38 Years with :Muffy"..Gone in 3-4hrs and I'm Not Mad About It...TT

There a song by a gospel rap artist that says: It's my year..It's my time..spread my wings and I'm go fly...Well I decided to put my money where my mouth was. I am recently married and have been with my husband for 7 years now and we have 5 beautiful children 21, 17, 16, 13 & 8. I'm sure I am not the only one who have ALWAYS put their children and significant other before themselves. Will pay full price for and go to the ends of the earth for our family but shop for clearance and feel guilty when it's time to buy something for yourself. Well, I LOVE MY FAMILY dearly and believe that they are NOT ONLY GOING TO BE OKAY when I get my surgery..but they are my biggest cheerleaders and support system. I have dreamed about this moment for years. I have had the lap band surgery 5 years ago and as you already know..You can lose as many pounds as you want to..but once you go in the bathroom for that shower and see "everything hanging"..so discouraging. Because anyone battling weight issues have an ideal in their mind of what they want to look like in the end. And for those of us who have supportive husbands and SO's who say" I Love You The Way You Are Baby.." understands that when I say "You were suppose to say that honey." understands from where I coming from. Now if he DIDN'T say that..then I would wonder. So let's fast forward to now. My hair dresser actually went to Dr. Palin this year and had the TT and recommended me not only to Dr. Palin but also to this site. I have been on the site for quite sometime but scared to post. How could people post their personal business out there? yet alone to strangers? Someone who is confident in their body (though hidden underneath some unwanted material (fat) ) and people who wish to have a virtual support system. Well, I am scheduled to join the Flat Side Crew on Aug 8th. I am not one to talk much (seriously) but I will keep everyone posted as we near. I have YET to overcome posting the love handle pictures yet (TOO EMBARRASSED) but I will say that I am 5"4 and weigh 200 (fluctuates between 187-200). I said I will try and get off another 20-30 pounds before surgery but to be honest I wear a 14 (if elastic a 12 :-) ) (used to be a 22-24 275 pounds) and I am quite comfortable where I am now..I just need to polish this fine china and get rid of the dust. So if I lose..I do..but if not...then I'm okay don;t think I am meant to be a single digit size..but over all a solid 12 would be ideal. Well..glad that I took the first step...see you all on the flat side shortly August will be here before I know it. Already getting my items and stuff together and about to begin school shopping for kids since school begins August...You know that when you are down the whole house (husbands included) act as if the world has stopped and common sense sometimes go out the window. LOL and you have to make sure the house still continues to go on from your bed, recliner or etc. Having previous surgeries I know that us women..are definitely the backbone, the cook, the teacher, the accountant, the homework/project person, the nurse, the maid and etc. so as log as I can get everything in order BEFORE my surgery..I'm good...

Well I'm officially 58 days away from surgery date on 08/08. I have been reading everyone's profiles and updates and feel that I am well equipped on my starter kit, per say. I ordered my compression garments this week, received the quote for the lift chair and going to get all my medications, rubs, creams, ointments and etc next week. I am soooo excited and anxious JUST to see the new me. Oh yeah I picked up a panty and underwear set that I will be taking before and after pictures to see my progression. I guess I will pony up shortly and post pictures..I'm not worried about what people would say..I'm worried on my reaction to seeing the up close and personal half naked. THANK GOD for the man or woman who invented spanx, girdles and etc. LOL!!

This week I began my work out schedule Monday thru Friday walk 5.69miles. In the sauna suit and waist wrap. Changed my eating habits because I am determined to get at least thirty pounds off before my "flat side" day of surgery 08/08. I was reluctant about posting any pictures because I have a picture in my head of what I look like (with the girdles, spanx and etc.) I am the next best thing since sliced bread. LMBO. But to see what other people see...OH BOY!! And nothing shows how badly your body is than your workout clothes because you truly let it all hang out. All it takes is for you to see JUST ONE person larger than you and that gives you a little more motivation to continue. I told myself I am not going to weight everyday so that I am not disappointed so my next weigh in date will be 06/25..Well I am off to a good start..will keep everyone posted. Have a blessed day all..