Full TT, Lipo, Muscle Repair - Minneapolis area, MN

So I guess my story goes here, huh? Well, I'm 42. Mom of 10. Yes, you read that right. :) I have always wanted a big family and do love it, but it really did a number on my body. Each time I gave birth, about 5-10 pounds stayed with me, until I was 5'6" and 184 pounds. Not good. I little over a year ago, I became determined to get in shape, and I lost a total of 59 pounds, (50 have been sustainable - I think 59 was unrealistic) and kept it off for over a year now. But the middle of me is another story. At 135-140 pounds, I still look 6 months pregnant. My muscles are so badly separated, nothing holds in. I have tried Tupler Technique, P90X, and weight management. Doctor said the only thing that can fix it is surgery. So that is what is next for me. I am having a TT with lip on the flanks and it's next week. I'm nervous. I've never had surgery like this before.

I am very nervous about my upcoming surgery. I am very anxious about medical stuff in general and so I've had an upset stomach for a complete week now. And I've been doing everything I can to keep my mind off surgery and recovery. When it do comes back to my mind, I get nausous. Last night my hubby and I were talking about it and I started dry heaving. Yuck. I did speak with the nurse about this and she said I could get a valium to help me sleep the night before. Thank goodness.
I go in for pre-op later today. I'm sure my stomach will be doing somersaults again.
adding pre-surgery photos today

Ill update better when I'm less groggy from pain meds. The pain isn't fun. I had to go to the clinic today because one drain wasn't draining. Turns out it was just kinked. But the trip to the clinic was painful. I hope this gets better fast.