Waited for This for a Long Time! - Lexington, KY

As a teen I was so embarrassed by my breast. They were not the typical "perky" teenage breast. They were what I always referred to as "National Geograhic boobs". Then after giving birth to two almost 10lb babies my stomach added to my already very self conciousness. I had my last baby at age 30 and since that time I have also gained a whooping 90lbs. There were several tragedies, divorce and stresses that caused me to turn to food as my comfort. After remarrying a couple of years ago I am happier now in my life than ever before and at the age of 47 it hit me that I really needed to get a check on EVERYTHING in my life. My health being top of that list. I have a special needs 16 year old son (brain damaged at 19mths old) that is expected to live a long healthy life and I need to be around for him as long as I can.

So, I went to my dr and had a physical and we discussed what I needed to do to become more healthy. My Dr sent me to a bariatrics Dr (non surgical) and I began a journey that has been life changing! I am at this point down 62lbs with a personal goal of 30lbs more. So, now I am finally feeling really alive and figuring life out...BUT...I look at myself in the mirror and am disgusted by the sight. I know that sounds harse but that's how I feel. I can't stand for anyone to see me even partically nude let alone naked!! My husband will want to hug me up at night and I pull away because he wants to put his hands on my tummy. I don't want him being grossed out as I am from the hanging flab. He tells me he loves me no matter how I look. And I do believe him. But I need this for me more than anyone. I want to feel as good in my skin as I do in my mind. So with much discussion he and I went to my consult with Dr Henry Wells yesterday for a Mommy Makeover! I was so very happy with the visit. TT with lipo in flanks and BL and BA with a silicone implant with a anchor incision. He agreed when I told him I am a D cup now but it's a D cup full of skin not breast tissue. He assured me with the removal of the skin and a implant it will keep me at the D cup. So we talked in length. I told him I would like to get this last 30lbs off before the surgery and he ok with that even though he did not require me to lose more but was very supportive in my goal. I am still at 213lbs and 180lbs is my goal. My height is 5'7". So, he sent me with my "marching orders" to get where I want to be with my weight and then we will schedule my surgery. We decided if I continue to lose at the rate I have the last 6mths I would be ready for surgery by the end of March first of April.

I can' t tell you how excited I am to finally have this dream come true!!! My husband went into the appt not exactly supportive or showing the enthausiam as I was. In the middle of the appt while Dr/nurse out of the room I asked him "Please show some sign of interest of being informed and not just here with your arms folded and sour look on your face" he responded "I'm not gonna lie I'm having a problem with this..I don't see why you feel anything needs to be changed" then I said "We are here just to get informed and not scheduling or writing a check today...please listen and learn". He did, afterwards we went to lunch and talked about it. He is the most amazing man...he expressed his love for me and see's me as perfect, he also talked about the risks involved and how this is a major surgery and of course the financial aspect of it all. I then explained to him how I have always felt about myself and how I would love for one day not to have a self esteem issue, how the benefits out way the risks to me and I also, told him that I did feel very selfish for wanting to spend this kind of money on me. We both totally felt comfortable with Dr Wells and his staff and felt very imformed on what to or not to expect. His last comment "There's risk..but there is risk just walking out the door everyday I guess". The decision was made to go forward.

So...I am off to work on my weight goal and can't wait for the new me! We have chosen to keep this quite from our family/friends until close to surgery date. So shhhhh you only know :)

I will post before pictures soon...maybe...yuck!

Any advice or fyi's appreciated!!

The holidays are over and I'm so excited for the year to get rolling! Suppose to contact my Dr around the end of Feb. to schedule my MM. Hopefully will have the additional weight off I wanted by then. I am learning so much everytime I read ladies updates on here and gives me motivation to get myself ready! Happy New Year Everyone!! btw....I'm still not brave enough to post pics just yet

I scheduled my surgery for April 29th. I am so excited and giddy about it. I have waited all my adult life for this and it's finally happening!....At this point not scared or nervous...hope I stay this way.