21 Years Old, Small 34B Wanting 34D?? 375 CC's Saline, Moderate Profile - Lake Oswego, OR

Tomorrow is my Pre Op appointment!! I'm so excited but so nervous for the big day. I'm still undecided on size. At my consultation we had spoke about 350-360 ccs (I am choosing saline implants) but after about a month of looking at photos and playing with the rice sizes I'm starting to think 375 might be a better choice? I don't want to look like a [RS bleep] with huge boobs obviously but at the same time I want to feel like they are big and be happy with them. I hear so many women say that they wish they would have gone bigger. I am 5'6" and about 126 pounds. Any advice? Worried about 375 having ripples :/ I've wanted to do this for so long. I've always felt unproportunate with my natural size. Can't wait until the 22nd!

At 11:15 today I had my pre op appointment. Upon arrival I was given a 13 page packet of reading and initialing. This was the scary "what if" packet listing off everything that could go wrong. As if I wasn't nervous enough! Immediately after signing away I was taken in and greated by a super friendly nurse named Ashton. LOVED her. She immediately took my blood pressure and because of just reading the scary packet I think my heart was pounding because she had to redo it and ask me to think of relaxing things. Much better the second time.

She went through all of my meds, pre op and post op care. SO much info but Everything sounds fairly simple except I'm a little nervous about my drainage tubes ill have for two days. Yuck. I'm so worried I'll yank on them in my sleep or something. She told me that they are stitched in so its not like I will yank them out but still..ouch.

We tried sizes one more time. This time I tried on 360, 375, and 400. I loved both the 360 and 375. 15 ccs is such a subtle difference they almost looked the same. 400 on the other hand looked a tad too big especially when I tried a white shirt on over them. I found that my own sports bra worked a lot better this time than the bra they provided me with last time. Mine is just a thin gap body sports bra without any padding but it seemed to have more support for the sizers. The one at the office is just a little loose so it doesn't look as realistic and they sag a lot in it.

When the doctor came in I asked her if I should go any bigger than 375 and she said she believes that 375 the best fit for me and my body, but that I have to live with them so of course it is up to me. 390 or 400 ccs would require a moderate plus profile however vs 375 can be used with a moderate profile. I definitely prefer the moderate profile look over the higher profiles, for my body at least, so that was my deciding factor.

I don't have a very large frame so I really didn't want them to look like basketballs but at the same time I want it to be a noticeable change. I feel that 375 moderate profile will provide me with these results.

After my sizing, going over the scary info with the doctor and signing consent forms, we scheduled my post op for two days after surgery. I then finished up all final payments and bam we were done!

I paid all hospital fees and half of procedure costs upfront which was about $4,315 for both and I financed the final $2,100 via care credit, 12 months no interest. I know a lot of people don't like sharing how much they spent but I feel it is beneficial to others interested in a BA to get an idea of cost info.

I picked up ALL of my prescriptions today. The total cost came to $54. That includes the antibacterial soap that I use two days prior to surgery. I was also prescribed an anti inflammatory, a narcadic for pain, an antibiotic, a muscle relaxer, stool softener, and two anti nausea medications. One for the night before surgery and one for recovery. They are all to be taken at specific time intervals so my boyfriend will be in charge of keeping me on schedule because from the sound of it I will be VERY loopy.

I'm so excited! I wish I would have taken photos in the sizers. My next day off isn't until the day before my surgery so it seems like a million years away! But really it's just in 12 days. AHHH!

All this waiting and it's finally here. I'm so excited but extremely scared and nervous. It's hard to believe that at this time tomorrow I will have my new boobs!

I've spent the entire day DEEP cleaning my apartment. Scrubbing and organizing every square inch so I will have nothing to stress about the next two weeks.

I bought a few button down tanks, loose comfy pants that aren't too hot, Travel cup with straw, back pillow with arms so I can sleep upright and on my back, a couple loose strappy tanks that I can step into, lots of healthy easy snacks and a yummy candle to help me relax. And I'm currently cooking a giant crock pot chicken soup with potatoes and veggies to last me a couple of days.

Is there anything else I should grab before surgery?

I have to be there at 6am and it's about a 35 drive. I also have to shower one last time with my surgical soap in the morning.

I'm definitely NOT sleeping tonight -_- ahh!

See you on the other side!