Almost 8 Months After Explant & No Looking Back!

Hi all fellow explanters and explanters-to-be. I am due to be 'freed' of fakery in 8 days. YEH. I had my silicone gel 310cc implants done 9 years ago by Alex Karidis at St John St Elizabeth Hopsital. I was almost 31 at the time and had long researched it as had wanted them since I was a 17 as I was teased at school, felt inadequate, and as I got older and after having my 2 kids - out of proportion. I put on weight anywhere but my bust :(. I was married at the time of BA and my husband supported my decision to get them but wasn't bothered either way so it really was my decision.

I went from a 36A to a 36C. Presently I am a 38C as always put weight on my back. I liked the look of my implants once they had settled over the years BUT (I like BIG BUTS a this point) until I took some photos of them for here the other night I thought, YUK. Now I think they look sooo ugly and hope to get something back of my former, smaller, perter self. ALSO, I can no longer stand that my breast sensitivy and nipple sensation has been ruined. My fake boobs are painful and that makes for no good - espescially in initmate circumstances.

I also feel, probabaly down to my abysmal post-divorce relationships that implants have objectified me. I want to be appreciated for the person inside and at almost 40 I am on a journey to re-discover myself. I also discovered I have the 'dreaded' PIPs and as my surgeon is offering to remove them for free, I would be mad not tot take the opportunity to GET THEM OUT!! No more worries about future costs and health implications to do with these blobs.

I am, at present, more excited than scared. Yes I may miss being bigger for a while but the size of our boobs should not define us! I want to set an example to my teenagers to love their bodies naturally. They are much more confident than I was. The silicone was just a temporary fix... Posting some pics and will keep y'all updated when my little ones return...xx

Well today I received my pre-op pack of instructions and forms to sign, post-op instructions etc, and was happy that I was sent plenty of Arnica tablets gratis. Arnica is great for aiding healing naturally. Now I 've just remembered that I forgot to pick up some scar pads - those moist gels ones. They worked wonders when I had my BA so fingers crossed they will again. Had my bloods done too so it's really hitting home. Not enough in one phial so have to go back to my GP at 8 in the morning. Really can't wait as my left breast is niggling me with this pain which has almost been constant for the last 2 days. Now praying my blood results will come back in time and be ok to proceed. Six days to now!

I was thinking - should I keep the implants - as a post-op souvenir? When I was going through my divorce - my ex husband started a joke website called 'Boobs for Justice' (a spoof on 'Fathers for Justice' - the paternal, custody rights campaign for divorced/separated men). He put a mission statement on there saying something to the effect of how men should get a right of regular access to their ex-wives 'fake' breasts. At the time I had to laugh it off even though he was being an A-hole. Well, many thought, (especially other guys) it was hilarious. So I thought, if I do keep them, I could wrap them up for his impending birthday. HEHEHE.

I am gowned-up, in my room at hospital, have seen the anaesthestist and Dr. Karidis who said I will be going into theatre about 10.30. He took some pre op pics and asked if I was totally sure about this and I said 'yes' though I have had some doubts since yesterday and did get emotional. I will miss having a full C/D bust and being more in proportion. However, my health has to come first and I am determined to get the extra weight off through exercise. Feeling pretty relaxed at the moment. Staff here have been lovely. I will try and post later on today post op.