. I wasn't prepared for what comes after.

First week back to work. I loved being around the people but I'm on my feet all day and hurting by the time I get home. I start out like a bouncy ball and come home deflated. Lol. this is a very tricky stage of recovery. You think you are feeling better then your body may be ready for. I still feel very bruised within. My skin hurts to touch it under my breasts and all through the middle of my stomach. Kinda like the feeling of a sunburn with a bruise underneath. I'm guessing it's the nerves firing back up. I don't go back for a check up until the 29. I'm scared to death to try any sort of exercising at this point. Kind of in the mind frame of there's no need to rush it. My body will tell me when and how much. I feel great about the procedure. I'm a little disappointed I didn't do my flanks but I'm not even sure it would have been worth the trouble. I don't tolerate pain and it sounds like that's a tough area to recover. I'm surprised I'm not in a better mood, like giddy happy. There's a part of me that seems a little depressed. Maybe it's the healing part, the long recovery with the swelling, some pain, the compression garments and the waiting of the final results in the months to come.

Lots planned for fathers day tomorrow. He definitely deserves something for all he's done these past few weeks!
Have a great weekend, Ladies!