19 Years Old and Extremely Self Conscious. Long Island, NY

From the time I was 12 or 13 I was so insecure...

From the time I was 12 or 13 I was so insecure about how I looked down there. At one point I even told my mom that I was turning into a boy because I thought I was growing testicles (poor kid). I showed my mom pictures similar to what I looked like and she told me that's normal for people to look like that and that I wasn't a boy lol. So as I got older kids were becoming more sexually active and I was petrified of anyone ever seeing me. Whether it was a girl in a locker room or a boy I was so so so scared of anyone ever seeing me. Also to add in that there were social media posts relating girls labia to chewed up gum or roast beef and there would be captions saying "when you find out a girl looks like this" and there were all these negative comments about how guys don't want someone who looks like that and how large labia are disgusting and for years this all played into my insecurities.
Just before my 19th birthday I had been dating an amazing boy for only a month but I decided I wanted to have sex for the first time. I was scared out of my mind but when he saw how I looked he didn't question or comment until afterwards. He didn't believe I was a virgin because it's something in the social media that's thought to happen to girls who have a lot of sex (as ridiculous as it sounds) and I told him how utterly embarrassed and difficult it was for me to do that but he told me that it didn't change his outlook towards me at all and that it didn't matter. For months after I still wouldn't do certain positions because of my insecurities. Around January I made the date for April 21st to be the day finally after several years id have the surgery:). In no way did my boyfriend ever try persuading me in one way or another he was extremely supportive through everything but anyways. I was under local anesthetic and didn't feel a thing other than a few tugs or pinches here and there.

Day 2

Swelling isn't too bad neither is the pain I was on heavy pain meds thankfully that pretty much put me to sleep. Drinking at least 2 quarts of water a day taking antibiotics and using bacitracin where the stitches were so the skin wouldn't break

Day 3

Swelling has definitely gone up. I had a dinner that I was forced to go to that day so I pretty much took as many pain meds as possible and hoped for the best.. Everything was pretty much fine until around the 3rd hour of sitting and I felt like I needed to go home

Day 3 (night after the dinner)

Day 4

I knew something was wrong.. Turns out it was the early signs of a yeast infection

Day 5

The yeast infection caused more pain than anything involved with the surgery. The itchiness was going to drive me insane I felt like I was losing my mind. This was by far the worst so far

Day 6

Taking meds for the yeast infection hopefully it goes away within the next 2 or 3 days

Day 8

The yeast infection symptoms are slowing up thank god.. I can practically walk normal and sit up comfortably now.

Day 8

Still having trouble walking normal so my dads been getting a bit suspicious (still haven't told him about anything). Sitting and laying down is fairly comfortable I heard by 1 month I'll be back to normal so I'm just praying for the next 3 weeks to be quick.

Day 9 wacky hair doo

Day 9

Day 10

walking is finally normal even though it's at the speed of a snail but I'll take that any day over walking like a cowboy. I've been having itchiness and I've heard that's because of the stitches

1 week

2 weeks 4 days

3 weeks

4 weeks

Actual before picture

Full recovery

I've resumed all previous activities and soooooo happy with my results

Standing before

Manhattan OB/GYN

My doctor was really professional was very good with responding if I have any follow up questions he would always respond really quick and inform me on what's going on and was very supportive

5 out of 5 stars Overall rating
5 out of 5 stars Doctor's bedside manner
5 out of 5 stars Answered my questions
5 out of 5 stars After care follow-up
5 out of 5 stars Time spent with me
5 out of 5 stars Phone or email responsiveness
5 out of 5 stars Staff professionalism & courtesy
5 out of 5 stars Payment process
5 out of 5 stars Wait times
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