26 Years Old and Finally Brave Enough

I had always been flat chested. It was always something that I felt self conscious about, especially as I hit my teens. I never felt able to wear anything figure hugging or with a low neckline and bra shopping was a military operation. No time for the pretty lace, it was about hunting out the industrial padding that would make my body look less like that of a 12 year old boy. Whilst I had always thought that a boob job would do the trick, I never realistically thought it would be something I would do. That was until the age of 25. I was diagnosed with Anorexia Nervosa when I was 21 and spent 6 months in an eating disorders unit plus many years after continuing the battle. My organs had begun to fail and I wasn't physically strong enough to manage any kind or a normal existence anymore. Those were the darkest days of my life however with the help of my parents, family and friends (and of course all the medical professionals who supported me through my treatment) I recovered. I had gained the weight but I still remained "boobless". Now though, it affected me more. I was finally learning to love myself and accept my new body but it was almost cruel that I had to do everything I could to try and make my chest match the rest of me . My life was finally coming together again- I had a job I really enjoyed, I was in a loving relationship and I felt alive again. I just wanted the confidence to now enjoy it all to the fullest. So I decided I was going to do it - I was going to have surgery. My mum was with me through the days where I just wanted to give up and she had been my rock throughout so when I asked her to come with me for a consultation, her support didn't waiver. I just wanted to speak to someone about my options but after the consultation I knew it was what I wanted to do. I never thought I would be brave enough to go through with something like this just for my own happiness but why not? My experiences had taught me that life is precious so why not do all you can to make it the best it can be. I am now 3 months post op and can hand on heart say it was one of the best decisions I have ever made. It's not that I now go around wearing boob tubes and or anything but there is a confidence within me now that I never thought I would have. I know there is still a lot of stigma about plastic surgery - people ultimately think you are just being "vain" - but it is so much more than that. It's about being brave enough to finally choose to make yourself happy.