Reduction with internal bra + Hall Findlay Method + Anchor-Scar - US 36DDD/UK 36E/EU 80G Aim: 36 C Cup

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What can i say? It is so sad that we do not have such websites as Realself in germany ! It is so sad that we don't have such a good plattform where people are not afraid of showing theirselves and talking about beauty operations. I think it is still quite unusual to get beauty operations done here in germany, than it is in america or the uk. I am so addictet to this website and i am happy that you guys all share your experiences. So will i, i think it is just fair and i wish everyone of you that you can achive what you want :)

I do have problems with my breasts since i was 13 years old i guess. As so many of you i have years behind me with a very low self-esteem because my breasts where hanging quite a lot at a too young age. I don't have to tell you how i felt with taking the bra off in front of a boy or later man. Who would want hanging breasts? When i was about 12 i already had a C Cup and it became more and more .. then a D, later DD. I gave birth to two kids where i was at the age of 21 and since then my breasts even got bigger.

Everytime i had been pregnant i wasn't able to breastfeed my kids properly, because i had such a mastitis everytime. Hard and stone-like breasts, on both sides inflamed mammary glands. I was in such pain, had high fever and had to go in the hospital because it was so bad. They tried to get rid of the galactostasia, with curd and cold wraps around my breasts...and i felt like a cow, heavy, stonelike breasts, acking.. constantly dripping milk that was too much ( i guess ). It was horrible. When i was 18 i had the first meeting with a surgeon in my life, my mother had gone with me.. and i will never forget how humiliated i felt.. when the doctor looked at me with this derogatory expression on the face saying "well, that's just an aesthetic problem, and wouldn't been paid be the insurance".

I never forget this moment as it haunts me until today. I felt devastated and believed i would never be able to enjoy my body in the way others could. I always have been depressed about that topic..You know that, every day you look in the mirror you hate them. You simply do.

I always had back problems, could hardly find nice bras that woulnd't cost a load of money. Most of them looked like "grandmas version". I hated these bras with this wide straps. I hated never beeing able to wear something with fine straps on my shoulders.. or even shoulder free.. Well.. back to today: Now i am a 34DDD/F. It just got worse.. and i don't know why i started this again... but it might have to do with the fact, that my boyfriend made a proposal to me, and we will marry in Spring 2015..

You might be able to understand that i always.. always.. wanted a nice strapless gown as bride... and since we talk about planning everything.. i couldn't get it out of my head.. that i wanted to do this reduction for so long. I am addicted to this website and can't stop reading about all this stuff over and over again.

I even bought a top, that i am going to wear if everything is over :)

I have to say.. in germany you won't get these op's paid by insurances. Except you do have gigantomasty, or a minimum of 500 gr per each side to get out. My surgeon i really have a good feeling about, told me, that he wouldn't expect the insurance to pay. I am going to pay this out of my pocket. And even when it hurts a lot, but i am going to do it.

Now where i am 33, i will have a long time left where i can enjoy my breasts if i do get the op now.. my body is still young and in good shape.. I explained it to my BF.. I don't see any sense in waiting even longer than i already did.. there will NEVER be the time where i can say.. oh now i do have the money with a flip of my finger...it will always be something that is handled and seen like "unnecessary" for others. Why should i wait? 17 years are long enough... even if it cost a hell of money. No i don't think about the money anymore. I. am. going. to. do. it.

The first consultation with the PD was really good and i felt in the right hands. He has quite a reputation here in germany and he explained everything very well. He will hopefully be able to form a nice 34 B/C. My measures: 151 lbs and 5'7".

My pre op date is the 15th of january and the op date will be the 24th of january. I just hope it will all go well! I don't know how i will explain it to the coworkers....and i also don't know how to explain to my parents. Until now.. the few people i told weren't quite understanding that is really sad. But how could someone really explain how it feels inside...

please don't be to harsh with me if i write anything wrong ! I do the best i can =) i will keep you updated

I really have to say it is quite strange to see my breasts this way. I never fotographed them because i never liked them, obvioulsy. As i see them like this now, i really have to say i hate them. So great that i will be without this form in 16 weeks !!!!

What i really think might be quite important for those that are interested in a breast reduction is: You really have to discuss with the surgeon how he is placing your new nipples. I found out, that this is not a "clear" thing. I have seen so many breast reductions, where the surgeon obviously had no idea where to put them right. Sometimes you can see breasts with nipples that look like "car lights" or squinting eyes if you know what i mean. And also you can see, that the nipples are way to far at the outside of the breast. It is really important that the surgeon makes sure that they look natural. My PD explained that is why he always takes measure points to find out about the placement of the nipple. To see where the placement would be the best he draws a line from the sternum, and also from the middle of the collarbone right in the direction where your old nipple was. He then puts the nipple in the height of 21 cm sometimes 20 cm measured down from the collarbone ( might vary a bit depending on the body measurements ect )