Getting Mentor 675cc Removed - Las Vegas, NV

I ended up having to cancel my appointment. I needed to use the money for a bill which was disappointing. I will have enough money next month so I'm excited to re-schedule my appointment and get these things out. I spent a lot of time thinking about this decision. I mean removing 675 cc's from my breasts could really make them sag or worse they could completely look deformed. I had a lift so I'm nervous that the doctor formed my breasts to the implants. I'm just really nervous. I'm planning to get them out in the beginning of August. I'm so excited to get these huge things out. I'll post before and after pictures in August.

Went to the doctor today to get my prescriptions and to pay the rest of the money for my surgery. I didn't see the doctor and I won't till the surgery on the 17th which makes me nervous. They told me today that I would have to get my blood work done on the other side of town and I would have to pay for it. Which kinda pisses me off. I pretty much spent all my money on the surgery to get these stupid balloons out so I don't really know how I'm going to pay for the blood work. I wish they told me about this cost so I was prepared. I could punch myself for doing this to my body. At work today I had someone ask me if my breasts were fake and it really put me over the edge. He started with "I don't mean to be rude.. but can I ask you...?" Really dude?!?! I know my surgery is in 13 days so I shouldn't let it bother me but it still does! Ever since I started this job I've had people continuously make comments about them. Its like when people think you have fake boobs they want to point you out. It's sooo annoying!!! The only thing people notice about me is my breasts! When I tell guys I live in vegas I always get asked "what club do you work at?" (and they are talking about STRIP club not a bar club!!!) It makes me soo upset! I feel so cheap and embarrassed. I died my hair back to my natural dark brown and I stopped wearing any revealing clothing which is hard to do in the desert. I feel like I don't want anyone to look at me. I once had a guy tell me he thought my [RS bleep] were filled with helium! I've also had guys ask if I could "flex my boob." I don't know what that means but I've been asked more then once. I've really stopped going out. One time a girl e-mailed me and said "You can't really think people think those things are real. LOL." I hate people. I heard a guy tell his friends that I would be perfect if I didn't have fake boobs. Like WTF? I had to work an event at a party and they put me in a very very barely their outfit and I had people actually think it was ok for them to grab my breasts!!! 13 days until I can be free!!!! I also found out that I will have drains in for 24 hours after surgery and I will have to come back a week later to get the stitches out. I'm supposed to be on vacation until next year but I'm going to have to come back early. I haven't told my man yet who has been trying to get me to post-pone surgery from the beginning. He's really into big fake looking boobs so he's not too happy about my decision to get mine removed. And he's not too happy I spent $3600 right before christmas. We are going to spend 2 weeks (now one) with all of his family in the mountains and he wants me to be able to snow board and enjoy everything. I just can't enjoy life until I get these things out. My right implant has been causing me a lot of discomfort. It's very sore on top of the implant. I think the muscle is being stretched! It might be because im right handed and I'm always moving the muscle that the implant is in. I can feel them in there. always... I hate it. I'm surprised how depressed they have made me. I've never felt my breasts were there before the surgery. I haven't really slept well since I got my boob job. Every way I lay it's just uncomfortable! When I lay on my side my boobs lay on top of each other! This is soooo uncomfortable! When I lay on my back it feels like a kid is sitting on my chest. OMG i couldn't even imagine being 9 months pregnant and having these two big balloons I wouldn't be able to move! Even sitting here now I'm just uncomfortable in my skin. I get mad at my guy when he hugs me to hard or he lays on top of me. He thinks I'm unaffectionate but I'm just always resting from carrying these things around! I used to love when a guy would touch my breasts now I HATE it! I'm not thinking about if it feels good. All I'm thinking about is that I want him to stop touching them. It turns me off thinking he's just grabbing these big hard balls. It doesn't excite me at all. I have to give him limits on how hard he can touch me or how much weight he puts on my chest and I can tell that frustrates him. I'm so tired of feeling fragile. These things are holding me back in life! I can't wear anything that moves them because I'll be completely uncomfortable and I can't wear a bra that doesn't have support. I always feel my right implant. I thought getting a boob job would give me more confidence but it just made me close myself out from the world. I also used to like to wear cute sexy revealing top/dresses but now nothing looks or feels right on me. I just feel gross. I hate going to the pool now too. I always feel when I'm laying down to get a tan my implants are out of place or I feel like my nipples aren't going to stay covered properly. They are just so unnatural and all of our clothes are made for natural breasts so nothing works!!! Even wearing high shoes is hard to bare threw because my chest is just so heavy it's just too much to handle. and i'm a 100 pound 24 year old!! 13 DAYS TILL THESE STUPID FAKE BOOBIES ARE GONE!

Ok so I got really nervous about the surgery and decided to wait a few more months. I know it's 100% what I want to do I'm just nervous about ana. Being topless and a sleep. Just idk weird stuff. My new surgery date is December 17th, 2012. LESS THAN A MONTH AWAY!! My stomach shakes just thinking about it. I'm going in to see the doctor Dec 4th to pay the rest of the money and for the pre-op. I paid $1,000 today and then i'll pay $2600 on Dec 4th. I can't believe I'm 24 and I've spent almost $15,000 on plastic surgery!!! I'm ready for it to be over and I'll NEVER make this mistake again. I can't wait to be able to buy a normal C bra! I also jumped on the scale and I weigh 107 now at almost 5'2. So I'm excited to get down to 105 with these heavy saline bags out. Well I'll write some more after my pre-op. :-)