27 Years Old, 5'7, 125lbs, No Kids, Currently 32 A/B - Honolulu, HI

So I've already picked my doctor, had my first consultation and preop. The first consultation I decided to go with a 400cc high profile silicone implant through the armpit. Further thinking about it, I decided to go smaller at my preop with a 385cc and 365cc to make my breasts symmetrical. I was happy with my decision to go smaller, but now I think I may want to go even smaller. The other option was 365cc/345cc. I've been going over other girls reviews and they always seem to be bigger than they expected. With me, I'd rather end up a little smaller than bigger than what I wanted since I want to go with a more natural look and I definitely don't want to end up with a D cup, mentally that's too big for me for some reason haha I'd be happy with a C. I'm going to call my doctor tomorrow and tell him I'm changing my size.

Other than that, I'm super excited but a little nervous. I had a nightmare about the drain last night. I dreamt that the nurse basically stabbed me in 3 different places in my stomach (I know, doesn't make sense) but told me that some blood will drain, but I ended up bleeding everywhere, like everywhere, all over the bed, on the walls, until I finally was barely able to talk and had to tell someone that something was wrong and that I was dying. Really hope I start having good dreams about my surgery and not ones like this!

Finally decided on my size, hardest decision even, but I think I'll definitely be happy with my decision to go with 365cc Max silicone high profile for my right boob, and the doctor will choose the appropriate best size for my left which is slightly smaller. I can't really say that it's hit me yet, but I'm sure once I'm in the hospital gown waiting, the reality will set it! Good bye strapless bras that kill my sides and goodbye needing them for shape. Wish me luck!

So yesterday morning around 7:30am I went into surgery, woke up around 10:30am when the anesthesia started wearing off. The last thing before I remembered falling asleep was the oxygen mask going on and then when I woke up, all I remembered was crying. It felt painful, but I was still pretty out of it while my boyfriend and the nurse helped me into my clothes. The next thing I remembered was I was home and pretty much slept the whole time, with the exception of every 2 hours when my boyfriend had to wake up and drain the tubes that were still connected in my arm pits. The tubes from drainage are to help take the blood and swelling out and to help prevent hard boobs. Pretty much the whole day I just slept and was given medicine that I needed. My arms are pretty weak and I can only move my left arm slightly high but my right arm I can only move my hand for now, which the doctor said was normal and would go away.

This morning was my first check up where they removed the drains, it didn't really hurt but it's a weird feeling being able to feel them coming out of my boobs through my armpit. The doctor changed my ace bandage and gave my boyfriend instructions about how to change them and when to give me medicine. The doctor also said I'd be able to take a cool shower later today with a mild soap, not the dial that I used before surgery. Since last night I've been situated with pillows to lay a little higher up to support my chest and neck. Since I can't really lift my arms, my boyfriend has to help me out of bed and help me use the restroom. There's no pain when I'm on the oxycodone, but once it wears off I feel a lot of pain and tension in my chest and armpits.

The doctor ended up giving me 365cc on both sides and they're pretty even. I'm surprised how good they already look with the exception of being swollen, he placed them in a really good place, so they don't look super high up or boxy like most pictures that I saw. Today I will continue to relax, take my medications and I can't wait to see how much better my boobs will look when they heal.