! year and 3 months later and I question why - Greensboro, NC

Here are pics from July, almost an exact year, I have some recent ones I'll post tomorrow hopefully.

Wow..what a year it has been.
I have struggled with this TT girls. My scar is still very raised and I have had pain behind my belly button area for quite some time. I do not have a hernia. I have had unexplained weird "feelings" that amount to pain. I keep being told it cant be from my TT (muscle, seroma, scar tissue buildup, nerve endings etc). I had an apt w/ my PS but xx due to other apt to narrow down the problem. I was determined not to have lipo on my hips/love handles but now as I wear things I look bigger and I feel more tightness. Cant win for losing! At the end of each scar I can grab a small sandwich size amount of fat..but its not dog ears....what?????? OMG. So, the BA? Well, my breasts have settled but now I want more perkiness, and I wish I had gone w/ small implants cause the scaring might have been less, oh the scars. I think if my TT issue would settle I might be less inclined to complain. However, that being said I look better, I just don't feel better. Anyone follow that? I'll try to add pics later but I have not taken any in a while. PS follow up to be resch. Hope everyone is well.

new pics, Almost at the six month mark, and I'm a little discouraged. I seem to have gained weight and borderline another size. I keep thinking it will get better...but I guess I lost a little when I was recuperating, maybe I should just give my body the time it needs. I am working out daily, on the treamill and weight s2x a week. Sometimes I go twice....just irritated. My scars on my breast are healing nicely, no bumps per say, the midle of my TT scar has some roughness to it, the sides seem to be smooth. I have a patch of fat on either side, my love handle area. I think its more obvious now that I have a flat stomach. I have to admit I like what I see compared to what I had before, but just as someone else noted, the elation has gone away. If I were perfect, I would be a barbie doll. I dont have an appt w/ my PS for my 6 mth PO visit, so I suppose I'll be making one. I have tightness and swelling, numbness and pulling. Guess its normal. Just wanna be able to look at myself and think " all that hard work and money paid off", but I cant. I've had better updates than this one, I'm sure I'll have better ones again. Hope everyone is doing well.