Want These Toxic Stupid Things out of my Body - Los Angeles, CA

My profile picture is of myself, 15 years ago, prior to making the huge mistake of having breast implants. I was a small A. Always liked my breasts, but wished they were bigger. Was totally unaware of all the risks and the major trauma to the body/ pectoral muscles and thought it would be a simple surgery to both do, and undo! Boy was I wrong. I woke up completely traumatized by the way I looked, and more so by the way I felt! I knew I had done irreparable damage to my body. I was a model and had many model friends who had had he procedure before me. They all told me to wait it out... They will drop, they will settle, etc. They never did. They were placed too high up, and they were not symmetrical. I hated them. But I buried it. I didn't want to go through another surgery and I just kept waiting for them to get better. I also started working a ton, which distracted me from how I really felt about them! Fast forward to 14 years later, after two kids, breastfeeding both of them for a year each (with much difficulty thanks to my implants) I was no longer modeling and thought about having them removed. I made the mistake of going to a world renound breast augmentation specialist to discuss removal. I did so only because, of course, thanks to the industry I am in, he is the dr who has worked on a lot of my friends and they were happy with him, and I was ignorant enough to think that someone who does such amazing work implanting must do great work ex planting. DUMB. Not the way it works. But I wouldn't know if he's good at removal or not because he convinced me that I would look horrendous... Not only flat but possibly CONCAVED. He told me that the only reason I am unhappy with my artificial breasts is because they are saline (firm) they are placed too high, and I have capsular contracture. He convinced me that if he removes the capsules, replaces them with silicone, releases the muscle more at the bottom to lower them, that I will be extremely happy with the result. 20G later I still hate them. And worse, I have stage two capsular contracture AGAIN. But of course I do! Because it almost ALWAYS reoccurs in patients with previous CAP CON, but my surgeon did not tell me that, of course. Anyway, thanks to all the ladies here on real self I am confident that explant is the right thing to do! I believe my surgeon was full of crap that I will be concave, and I have had a few consults here with local doctors who disagree and they don't even think I will need a lift. I have also become aware of some of the health risks involved with having implants, or a poorly done explant so I am considering Dr. Feng, Dr. Melmed or Dr Kolb. As they specialize in removing all the bed stuff with your implant to ensure there is no more toxic crap left in your body, while taking care to save all the previous healthy tissue! Please comment if you have anything to say about any of these doctors or if you had an amazing explant with another?? Thanks ladies!

I am so excited to have a surgery date set with dr. Feng! I am scheduled for March 9th but I'm hoping to get in on a cancellation. Linda who is the head coordinator is so amazing... She answered all of my questions and made me feel so comfortable. I'm so impressed with the way the office is run. I feel really good about this, and j can't wait to have my own body back!!

I've been completely freaking out the last few days. I saw read some bad reviews on the Internet and my imagination got the best of me. (My imagination can be a little over active!!) I started imagining the worst results possible... Big thick scars and totally deformed saggy breasts :( I couldn't sleep, made myself sick/ rundown, crying, the whole deal. Then I picked up the phone and called Linda at feng's office and told her how I was feeling and she put me completely at ease and reminded me of why I want to do this. OMG rhisnisndo hard!! And I know this is just the beginning. Thank goodness for this website and all you ladies posting your honest feelings... Without you all I would feel so alone and have no idea what to expect down the road to come. So thank you so much ???????? and I hope I can count on reviving some support from you all when I need it!! ????????