Regret, Want These Out! - Georgia

So I've been reading on here the past week and it has helped me so much. I had BA on 7/16/14. It was the biggest mistake. I had silicone, 400cc, above the muscle, crease incisions. I have spent my whole life thinking that I needed bigger breasts, I was a 36A before surgery, I think about a 36C/D now. I made a hasty decision to have surgery and listened to friends who had this same surgery and loved it. I think I was having doubts before but I convinced myself it was nerves. I have regretted this from the day I had surgery and I want these things out of me! I hate that it took this for me to realize how much I loved myself the way I was. And there is nothing wrong with the way they look... They look great and are healing great. It is just not for me and not what I want or need. I have a follow up with my PS on Aug 4 and I am so nervous. I just want this behind me and to get back to myself.

So I saw my Dr on Mon August 4 and she was completely understanding. She said she had not had this happen to her before but her ultimate goal was my happiness. The scheduler called today and gave me a date for Aug 14! The Dr did say I would have drain tubes, maybe 7-10 days, so not looking forward to that. I'm so ready for this to be done but I'm just worried that my recovery may be a little harder since I'll only be 4 weeks post op from my BA. So if there is any one out there that has some experience in a situation similar to mine, I would appreciate some advice and prayers!

My explant is scheduled for this Thursday and I am so nervous. I'm ready to get this over with but I am so worried about the after. How am I going to feel? I already know I will have drainage tubes in and I'm scared about how those will be. I Def don't want to go under GA again but I want these things out. I just want to be myself again. I can't sleep at night and I'm just so depressed that I did this to myself. I just want all of this behind me.