20 Year Old with Botched Boob Job After Tubular Breast Deformity: Who Needs Help Desperately

When I was 19 I finally got the procedure of my dreams done. I have tubular breast deformity and struggled with insecurity for years. So when I got the opportunity I couldn't say no. But now my boobs are hard I have HUGE scars my nipples are still massive. I think the whole thing is a disaster. If I could take it back I would because I genuinely don't think there is a solution to tubular breast deformity. I hate having foreign objects inside me. It makes me feel so fake. Every time someone says oh Nina your boobs look so nice they don't even know the whole story. I just feel like I am constantly lying and I hate that. I just want them out now. I really want to remove the implants and go from there. Hopefully there are procedures available to help with the scarring. But as it is right now I am probably the most unhappy person in the WORLD right now with my boobs. I cry every time I think about it. I just wish that I could have been born with normal boobs like everyone else's and not have had this thing impede in my life. I wish I had someone to tell me my boobs were becautful just the way they were. But instead my boobs were always made fun of before the surgery ( my friends telling me I have candy corn boobs or snoopy boobs.) while all of them were living life with normal ones. I just hope that someone maybe out there in the world has experienced something close to mine. Please help meeeee. I just want to be able to look in the mirror and not want to cry.