25 Years Old, 9 Stone, 5'6'' - Wanted to Look Like a Woman! Got 400cc HP Over The Muscle

Photos didn't upload with my last post again...

I’ve now reached (and passed) the three month mark! It’s actually closer to four months now, but I kept forgetting to post an update.

So I love my boobs; absolutely love them. They have dropped a little further and are squishy. They bounce when I walk, like natural ones, and I don’t think they look super fake at all. Even in a bra they look fab and just like natural ones in a very good push-up bra. They’re even a little closer together now, about a 1.5 inch gap when it was 2 inches before.

No one has noticed. My boyfriend is still the only person who knows. My parents haven’t noticed, and none of my friends have either. Recently I was talking to a friend who never knew my size and we were talking about bras so I made her guess mine. I was wearing a fairly slim-fitting top and she still guessed 32C – which was actually my old size (before people guessed me as a 32B). So she was surprised when I told her 32E!

I had my three-month check up with Mr Meleagros. I heard it would be brief, but my gosh that’s an understatement. I arrived about ten minutes early but was taken in quickly. This is how it went:

Mr M: (while on his phone) Hello how are you?
Me: Great thanks, yourself?
Mr M: Good (finishes call). So was your recovery good?
Me: Yes
Mr M: Any numb areas on the breast or nipple?
Me: No
Mr M: Ok let’s have a look
(I start taking my top off, meanwhile his phone rings. He answers, so I stop undressing and wait. After about 30 seconds he hangs up so I take my top and bra off)
Mr M: Stand over here please
Me: (moves)
Mr M: Ok they look good. (Lightly squishes each side of each boob, about half a second on each) I can’t feel the implant (writes notes, then lifts each boob) the scars will fade (writes notes). You can put your things back on.
Me: (while dressing) So I’m good to wear underwires now?
Mr M: You can wear anything you like.
Me: Ok (sits down)
Mr M: So everything is fine. If you have any questions you can phone the clinic whenever you like.
Me: Ok great
Mr M: (stands up and walks to door)
Me: Ok thank you, bye.
Mr M: Thank you, bye

And then I left. Done! No need to go back there again (unless something goes wrong!). But since I had to take a day off work to go to the appointment, I made the most of it and went into central London to go bra shopping!

So Bravissimo are great! I personally didn’t find a bra that fit well, however their service is fantastic and they go down to a 28 back size. I found out that I fit into a 30 back size much better than a 32, which made me a 30F. I also discovered my left boob is ever so slightly bigger. The store is near Oxford Circus so I’d recommend going if you’re in the area.

I went to the Fenwick department store on Bond Street and thought I’d try on some Chantelle bras, as I’ve seen them recommended on Real Self. They only went down to a 32 back, and were around £60 which was a bit much, but since I was there I tried it on anyway. Meanwhile the sales assistant asked through the curtain if she could take a look and help, so I figured why not. She agreed the band was too big, and assuming £60 was my budget she came back with two bras in a 30F for about £60 each too. Eek. I tried them on to be polite, but then they fit perfectly! Like the most amazing bra I’ve ever worn in my life. The cups fit beautifully and the wire touched my rib cage the whole way round, including between my breasts, which I’ve never had before! They were a French brand called Maison Lejaby and both were the Elixir bra, one in lace, one plain. So I just bought both! They’re in nude so I can wear them with everything.

I’ve picked up a few tips for bra care that I never did before.
- Always wash them in a mesh delicates bag so they don’t get caught on other washing.
- Never wash with wool detergent as it stretches them.
- Never store bras with one cup folded into another; always store them flat.
- Alternate between different bras so you don’t wear the same one two days in a row.

I’ve also got two sports bras. The Panache Wired Sports Bra in a 30F for the gym, and the Shock Absorber Ultimate Run Bra in a 32DD for running. The panache bra is great as it has a little padding to hide nipples. The run bra’s underband was really tight, hence I got a 32, and I went down a cup-size so it was super tight when running.

I really need to do more in the gym. Recovery + Christmas + winter has resulted in me putting on some weight, particularly around my stomach which I hate. I would love to have my 24 inch waist from two years ago back – I just need to work out hard!

Here are my before and after measurements:

Before:
Height: 5’6’’
Weight: 9 stone / 126 lbs / 57kg (give or take a few pounds)
Bra size: 32C
Bust measurement: 34”
Underbust measurement: 28”
Waist measurement: 27”
Hips (widest part of bum) measurement: 37.5”

3 months after:
Height: 5’6’’
Weight: 9 stone, 4 lbs / 130 lbs / 59kg (give or take a few pounds)
Bra size: 30F
Bust measurement: 37”
Underbust measurement: 27”
Waist measurement: 27” / 28”
Hips (widest part of bum) measurement: 38.5”

I haven’t got a smaller underbust; I’ve just got better at measuring!

Meanwhile sleeping has been fine. I’ve even started sleeping occasionally on my front. I still sleep in my Macom bra though. I’ll probably keep doing this until at least six months for ‘peace of mind’ more than anything else. I bought the Cosabella Never Say Never Sweetie Soft Bra (which is a lace crop top) to sleep in when I’m done with the Macom. It really is very soft, with no itchy seems. They also do one with a little padding if you want to wear it out. But from reviews most people wear it as a round-the-house comfy bra. I got one in both small and medium.

I finished my Scar Strips, not convinced they did anything at all! So I’ve since switched to just bio-oil. Not sure it that’s working either! My scars are still quite red, but I guess they’ll fade eventually! I haven’t got any stretch marks.

I can’t think of anything else to say about my boob experience right now. Other than this has definitely been worth it! I’ll update again around the six month mark. It’ll be interesting to see if people say anything when I start wearing vest tops and tighter tops in summer.

Gosh I think I tried so hard to avoid the love/hate boob relationship during the first six weeks that it just hit me afterwards! I'm really sorry if I depressed anyone with my last post :( I just needed to vent, and like I've said before, I'm sort of using this site as a personal diary.

Anyway, I'm now 8.5 weeks post-op and I think in the last fortnight my boobs have really sorted themselves out. Up until week 6 you could still see the upper pole from the side, as if I were wearing a push-up bra. However now there is a smooth slope: so much more natural looking.

Plus I realised in clothes or just in a bra they don't look fake at all! I think they suit me so well. I feel so vain for loving them as I've never 'loved' any part of my body before. But I think my boobs look great!

Yes there's still a bit too much side boob for my liking, but who cares. That's just the price I had to pay to get the overall size I wanted.

Plus they're so much more squishy! My bf seems to love them and now he's allowed to squeeze them he's been much more vocal about how much he loves them haha.

I've attached a couple of clothed pictures for you to see. Just need to loose the combined post-op recovery and christmas weight gain now!! 8 pounds to lose! *cries* But I reckon I can do it :)

I'm still wearing my non-wired bras during the day, and my Macom bra to sleep in. I use bio-oil on my scars over-night, and use the silicone scar-strips during the day. I sleep on my sides, and can comfortably lie on my front - although I'm not letting myself sleep on my front. My boobs feel a bit 'tired' by the end of the day, but I think that's because non-wired bras aren't as supportive as wired bras.