48 Y/o Mom in Desperate Need of Mommy Makeover After 90lb Weight Loss

I have been considered "morbidly obese" since the birth of my son (1999). The first time I had a doctor tell me that, I was SHOCKED? Me? I knew I had gained weight but morbidly obese? Then came the, "who is THAT lady in the pictures with MY family?" question I asked everytime I "allowed" someone to take a picture of me with my husband and/or kids. So, I did what I think MOST women do (when not happy with how we look)...I stopped letting people take pictures of me and became the one who always TOOK the pictures. My brother, who was 4 years older than me, passed away @ 46 years of age. We BOTH had the same health problems that could have been contributed to obesity (high BP, high cholesterol, diabetes, heart disease). Around the age of 45, I started fearing that I would meet the same demise that my brother met...death at an early age. Afterall, my Cardiologist told me if I didn't do WHATEVER I NEEDED TO DO to lose weight, I was at stroke/heart attack level with my Cholesterol or I could have the same outcome as my brother...death. I asked him about Gastric Bypass. He said I would be a great candidate for it...to talk to my PCP. Inching closer to 46...I started really worrying about my health (brother passed @ 46)...it motivated me to talk with my PCP about. She was NOT supportive...at all. Instead of asking me WHY I all of the sudden want to check into Gastric Bypass...after all of the years of being obese...she immediately shut me down by saying, "no, you're not a candidate"...repeatedly. I explained it wasn't for vanity reasons...but for my health...my liver was already enlarged (due to the meds I was taking and them being just a bandaid as I would have to take them for the rest of my life) and I was having panic attacks...almost daily...wondering, "is it going to happen today (stroke/heart attack)...will it be in front of my kids?...in front of my husband?...will I be driving and kill someone else?...will it be at work?...will I SURVIVE?? I was living in hell. I went to the Patient Advocate office at the hospital and changed my PCP. My new PCP was so understanding and was more than supportive...even giving me her PERSONAL CELL # to reach out to after surgery...yes, turns out I WAS a candidate!!...in case I had any issues or questions. I had Gastric Bypass in September 2013 and have lost 90 lbs. I gained 6 lbs back because I received so many comments (from the hubs, as well) that I lost TOO MUCH weight...looked sickly...can you believe that? I've NEVER had that problem. ;) So...I've maintained 133lbs on my 5'4" frame and couldn't feel better. THE BEST PART...The only medication I take now is Nexium, Flintstone Vitamins, B12, and Tums EX (for the calcium). How AWESOME is THAT (I was taking 13 prescribed meds a day before surgery)!!! THE WORST PART...the lose skin and saggy boobs!!! I find I am still "HIDING"...wearing oversized clothes to hide the loose skin in my tummy. My boobs? NO VOLUME...however, I put on my "rawhide"...my head'em up and move'em out bra...and can make them look "ok"...with the exception of some wrinkling due to the lose skin. I want to be FREE...I want to be able to complete my transformation and not feel embarrassed in a bathing suit or in clothes due to my "apron"...loose skin that hangs down over my pubic area. Therefore...I have researched (mostly thru Real Self...and have become OBSESSED with this site) the Mommy Makeover (reading bio's, looking at pictures...my husband says I've seen more boobs than him) and have met with a PS and have scheduled my surgery (TT w/MR, Liposuction, BA w/BL). Although it's going to cost me a lot more than I expected...my husband is SO supportive and didn't even FLINCH when we were handed the quote. I, however, was happy we were in the hospital because I thought I was gonna need CPR. So...64 days to wait. In the meantime...I'll be continue to stalk those of you who have already been thru this process and will continue to obsess and fantasize what I'll look like sporting my new "rims" and flat tummy. I'll post before pictures closer to my surgery date (7-20-16).

What? Do I want to move my surgery date from July 20th to July 11th? Does a one-legged duck swim in circles?? YES!!! So...new count down...45 days to go!!!