Mommy Makeover -TT part of this went well. Scheduling explant though.

Hi to all. I hope you are all doing well. I haven't been on the MM board for a while, since I've been dealing with having my implants removed. It's been quite the roller coaster. I've been struggling with more emotional trauma than anything, really having regrets about having implants and sometimes wishing I hadn't done anything. However, I realize that I DID have all of this done and need to become more comfortable with my new reality.

I've been healing from my explant, which I had 3 weeks ago. Healing is going fine, but I will be left with permanent muscle damage that is leaving quite a deformity when I flex at all. It's upsetting, and I hope it gets better. I feel much better without the implants though. They just weren't for me.

My tummy tuck is doing great. No problems except an occasional twinge or tweak. I haven't really started doing a lot of ab work yet. It's still a little tough to do. I am going to start up with some yoga soon and after some stretching and limbering up, will start working these abs so I can show off the six pack that has been hiding under here all this time. (well, it's flabby now since I haven't worked abs in 4 months!)

Anyway, the only thing that still really bothers me with the TT is the numbness. I knew this would be a long road, but was hoping to be further along getting sensation back. I had no way of knowing how it would feel being numb all the time, it's weird. I find it really strange feeling when I am holding something and it is resting on my tummy. I can feel it because of the muscle sensation, but the skin just feels thick. I am sure many of you are having the same thing.

I wanted a way to better track my progress from here. I have had quite a bit of sensation return, but the center is still completely numb as well as along most of the incision and in my left leg/bikini line area. I have some numbness over mons pubis too which I think is from the lipo he did there.

I took a pic so in a couple of months, I can see if the area has shrunk down. I used tweezers to prick my skin to feel the sensation and at each area that i no longer felt it I put a dot. I connected the dots and you can see the area in the pics.

So, I'll up date again in a few weeks as to how the numbness is going as well as getting back to ab work.

I started a removal review and will update this process on that one once RS approves it. I scheduled my explant 7/19. I'm heartbroken that the implants aren't working out, but I'm glad to be getting them out. Way too many problems. So, I'll be heading back to the flat side again!! PS thought my TT was healing nicely and I agree. I'm happy with my tummy. Hope my boobs bounce back too.

I just started an implant removal review, so you can read about my story over there. I'm just done with all of these problems. Having implants is not worth any of this trouble, so I'm going to have them out. I've gone back and forth and thought long and hard about just having smaller ones put it in, but my husband and I finally talked it through and he agrees that I should just remove them.

I feel bad about telling my PS because he did such a beautiful job, they just aren't for me. I'll be meeting with him tomorrow to schedule. Thank you for all the support on this board and I will be updating with my MM progress. My tummy tuck is healing nicely is feeling great. Who knew a TT would be so much easier than a BA!!