However two things started happening: my natural breasts grew and I lost my baby fat. Making my chest look rather heavy in proportion to my body, 5.5 and 119 pounds. I was getting more questions and comments about them and I started to feel self conscious at times.
Secondly I started to develop more anymore vague symptoms. Perpetually tired to the point it was influencing both my work and social life, muscle and joint aches, limiting my active lifestyle, insistent headaches and many other random issues. I was not aware of a possible link. And after a couple years and no answers the doctor decided on fibromyalgia.
5 years ago I started informing about removal/downsizing. But was rebuffed by both my original surgeon (who wanted to replace them with bigger and rounder ones to add a lift- no way!). Who gave me exact the same spiel as years before (so understandable you want to improve this situation) and some other surgeon a couple years later (I am not in the business of making you look terrible, just take new ones under the muscle).
They would not hear my wishes. After hearing from them how bad it would turn out, I decided to wait till after having kids.
But this year I started thinking about it again. I had a mammogram and saw I that -indeed- I have natural breast tissue now. I started googling explantation again and this time I found all the info on silicon Side effects and ASIA.
I was in shock. What if all my health issues were caused by my own vain choice?!! I was really shocked and rather hard on myself. But I got through the initial hurt and anger and decided this was it: out! Now! My choices. 12 years is enough!!!
Difficult because it meant saying no to my to the influence from my family. Empowering because I am choosing to be good the way I am, to go back to me, my natural self.
My fiancé was absolutely supportive right away, claiming he would only think me more attractive, more of myself to love (swoon.. Glad I am marrying this one ;))
After talking to several surgeons (female this time, all agreeing my implants were to big and placed incorrectly so that my nipples looked up to the ceiling) and not rushing it like the first time around I choose an explantation with full capsulectomy. I was advised to leave the capsule in, save a lot money and some tissue but I am also now participating in research regarding ASIA. And was advised not to leave it. I was able to revise the plans, my surgeon was willing to do it according to my wishes despite having a different point of view.
Two days ago I had my operation. I was warned multiple times by my surgeon that with removal of the capsule I would loose a lot of my own tissue. And that I might come out flat, but eventually I was beyond those worries. Bring it on!
Surgery went well. And I am so pleased with the results. I think my surgeon was very cautious in managing my expectations. Yes they are droopy and uneven. But the size is perfect for my body and definitely WAY more than I had before! so maybe think twice when you get them young.. Your body type might still slightly change! I thought it wouldn't after 18 but here is the proof...
I did not have drains and could go home sooner than expected, I was under full anesthesia but woke up feeling groggy yet fine. No nausea.
The implants were not ruptured but had been sweating a lot, it was an oily mess in there apparently....
My first day home I felt so well I ended up being overactive. Leaving the house etc. Now I am in more pain and have some bruising, so really taking a step this time back and resting.
The adrenaline of being so happy to be ME and natural and loving my proportions was just firing me up, making me forget that this is still surgery! I had not expected to feel okay in tight tops and I was afraid my belly and hips would look bigger now. But I don't and I don't care, I feel good.
I hope recovery will go well, as they might fluff up a bit as I have seen with others. One breast is slightly dented because it needed an extra stitch because of bleeding.
Reading all the reviews here really empowered me in making my decision and choosing to be myself again. So I wanted to return the favor. Hopefully helping others the way I was enforced in my decision.
Looking forward to hearing from you,