33 Y/o Mom with 11 Y/o Mentor Implants - Lewisburg, PA

Well it has been a month since my explant procedure and it's hard to believe its gone by so quickly. I have certainly adjusted to the new me. I may feel a bit self conscious some days, but quite honestly they are fleeting thoughts. Even though my breast are far from perfect, I feel much better overall, mentally, emotionally, and physically. I'm sure others have felt the same way and can understand what I mean. I have been liberated.

So I took pics. There isn't much change. I am fluffing up slowly and the upper parts (i believe) are starting to fill in a tiny bit. The folds under my nipples are receding and some days are barely there at all. Usually right after waking up they are present and that is when I take my photos. I went ahead and bought a VS bikini and it arrived yesterday. I HAD to try it on. It is a 32 A and Im kinda worried that I might need to go up to a B?!?! The left breast fits better than the right. seems my right is fluffing up quicker than my left. We will see in time I guess.

So my scars are doing really well, as you can see in the pic. I only where a sports bra to work out and a soft bralette to bed. Other than that I have been wearing normal bras for a few weeks. I am in a 34A lightly lined, no push up. The SO brand from Kohls. Seems these are the ones that fit me best at this point. When I need a sexy boost I have the same brand push up. lol. I have accepted and adjusted to my small breast quickly and happily. I don't feel the need to pad my bras and don't really care if people notice, look, or say anything. I have even gotten back to wearing my tighter shirts and let me tell you. THEY LOOK SO MUCH BETTER ON ME!!! Lol.

On the pain that I mentioned before... I now know that it is from body building. I have come to a few conclusions (along with my Dr.). My implants were under the muscle and because of this in the past when I lifted weights I purposely concentrated on NOT using my chest muscles because my implants would jump. So over the years those muscles have become underdeveloped while the rest of my body was developing. So after explant my breast had the extra skin and untoned muscle and that made for a pretty unsightly combo that hung down low. UGH. My Dr and I talked in depth before explant about my routine and he released me to go back to lifting 3-4 days later as long as I listened to my body. After 4 days I started lifting and really noticed that I had no chest strength, so I concentrated extra on those muscles. As time went on I could do more and more and then the pain and soreness set in. As you all know and read I was thinking it was due to ovulation and then when that passed maybe something was wrong. Well in the last week I have seen definite improvement in my chest muscles and breast. I can lift weights and there is hardly any jumping of the muscle. I believe that my good progress is due to me getting the muscles back to where they are meant to be, up high and tight. My Dr can't believe how fast I have recovered and how well I look. So even though I still have pain and soreness I can tell its the muscle that is sore and that it is moving higher onto my chest wall. To me that is a good sign because Im working to tighten a once very loose muscle. I can also see and feel the difference between the muscle and the breast tissue and I can actually feel the fluffing.

All in all I am happy with my progress so far. So I think I am going to not take pics or post for two weeks and then see the progress I have made.

Ladies, I hope you are all healthy and happy with your decisions to explant. If you are considering it then I can only give you my experience, Im sure there are others who are not happy with their results or decision, but this has been the best decision for me. No matter if I am only ever an A and have a fold in my nipples. Im FINALLY happy with my body and it only took 21 years to finally be ok with how I look. I don't even think that having the implants was a bad decision, because It taught me a much needed lesson and I can pass my experience onto someone who might have self confidence issues due to breast size. BE HAPPY WITH WHO YOU ARE, JUST AS YOU ARE. Every scar, stretch mark, and wrinkle tells a story and makes you unique and beautiful in your own way. And quite honestly your smile is the most beautiful part about you, especially when it reaches your eyes. SO SMILE and show everyone your true beauty!

Hey Ladies! It's been awhile since I posted and I thought I would post and ask a question. It's been 3 weeks since I had my implants removed and everything seems to be going smoothly. My scars have smoothed out, but are still a light purplish color. They do itch a tiny bit occasionally, but no pain with them. I had made myself not obsess about my boobs, which Im sure you all know is not easy. So I just stay away from the mirror and keep extremely busy. I went skiing Sunday and then all day Monday. I am back to a normal workout routine and have had no problems. I am rubbing my breast with my homemade lotion and try to keep my scars moist. So all in all I can't complain.

So on another note: I started to experience breast pain/soreness three days ago. I honestly thought that I might be getting close to my period and that I was getting sore due to that. I haven't had much of that with implants, so I thought maybe it was part of returning to "normal" so I didn't think much of it. Then it started getting worse. Yesterday it was so bad! I couldn't even touch them without wincing. I checked my flow calendar and realized I wasn't anywhere close so this had to be something else. I started really feeling my breast to see exactly where the pain is and noticed it is mainly on the outside of my breasts. Its not the muscle at all. I massaged and there was not muscle pain in the slightest, even from working out. It is definitely the breast tissue. I told myself to give it a few days and that this might be normal. I figured I'd post on here and see if any of you have experienced this. This morning I was getting ready and noticed in the mirror that my breasts looked fuller, especially my right side. Also my right side isn't as sore as it had been also. The left is still painful though. So my question is this. Is this normal? is this part of the healing/fluffing process? I am hoping it keeps up if so. I don't want this to be temporary!

Here are some pics. The good colored ones are from yesterday. The badly colored ones are from this morning. I took them in the work bathroom so forgive the lighting. Yuck. Can you see any differences? Is it just me?

So today is almost 2 weeks. I think I have done well. I am now wearing regular bras without any issue. My incisions sit just below a bra line and no longer hurt me. I am keeping them moist with a lotion I make of coconut oil, raw coco butter, raw shea butter, and vitamin E oil. I still do my exercises daily along with my normal gym routine. My nipples are still folding over at the bottom but I do notice my right one is unfolding at times so I think that eventually they won't have the fold. At least I am really hoping they don't. I don't let myself look in the mirror and analyze myself so much anymore. I really am trying not to worry so much.
I went to the beach party Sat night! It was Amazing!!!! Dan (my BF and amazing support through this whole thing) came to me last week and confronted me about being so down. I confessed I was having self confidence issues and especially with a beach party coming up. I was contemplating not going, but this isn't something that either of us wanted to miss. He and I dance. REALLY AMAZINGLY WELL. Its our thing. We just don't miss this. So a few days later he comes to me with a gift. It is a coconut bra the same size as I use to be. He trims and sands the edges to conform to my body and tells me to go buy a grass skirt. LOL so I did and it turned out it was one of the best nights we ever had. I danced ALL night. No pain, no worry. I was the only one in a bikini (type) other than one guy that was brave enough to wear a speedo. So I will have to post a pic of the outfit so you all can see it. I needed that night more than I knew. I didn't even have a problem changing at the end of the night into regular clothes and a small bra. Not one of our gang or people in the bar that knew us said anything or acted any different. I realized they didn't care about my boobs, so why should I care that much. All in all I feel so much better about all this. I may not be perfect, but I am me. Boobs don't make me a better person, better friend, better lover, better anything. I do that all on my own.