Large tattoo

I haven't written anything on here in awhile, but I'm reaching a point of no hope. I don't visit this site as often as I would like to, but when I do come on here and read other people's stories, it reminds me that I'm not alone because reading other people's situations is like reading something I wrote myself. I think we are all similar in ways. I don't even know where to begin since it's been so long since I've updated information on here. I feel like I'm going to lose my mind. I had my 8th treatment 6 weeks ago and I feel like my tattoo looks the same as it did a year ago. I do have to say I was smoking and not exercising during the first 6 treatments I had, so I always felt like that was the reason I wasn't happy with my results. I started getting treatments in March 2014. I quit smoking prior to my 7th treatment and I have been going to the gym (all these changes were motivated by the idea they would make my tattoo fade quicker) along with sitting in the sauna. I am really trying and working hard to get this thing off me, but I don't know what's wrong. I feel I'm not getting anywhere with treatments and I'm going from hopeful to severely depressed. I can't believe a tattoo can make me feel this way. I feel so self conscious and uncomfortable in my body. I feel I've put my life on hold until I can get this thing removed. I just look at it and cry. I don't understand how it can make me feel this way when the original tattoo I had never made me even think about it. I would forget it was there and now I obsess about this one. It's on my mind constantly. I should've left it alone instead of trying to cover it up. I'm tired of people looking at it and just making comments on how big it is. No sh@t, I know how big it is. I feel like if I can't get this removed I will never be happy again if it's caused by something I can't get rid of. I'm sorry I'm rambling on, but I needed to get that out. It just feels like even though I'm really trying now by living a healthier lifestyle, it's not even making a difference. It's affecting so many areas of my life, we'll all areas. Work, social life, love life, etc... Is anyone else experiencing something similar with their results? I've never been so anxious in my life. I feel so restless and far from myself. I'm wondering if I need to find another option.

I have completed 3 removal treatments on the outline of a pretty large tattoo with John at Clean Canvas and I have been happy with the treatment I've received and the results. I'm very lucky to have found John. The first time I went in for a consultation, he took the time to educate me on the process and the laser for about an hour. He's very knowledgable about what he's doing. Since going to him, I have not experienced any scarring, blistering, or extreme discomfort after the treatment. I feel confident in his knowledge of how to tackle my tattoo. I wouldn't recommend other places that barely know how to use the laser they're working with and that will most likely burn you. I definitely feel safe with him and I can trust he knows what he's doing. Go see John!

Hey all, does anyone know of a clinic in Houston, tx that uses the Picosure laser?? I've heard great things about it. I'm sure it's expensive, but since it takes less time for results it may even out in the long run.