I’m getting pretty excited! Just 28 hours to go!
I had my consultation on Jan 6th and it went pretty well. I waited for an hour, but that’s because someone else was in the room with the Vectra machine and I mean, I can’t really be upset that someone is taking their time to make a decision as important as this. Anyway, I went into the room and felt all the different implants, took my Vectra image (that machine is cool as hell BTW). Next Dr Kortesis came in so I could tell him my goals, concerns, and I also showed him some photos I brought in. I would suggest that everyone brings in various photos of what they like and don’t like. My biggest concern was going too big to where it limits my athletic activities (I’ve played soccer for 20 years and run so I work out 3-5 times per week), but also not go so small where I regretted the size after spending so much money. I knew I wanted the gummy bear implant and assumed I would go with textured from the many reviews I’ve read on Realself.com, and that ended up being the final choice.
So, he suggested the Sientra smooth, round, under the muscle (no kids and I’m pretty thin so there’s like zero breast tissue) since I wanted to do the armpit incision. I asked him why he suggests round over shaped and smooth over textured. He told me he actually favors textured, but since I wanted the armpit incision, that smooth would be the best option. He suggested round because I naturally have a pretty big gap between my boobs and that round shape would help fill that a little bit. When I was showing him breasts that I liked, I had made some comments like “these are nice, but too far apart” or “these are nice but too close together,” and he explained that has nothing to do with their implant choice and more to do with their body. After some more talking, we decided to go with everything explained above, except textured and inframammary (breast fold) incision. I’ve been 100% against this since the first day I ever considered this (10 years ago), but after hearing all the benefits compared to the armpit incision, I decided to value my health and safety over vanity. He said that incision provides much more control of the placement and pocket size, less tissue damage, and, again, allowed me to go with textured. Plus, he assured me the incision would be 2-3 cm’s in length.
So, next we were discussing size. I don’t know why, but CCs over 300 scares the hell out of me, but he suggested 385-410 based off the photos I provided and goals I expressed. I think the problem is that I don’t really know how boobs work (I’ve read many reviews where people say they were obsessed with the number of CC’s, but they are happy with their size because they can still hide their boobs when they want or let them out to play if they want). I’m just so used to having nothing that I’m afraid I’m going to have these crazy big jugs all in my way and it’s going to piss me off. I’ve seen women with implants in the range with the same amount of breast tissue to begin with, none, and they look great, even a little small for my preference, so again, I think I’m just freaking myself out and need to just trust the professionals here.
I left the office really happy with what was discussed and settled on (again, sientra 5th generation, round, textured, under the muscle, inframammary, 385 CCs), but on the way home (I have a 3 hour drive) I was freaking out a bit. I just kept thinking of everything I should’ve asked and said and checked and done and then I thought maybe my dr didn’t know I already had my surgery scheduled and thought I was just a consult and maybe if he had known the visit would’ve gone differently and I damn near about had a panic attack thinking about the breast size and kept looking at my Vectra image over and over again. The next day I called my Dr’s office and asked them to please have the 355CCs on surgery day just in case. I know the difference between the 2 is a matter of tablespoons, bit for whatever reason the number 355 made me feel so much more at ease. In case you’re wondering, I did look at smaller sizes on Vectra and didn’t feel happy with the gap I would have and decided less than 300CCs was too small to achieve what I wanted. The next day I was going to call back and request to also have 325CCs for the day of surgery, but I decided that if it was between the 3 sizes, the smart choice would be to go with the middle size, so I decided not to request that smaller size. Yesterday was the first time I started to feel like 385 would be too small (because I looked at those Vectra pics all day) so again, I think I just need to stop thinking about it. It’s hard not to because this is such a big thing, but I wish I could shut my brain off. I’m not too worried about capsular contracture or bottoming out, but I am a little worried about muscular deformity or my muscles causing the implants to look deformed. I’ve seen quite a few reviews of women who have dents or lopsided breasts or breasts that look really funky when they flex, so since I work out a lot, I really hope that doesn’t occur. I don’t lift on my arms or chest at all, but I do have a BMI of 21 so I guess that’s making me think my chances are high.
Anyways, wish me luck tomorrow! Apparently my ittie bitties are damn near perfect in terms of asymmetry and size so I guess that means I’ll have damn near perfect bigger boobs, right?!?