Where I Am in This Life Changing Process - Las Vegas, NV

I am 33 yrs old, 5' 10", 163 lbs and have 36 GG's. I am pretty "frank", so continue reading at your own risk...

My boobs have been such a part of my life. I was teased for being president of the "itty bitty [RS bleep]" committee through out jr high and only bought a bra b/c everyone else has one. My freshman year, I went back to school with a budding success.... somewhere over the next few years, they didn't stop! I LOVE them! & I HATE them too!

If I have one more person say, "why do you want to give up your best asset"... I am pretty sure, they might get my fist in the face! ;)

I live in Las Vegas where people get boobs by the dozen! Why in the WORLD would I want to have less, when mine are "so perfect"... (I hate that question too!!)

Last night I received an email from a childhood friend. Her 15 yr old daughter wants to have a reduction and she asked me why & what is my take... this is what I had to say about my own situation:

Honestly, my decision was a fluke... I never even thought about it, then one day I thought F@CK THIS! I can never find clothes that flatter me, it is hard to purchase ANYTHING, they make me feel heavier than what I perceive myself, etc. I want to buy a bra off the normal rack at normal stores at normal prices, I want to buy a bikini that doesn't gross everyone out for a normal price. I want people to see ME instead of my boobs.... I swear Boobs & me go hand in hand. I get so sick of people saying "why would you get rid of your best asset?"... Ummm... EFF YOU!!!

Add to the fact of medical issues.... back ache, neck ache (omg - halter tops are THE worse!!! & are also EVERY bikini top I own), migraines, the divets in my shoulders, etc. I see my moms divets and she has like 2 solid inches of grooves on her shoulders at her age from her bra straps.... I don't want that... nor do I wan old lady cone boobs!

I have had my 2 children... I have nursed them - their natural God given talent.... I am a GG, so there will hopefully still be plenty left over! That is my fear.... that they will take too much and I will be left with my "mom belly" and look pregnant! But I want a better self esteem and I want to be more than just a set of [RS bleep]! So we will see...

I almost felt like I owed her therapy money after typing that...

My surgery is a month away and I look forward to being awake after surgery... My looking pregnant after fear is nothing compared to my fear of something going wrong! I pray for a smooth surgery & look forward to enjoying life with my 3 yr old & 7 yr old soon after!