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44 Years Old, Implants in for 18 Years 32A -34D, Double bubble - La Mesa, CA
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18 years ago I finally got the courage to get my...
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18 years ago I finally got the courage to get my implants. I thought my world would change. I would be more "acceptable" as a women. I was tired of people making comments about my flat breasts. Family, friends, even my boss! When I asked my then fiance (we're divorced now!) if I could get the procedure done, his response was "I'm so glad you asked, I didn't know how to to tell you to get it done." At the time I was excited about that response. Now I know the correct response should have been, "I love you just the way you are." But I felt that nobody accepted me the way I was, and I felt that my small breasts defined me as who I was, and who I was, wasn't good enough. After the procedure I did feel great about myself. Then I had my son and my right implant moved.... way north! I looked like I had an elephant trunk on my chest. I had a PS move it back down, but it was right back up within days. A few years later I went to Dr. Pousti. He told me my capsule had been enlarged during my pregnancy and I need to put larger implants in place. It didn't fix it completely, but they looked much better! Now, however, I feel they are too large! Now people look at me and comment on how huge my chest is. They look much bigger in clothes, then when naked. I am now tired of hiding in my clothes once again. First, when they were too small, now that they are too big. I just want to be me, all natural, small and all! :)
I am schedule to have my implants removed on June 10.
I am schedule to have my implants removed on June 10.
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UPDATED FROM marionette9
19 days pre
Implant Type
I just pulled out my card that has my implant info on it. I have Mentor smooth saline over the muscle. I saw that my left implant is a 375 and and my right is a 425. I'm guessing the right one is larger due to the movement of the implant after I nursed my son. I'm now wondering what this is going to do to my symmetry after they're removed.
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May 21, 2014
Hey girl!! Your going to look great after, your pre-ba boobies had such a lovely perky shape, and it doesn't look like your implant has really impacted your tissue too much :) Lucky!! -- Also funny about the ex-husband comment "I'm so glad you asked, I didn't know how to to tell you to get it done." I think its crazy how sometimes when we are uncomfortable with ourselves about something other people pick up on it & reflect it back to us. I can relate as I've defiantly been there. I remember just wanting so badly for others to accept me, when ALL along the cosmic riddle is really that you need to accept yourself. Live and learn!
May 21, 2014
Also you had symmetry pre-ba so you will have it after removal! And the difference between 375-425 is minimal. It's only 50cc, which equates to like a few table spoons I believe. It's a very small difference, so I wouldn't give it any worry.
May 21, 2014
Thanks so much Jessica87! Some days I'm so nervous about what I'm going to look like. I'm constantly looking at others hoping for the same result.
May 21, 2014
Thank you for starting your story on RealSelf! I agree that your pre-op breasts had a really nice shape. It's funny how we underestimate that and focus only on the size sometimes. :) I'm hoping for an easy surgery and a great result for you. Keep us posted!
May 21, 2014
I always looked at myself and saw ugly boobs. It wasn't until just recently that I was able to look at my pre-BA pics and think, wow, I looked really good. Why did I do this to myself? LOL
May 21, 2014
I know what you are talking about. I've just recently come to the realization that I've been trying to be someone else for years! When I was younger I tanned (even though I was very pale) in order to be tanned. I've been drying my hair strait for so long that I actually didn't know I had wavy/curly hair. And I got breast implants because I thought I was to small and my hips were too big. "I'm just trying to get the right proportion," I would tell myself. I stopped tanning years ago, decided to get my implants out (still working on that part) and recently started wearing my hair the natural way (and it rocks). It's so nice to stop pretending to be something you aren't. And the funny thing is that I feel more beautiful already, with just the small changes I've made (wearing skirts with my bare white legs and no pantyhose, natural hair). I can't wait to get these dick magnets out of my chest and start to be the me that I was meant to be all along! Whew! Sorry, your story touched me because it rang true for me obviously. Good luck and I hope all goes well with your story. Thank you so much for sharing your story.
May 21, 2014
I'm slowly accepting me just the way I am. I've worked really hard on my self esteem and I know that its going to take a hit once the implants are removed, but I know I'll bounce back! Thanks for sharing with me! :)
May 22, 2014
Good luck! You look like me pre BA. I hope everything goes fantastic for you! Happy healing!
UPDATED FROM marionette9
9 days pre
Question for you all who have children and have explanted
I'm explanting in 10 more days. I haven't told my kids, ages 10 and 13 who are going to ask why Mom is having surgery. They don't know I have implants either. Anybody know how I can explain it to them, without it getting to personal? My son (13) isn't very confidential and I don't want my personal stuff all over the neighborhood.
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June 1, 2014
I have a teenager too- 13. I debated telling her but I did. It's been a good learning experience as far as I can see. She is my little feminist so she can't imagine ever having something so extreme done for the reason I did- vanity. :( only my immediate family and people on this forum know I had implants. Everyone else thinks I had a reduction.
June 1, 2014
Good Luck to you, having my explant this Friday. My kids are young....5 & 3. Glad they won't remember this. Whatever you choose to tell them, it will be behind you soon enough:)) Wishing you a quick and easy recovery!
June 2, 2014
I don't know.... I would probably say that I am going to the doctor for personal reasons that can be explained "when you get older." I don't think my 15yo would ask and I don't think my 5yo would notice---maybe not at first anyway. I imagine that your 13yo probably doesn't want to even know. He may be curious but regret asking after he finds out! haha. I would have been mortified to know something like that but every kid is different and they way you raise them is different. I think only you can really be the judge of how much they should know. I personally wouldn't like to lie but I would skirt around the truth if I didn't want other people to know.
March 16, 2015
I just explanted and told my kids I was having female surgery. They are boys and dint ask for details
March 16, 2015
Did not ask for details. They are aware that I have limited use and have to rest and recover. I did not feel obligated to tell my children what type of surgery but did want them to be aware that I was having a procedure.
March 17, 2015
I never said anything to them. They never noticed. They just thought I was sick in bed for a few days. It all worked out. :)
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