dr bartell ONLY uses saline mentor moderate profile implants. His results aren't bad, but look elsewhere for better results!!

Some of you may or may not know that this review was from my first initial surgery for my BA. I did start another "revision" review under my new dr but always seemed to update on this review. I have updated my dr review on both Drs and I am seeking a new dr that I can trust that will help me fix my concerns. I don't know if I will start a new review under my current username once I find a new dr or if I will start a whole new account all together. It's been very helpful in reading back through my updates to remind me of the things I experienced but I do need to start a new review on my new journey and I'm just not sure what the "right" way to go about that is at the moment. I am also hoping to upload some last and final pictures of my before and after to both reviews but I need to figure out a way to scan them or somehow get them on here since they are a copy of what my surgeon gave me. Which ever route I go in starting my new review/journey I hope to not lose contact w those of you that have followed me and that I have followed. Love you all so deeply and can't express enough how much support I have gotten from everyone on here!!!! People aren't on here don't understand but I believe this website is the most legit one out there!!!

Well... On to seeking a new surgeon and the next chapter in this process! Hoping for the best and that this will finally be done and over with once and for all! :) then I can finally stop looking like a loon!! I swear I'm not and I truly just want to move on from all of this.

Well I had two consults today, one with a new dr that I haven't met with in the past and the 2nd w the other surgeon I consulted w back in April. I'm feeling even more overwhelmed and unsure of what the right thing is to do and 2nd guessing my judgement more than ever.

1st consult today: was a female dr about an hour away..has awesome reviews everywhere I've looked online and has the personality I am seeking for patient care. Very understanding, listens, takes her time, very detailed and truly seems to have your best interest at heart-wants to make sure things are done correctly from the start and will tell you how it is without over promising things she can't deliver. My only true concern is that she has only been in practice for 5 years (if you include residency and all that more like 10, but usually you don't count that). She looked at my pre op photos, and the results I had at my 3 month check up from my first surgery and she could tell immediately why I was unhappy with my results, they were my old boobs with more volume and the shape just wasn't pretty. And then with my revision the dr just stuffed in more volume to give me the rounder look I was trying to achieve. She suggested a full lift with silicone implants I could chose between mod plus and HP. She also agreed with my assumptions that the first surgeon dissected my left pocket poorly and said she'd do everything in her power to figure out what was wrong and correct what she finds but couldn't promise any guaranteed results.

2nd consult: he was pretty set on just taking the implants out all together and just living/dealing without them.. I did not like the idea of this at all, I asked about removing them with a lift and he didn't think the lift was necessary and said that a lift w downsizing would be a bad idea. He said I could downsize but wanted to stick in the 350/375 range.. And didn't think I'd need a lift if I downsize. Which there is no way I am doing that! I will be very unhappy w the results. And his prices were ridiculous!

So I'm really on the fence here! I liked the female dr and her approach but I'm scared like hell to move forward with any of this! I have lots of thinking to do and I'd like to consult w a 3rd dr to get their opinion. I really feel like my first surgeon messed up my pocket causing damage to the muscle which is also giving me animation deformities on the left side at this time I truly feel like a 3rd surgery most likely won't fix my pain and explanting, allowing the pocket and muscle to heal and then starting all over from scratch may be the best route to go, but I'm not sure I can swallow that at the moment and I can only imagine how much of a toll that will take on me mentally and I don't know if I can handle it.

I haven't been on here much in months, here and there I have to check in on a few ladies and research a few questions I've had but no update in months.

My left boob STILL HURTS! I am a year and 2 months out from my initial surgery(saline w armpit incision 500 & 525 cc) i am coming up on 8 months post op from my implant exchange (breast fold Incision, switched to Silicone 700cc uhp,why uhp? When I thought I was getting HP) the strange pain in my armpit is gone for the most part, however I still feel something weird under my skin "rubbing" against the inside of my tissues. This pain has come and gone for some time now, at this point I cannot wear a bra of ANY kind! While massaging my breasts I was slightly bent forward and w my hand under my left breast pressing inward and upward I felt the strangest thing, like a tugging from my crease to my nipple (inside under the skin) as if it has a thread connected that's pulling my nipple from the inside!

I keep trying to research this and some say it could be early signs of CC. And other say pain/discomfort is not the first sign! Well what the hell?! Then I found something that indicated mondors cord, but that it isn't "common" to have it where I do and for where I'm at post op wise, it usually runs from the crease down towards the stomach and subsides. I have tried a warm compress, consistent ibuprofen to reduce swelling and have been taking 1,000 UI of vitamin e daily since my revision surgery in December. At times it almost feels like the implant is too big for the pocket. They look pretty much the same and both feel the same. So I am completely stumped as to what is going on here! But I want an answer!

I have had so much anxiety, worry and fear over these "stupid" boobs that at times I wish I never did any of it. The thought of downsizing them has crossed my mind several times lately but Of course that comes with additional surgery, such as possibly a lift and I'm pretty sure pocket recision. I haven't talked to the dr yet but the only logic thing to do in my mind is to have them removed, have the capsule removed, and possibly new pocket placement with replacement implants that are mod plus. Not what I want to do but I fear that the volume I need in HP won't be small enough to make a difference in the discomfort I am feeling. So I would basically be back to square one when I had my first set placed in and wasn't happy w how flat they looked, however I'd rather have those boobs than painful boobs or none at all!!! And I also feel that the only way to fix any problems I may be having w my pocket is to remove the capsule and "start fresh" but the thought of that scares me also!! I have an apt w my dr Friday to see what he suggests. But I am not hopeful that he will offer any help. I also booked a 2nd consult w the dr I saw back in April to get his thoughts on all of this incase my surgeon doesn't help.

Ugh!!! End of rant...