32 Yrs, Athletic, 5'7", 124 Pounds, 32A, Silicone 325cc unders

Well I'm finally less than 2 months away from my surgery and wanted to start a review to help others on their journey since reading RS ladies' journeys have been SO helpful and comforting for me.

Unlike many women, I haven't been set on having a BA my entire adult life...I have always had pretty small breasts but always said that I would "maybe someday get a BA". For 1, I knew that if I ever did, I wanted to wait until I was done having babies and breastfeeding. And 2, while I always thought it would be nice to have bigger boobs than what I was given, it also didn't really bother me that I didn't...I loved my body regardless and can't say I was necessarily 'insecure' about it. But now, at 32 years old, I've finally decided to take the plunge. I finished breastfeeding my 2nd (and final) child about a year ago and, while my breasts really hadn't changed after breastfeeding our first (for just 3 months due to low milk supply) they definitely never bounced back from breastfeeding our 2nd for a year...not only did they shrink in size, the skin around my nipples is also sad and empty now :( lol. What's funny is that I naively didn't really think my breasts would be affected negatively from pregnancy or breastfeeding - but the "maybe someday I would get a BA" was there just in case :)

Anyway, here I am, going through with it in less than 2 months and am both super excited and also super nervous (what if I hate them, what if they're completely uneven as I have a bit of asymmetry pre-op, what if I end up too small or worse, for me, too big)...while I was never insecure about my breasts prior to babies, what if I go through this all only to be disappointed and end up being insecure about my breasts post-BA? That's what scares me the most but I guess all can do is be as thorough as possible throughout this process and then pray for the best outcome...so we'll see!

Here are my stats again:
5'7"
124 pounds
12.6 bwd
32A..? I use to be a small or med B before babies and always wore a 34 band but I was never professionally measured...my surgeon measured me and said I'm technically a 30C now which is hilarious to me because i guarantee that NO woman dreaming of having a c cup is picturing my size..lol.

Oh, and I almost forgot! I'm hoping for a med to full c, not bigger, and thinking of going with 350cc silicone under the muscle. I'm worried that 350 might even be too big for what I'm going for but the 350 mod plus measure 12.5 diameter and I really want to fit the width of my natural breasts as closely as possible and the next option down that would fit is 300cc, moderate profile at 12.8 diameter but I think 300 might be too small (and l'm not sure how mod would look as it seems difficult to find women with mods)! Needless to say, the size decision is killing me...

That's all for tonight, I'll post pre-op and wish pics soon!

I'm being brave and adding my before pics...I didn't REALLY know how unattractive my breasts are post babies until I started taking selfies of them..lol (ok,I knew, but a photo shoot really does make it worse!) What's funny is I never even noticed my asymmetry before I started going to consults and neither did my husband...my left fold is higher than my right..my surgeon will lower the fold so hopefully they'll be as symmetrical as possible post-op!

Here's my wish pics.. I have a ton on my phone but these are my faves - and I think most are from other RS ladies so excuse me if I'm using your pic :) I like the fullness in width here which is what I'm going for.