21 Yr Old Grigoryants Girl - Glendale, CA

Hello Realself users!
Secretly and not so secretly I've been viewing all your nose jobs to get the best idea of what my nose could look like when I get it done. I have my consultation scheduled for January 27th with Dr Grigoryant and I have to admit I'm very nervous. I'm hoping he's everything I've been looking for and more. I'm worried he won't be able to give me what I want, and I have semi realistic expectations but I'm still nervous they all won't be met since I'm a very picky and perfectionist human being lol I'm trying to have a positive mind set but there's always that possibility of someone telling me, "you looked so much prettier before you got your nose fixed" after the surgery. I would be so devastated if that happens and it still worries me to this day, does anyone else worry about that or know what to do in that situation?

This is what I've wanted since I was in high school and started to care about my appearance. I've always been teased gently by cousins and family members (nothing to the extent of bullying but it still got to me) and it would make me even more shy than I already am. To add to the fire, recently (last year) I went to an audition specifically based on looks hoping it would build my confidence (thinking I'd get picked). And, of course, it threw any confidence I had left away when I- not only never got picked the first time but for the next 6 times I auditioned through out the whole year. It crushed me and changed me for the better, I started dieting and lost a tremendous amount of weight (going the healthy way) and started to feel my confidence coming back slowly but everytime I get close to feeling better I look in the mirror and all I can see is the awful nose that makes me cringe.

My expectations to be fixed for this surgery is:
-bump on the bride of my nose
-my oversized nose
-oversized nostrils
-crookedness (how it leans towards my left)
-very droopy tip
-bulbous tip
-possible deviated septum? (My mom says she can always hear when I'm breathing and my little brother hit me with a football while swimming in the pool and my nose was sore for a whole week when I first start high school)

So basically the whole package lol I am counting on this surgery to change my life for the better (permanently) by taking a 180 on my appearance and giving me the confidence I so desperately need. I want to go back to school (College), start my life and feel happier around my boyfriend, friends and family without always having to obsess on my appearance based on my nose.

Does anybody else see what I see wrong with my nose?

Sometimes I feel like I'm going crazy thinking about my nose on how it looks now, what it could look like and comparing it to everyone else's. I have some ideas of noses I'd love to have on my face but then I'm scared that the doctor won't supply the nose I'd want. I understand that realistically my nose is different than probably the person next to me and that no nose is perfect but I just want:
-the smallest nose for my face
-beautiful profile view
-beautifully sloped nose
-cute little princess nose
I seriously do not want a totally upturned nose like a [RS bleep] person or Ms Piggy nose. I get that after surgery your swollen and that my nose definitely will need an upturning but I just don't want it too upturned if that makes sense?

That's one other thing I'm scared of happening to me and it being that way forever. I want to get this surgery done right the first time around so I never have to think about it again and to move on with life and finally enjoy it. I haven't told anybody from work except for my boyfriend and close family and close friends. My family, close friends and my boyfriend especially thinks I'm crazy for wanting to get it done but support me. I'm just so happy that the people I've told love me for who I am even at my worst before I get to become my best for them. I'm a strong enough person to say I'm beautiful on the inside and I just want my outside beauty to match my inside beauty if that makes sense as well? Lol thank you for reading my review so far, I hope to let all of you know how my consultation goes and what the Dr has to say about my nose! This consutlation cant come any sooner!! Lol, Stay tuned! :)

Ok so the day of my consultation feels so close, its just around the corner and I'm super nervous. I've heard that Dr G doesn't spend that much time with you during consultations and theirs been minor complaints that he seems to kind of rush you or seem to be in a hurry (but who can blame him, he's a busy man lol). I had a 3 (front and back) papers full of questions to ask him but have minimized it since finding out this info. I figured questions that I already know and were self explanatory were irrelevant to ask him. So I made a 1 page paper that have small questions front and back to ask, its actually more of a summery/organization paper to help me keep everything in order of what to ask and when to ask :)
For sure I'm asking some questions I'm curious about Rhinoplasty, about what my future Rhinoplasty will be and showing him some pictures of what I would wish to have. I understand that he'll probably say that no nose is the same, and that my results will be completely different, and that he can't guarantee that my nose will look anything comparable to the noses I want. However, I just want a perfect nose for my face and if it just happens to look anything like these or close I would be even more extremely happy. I've uploaded some pictures of front view and side views (left and right) of what I wish I could have. I also added a photo of me with one of my favorite nose celebrities Eva Marie to show how my nose looks slightly similar to here's and what I imagine what it hopefully will look like. I'm hoping all these examples of what I wish to have aren't too out of reach with someone like a nose like mine?
**Questions for already Rhinoplasty patients**:
Do any of you have any good questions for me to ask my doctor when I go to my consult.?
Anything you wish you had asked before you had your surgery done and wish you'd known?
I have some good questions but any other questions I might be missing would be extremely helpful :) thank you!
Lastly, I'm worried about financing and how I'm going to be paying for this surgery. I'm 20 years old with no credit at all, have maybe a grand in savings and that's it. I tried getting care credit when I went to my dermatologist for my upper lip and they denied me saying that, "my age isn't old enough" or something crazy like that. I'm wondering if Dr G is helpful with helping find a finacer to finance me... I'm not sure if my parents are wiling to co-sign or pay for it (which I doubt) so I'm trying to think of a plan B just incase. Any info will be grately appreciated :)
Thank you!

So I just got home from my consultation with Dr Grigoryants and I think it went extremely well. I knew from the start that I would probably have to wait awhile to see him during my consultation and that he would seem to rush through the whole thing so nothing like that was a big surprise for me :)
During the consult. he told me he thought I had a good nose but that it could use refinement and that he would make it less droopy and projected while also taking away the dorsal hump. He didn't seem to notice a deviated septum or that my nose was slightly turned to the left (in my opinion) so that's good news yet bad since insurance won't be covering a partial percentage of the cost. I asked him some general questions including one of them being "Do I have thick skin?" He answer no and said that I have medium-thick skin, and that its pretty average which is great to hear! :D
The staff was very friendly, a little vague on payment plans or what to do before hand, just told me that she had a surgery date open and that she was holding it for someone but will give it to me if that one person ends up cancelling. I didnt even bother showing the doctor inspiration pictures of noses that I liked since I trust him to make my nose beautiful.
Does anyone think that was a bad choice not to show pictures for a reference?
Other than that everything seemed to go good. I only regret not being able to ask the doctor some questions I skipped, (being nervous and all), show him the photos I liked, and letting him know what I desire for me end result. Ex: smallest nose for my face yada yada, just getting the complete feel that we were on the same page. But again, everything was rushed and I already knew that would happen. There's always post surgery when I get to see him again so there's no worries about that :)