34 Years Old, 4 Children, want my bikini body back - Gold Coast, AU

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I haven't updated for a while because my body is recovering so slowly that I can barely see any change. I thought by 8 months I would be back to my old self with a little swelling maybe. Stupid me! I keep getting told that I have to wait the full year to see my results, well its approaching fast and I still have heaps of swelling on my sides and round my belly button and the scar is still so red/pink. I'm happy I got this done but I didn't realise how long my recovery was going to be.
I'm some what disappointed with my scar. It doesn't curve downwards in the middle it's just a straight across the belly scar. I can't hide the middle of my scar in size 8 underwear and I can't wear size 10 because they are too big :-(
Some people have mentioned a tattoo in that area which is a great idea but I don't want to do that.
Anyways, my scar does not move, meaning my skin hasn't got any movement yet so I'm hoping that once the skin relaxes that my scar will sink down in the middle. I can stand straight and stretch a little but the skin is still tight and numb from my belly button down to the scar line. I know you must think I'm crazy and I've just got a bad case of muffin top but I have heaps of swelling STILL on my hips. I've been eating like a rabbit and exercising like a football playing and the muffin doesn't budge.....so it's got to be swelling. If its residual fat then I'll be complaining to my PS as she said I wouldn't need lipo!
My belly button is cute and small but the scaring is still very raised and swollen behind it that it looks like a bee sting without the red to me.
Sorry for the complaining but you spend heaps of money on these operations and yet you don't get to see the results for years to come (in my situation anyways). I wasn't expecting perfect or even an invisible scar, just one that curved down in the middle like everybody else. 8 and a half months post op and I'm just a little sad and depressed that this is how I'm going to be from now on, maybe this is my final result. Upside down scar, pulled up pubic hair line and underwear and bikinis that don't cover it :-( fingers crossed that I'm over exaggerating and that the swelling will at least noticeably subside by 12 months.

Ok so I haven't updated for ages as i have been extremely busy with Xmas holidays etc etc. I've been waiting for the swelling to come down that's under my scar/pubic bone area but it hasn't. I don't know whether it is too early or if I'm going to have a huge Pubic area forever! I feel great in my clothes, maxi skirts and tight dresses I can't wear because I look like I have a man package down there. I really really REALLY wanted to rock my new hot body down at the beach for my husband to be proud of but instead I have a high scar and a puffy pubic bone that looks like a man package. I'm so self conscious now that I wear baggy shorts and a shirt to the beach, I wear only denim shorts out to the shops because skirts and dresses make me look like I have a jock strap on. My husband doesn't like seeing me upset so I suffer in silence and only cry when I'm by myself. I'm now suffering a whole new insecurity about my body now and there's no undoing this or fixing it and as for my bone structure regarding my huge pubic bone, I don't know if it's fluid or that's how I'm supposed to look. Please don't get me wrong, I didn't have high expectations, I knew the scar would come up at the sides and be seen but I thought that the middle of my scar would dip down under my undies and swimwear. I still have a lot of tightness from my belly button to my pubic area and some bumpy areas, not sure if it's fluid or not. Above my belly button sticks out like as though my stomach is full of food but doesn't stick out under my belly button which is weird. The only reason I don't fall in a heap with depression is because I keep hoping that as time goes on my body will correct itself. If I get to a year post op and am still like this then depression will be my new best friend :-/ I see my plastic surgeon on the 27th of January 2016 so I'm going to be asking all my questions on my body and hopefully she can reassure me. I had all my kids mostly in my 20's so I feel I missed out on strutting my stuff at the beach, I was always the fat pregnant one or the after baby jelly belly body person. Fingers crossed this gets better..........please please please get better. (Photos are in my favourite bikinis which have now make me cry to look at)