26 y.o, 5.4', 125lbs/57kg with deflated B, hoping for a natural C and lower pole fullness - 255cc Mod+ Anatomical. Dual Plane

hello ladies
Today was my first day back at work and boy was it nice to have a distraction from my frankenboobs.

Amazingly, I have been militant with the arnica and as of Tuesday after getting the all clear from my PS, my horrible bruising instantly started to disappear!!!

One thing that isn't great is my appetite - boy do I want to eat...and all of those naughty foods too!!!
I need to behave myself the scales have shot back up to 58kg which is no surprise given I have been waffling down carbs and various other comfort food like nobody's business.

After work was straight to the hospital to get my stitches trimmed and saw my incisions for the very first time. Raised and bumpy and PS says I can expect these to become worse before they get better and to prepare myself for some major itching...apparently the tape can come off in a week.

I took notes from the meeting and will try and post these soon. Now to start thinking about scar therapy, massaging and what to use. Tagederm diamond has been suggested as well as silicone gel, so may take to the forum again for recommendations. My concern is hyperpigmentation, as a couple of other scars have ended up pretty dark and I would love to have some nice light scars on the girls...so if anyone has any recommendations or experience please do let me know.

Wishing you all well and enjoying reading/commenting on everyone else's updates.

Night night!

Hi all,

Thanks for your kind messages yesterday when I was freaking out big time.

I was woken up at 7am by my phone ringing and it was my surgeon. I heard his voice and Al,out burst in to tears (so emotional what is going on I!)
Further to my day 6 post, he told me to come in immediately to see him, that all had looked good at the end of surgery and it was best he took a proper look at me if not only to alleviate my concerns.

Made my way to the hospital and he got me a coffee and talked through the surgery a bit. He explained that my prodecure had involved manipulation of my IMF, and that the asymmetry I started out with in both breast and ribcage meant that my breasts had different treatment during surgery, which could be why one had bruising and the other (which had dropped) was fine.
He explained that the fibres at my IMF (crease) had been broken to allow the implant and crease to drop to a lower position, and as my crease had been slightly more pronounced on the right hand side than the left (where my ribcage also protrudes slightly - didn't know this until my initial consultation as its invisible to the eye) that more work had been done on the tissues here.
He said that the left implant was dropping and that there can be liquid and strange swelling coming and going throughout the healing process and that he believed the implant was still in position (I.e. Had not rotated and was still behind the muscle at the top) or 'dropped'. I must've gotten used to the high swollen look!!!
Once the swelling had gone down on both sides true implant positioning would be much clearer and would make the assessment then. He said his main concern for me was that the implants both dropped correctly in to the new fold and that due to substantially more bruising on the right side, that this may take some time to catch up progress wise.

He removed the plasters to check the incisions on both and see the bruise on my right breast properly. I was so so relieved to see that once the plaster was removed that what looked like a huge pool of blood gathering was smatterings of bruises and some clear skin by the incision - I genuinely believed he would remove this and the whole area would be covered.
He said he wished he could wrap me in cotton wool, that I should not be doing any more 'strange experiments' (i.e. Strange pose from yday' pic) and basically to chill and trust my body.

I walked to Hampstead, got lunch (scrambled eggs and smoked salmon) and worked in a cafe afterwards, then came home around 3pm and slept for 5 hours!!! Had no idea I was so tired. I had a friend visiting Sun/Mon, went out Sunday night and went to an MSc study session on Mon too as worried I would drop behind, especially given how crazy work will be when I return this Thursday.
I've probably pushed myself a little hard upon realising I wouldnt be bedridden with the pain - my first post re a Game of Thrones marathon in bed hasn't even come close to happening!

In conclusion, I think that is probably the real issue here - I know I have been doing too much and don't trust my body after frequent viral infections, horrendous tonsillitis in adulthood and fluctuating weight all of my life.
A huge cold sore has appeared today And I get them when stressed or run down, so I guess is likely due to the antibiotics and an intense day of anxiety/paranoia yesterday.
I'm eating my pineapple, popping my arnica pills as required, scoffing protein like my life depends on it, glugging coconut water (which I am now slightly addicted to - not good given the sugar content) & trying to rest.
SO...I just need to keep doing it, stop freaking myself out, trying to push myself to recover overnight and start trusting my body and being logical about it.

Quite the emotional spill but want to document everything as I know I can't be the only one, and also want to look back on this in 6 months and see how far I've come.

Night ladies and thanks for reading :)
Elle x

The bleeding has not changed and the other implant has fallen...what appears to be too far down and also inwards. There is a double bubble appearing also which I noticed in the fitting room of the shop I visited earlier. I was so surprised that I came home immediately because since this morning something hasn't felt right. I emailed over the weekend saying I could not wait until Thursday to see or speak with my surgeon re the bleeding but the other breast was not acting up either at this point. I am so frightened and am 99% sure I have an infection and that I will need to have the bleeding drained. I got the PS assistants out of office when I emailed, she is back tomorrow and he is on holiday until Thursday.

I got home from the shops and just had to take the adhesive band off, because I wanted to see if there was bruising under the skin around the edge of the implant and how even/uneven they were. It's hard to tell with my complelexion you see as bruising often appears yellow, greenish or even brown when under my skin - it is green where my IV was.

No out of hours number was provided and I feel very upset and alone. I'm worried that my left implant has rotated and bottomed out and that my right is infected. Financially/time wise with my busy job resolving is going to be such a huge challenge for me and really not what I had hoped for or expected. Maybe I am panicking in the absence of my PS to advise here. When I look at that photo (post shower, bio oil because of all the weird changes and arms behind my back to show the current implant positioning) it makes me want to burst in to tears.

Please keep your fingers crossed for me ladies, I'm petrified.