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Obsessing over a Small Part of New Tattoo.. - Florida
UPDATED FROM Cheeks88
Acceptance
It hasn't been that long, but slowly and surely I have been growing to accept my new tattoo a little more every day. The other day I wore a tank top at home and managed to not be bothered by the site of my tattoos out of the corner of my eye. My children don't notice them, and when they do they say "Ohh pretty". They just seem to accept them, without worrying that mommy is now different, or changed. My daughter says how she's going to get all kinds of tattoos, ranging from princesses to butterflies/moths and flowers on her arm too. I am of course discouraging her from that for now (lol).
I had a consultation last week at an office that has the pico sure, and the woman I spoke with was so helpful and reassuring. She actually advised me against doing anything to my tattoo, as it was so fresh and that I should wait and see if I could get used to it. She told me it was a very beautiful tattoo and that it'd be sad to go through the long process of taking off good work. She did suggest in lightening the moth some if I ended up not being happy with how dark it is down the road, and then going over it with brighter colors, or even the possibility of a cover up. She was very honest with me and told me she wasn't sure my tattoos could be completely removed, it would really all depend on how much time and money I was willing to put into it.
Leaving the clinic I felt much better. I was happy with the outcome of my visit, even if I knew I would be forced to accept my tattoo and learn to live with it, at least for now. But like I said, every day it is getting easier and easier. I'm happy I am considering all of my options and doing research, because who knows, 10 years down the road I may decide to get them (or part of them) removed. It's good knowing what can be done and what can't.
It's been so therapeutic reading about other peoples journeys on here. I'm just glad I'm not alone!
I had a consultation last week at an office that has the pico sure, and the woman I spoke with was so helpful and reassuring. She actually advised me against doing anything to my tattoo, as it was so fresh and that I should wait and see if I could get used to it. She told me it was a very beautiful tattoo and that it'd be sad to go through the long process of taking off good work. She did suggest in lightening the moth some if I ended up not being happy with how dark it is down the road, and then going over it with brighter colors, or even the possibility of a cover up. She was very honest with me and told me she wasn't sure my tattoos could be completely removed, it would really all depend on how much time and money I was willing to put into it.
Leaving the clinic I felt much better. I was happy with the outcome of my visit, even if I knew I would be forced to accept my tattoo and learn to live with it, at least for now. But like I said, every day it is getting easier and easier. I'm happy I am considering all of my options and doing research, because who knows, 10 years down the road I may decide to get them (or part of them) removed. It's good knowing what can be done and what can't.
It's been so therapeutic reading about other peoples journeys on here. I'm just glad I'm not alone!
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UPDATED FROM Cheeks88
Riding a roller coaster of crappy feelings...
Feeling many ups and downs. I uploaded pictures earlier of my tattoos but felt it was too disrespectful to the artist so I took them down.
I have been looking more and more into laser removal but it seems like such a risk.. like is there permanent horrible scarring afterwards??? Skin discoloration??? I don't want any of that, I think i'd just rather live with the tattoos, at least they are beautiful art. I'm scared to get the tattoos lasered off, what if it just makes me feel even more disfigured??
I mentioned to my husband tonight how I was really feeling about my new tattoos. He said they were fine and kind of blew it off. He probably thinks i'm overreacting.. he knows I've been depressed lately. He has a lot on his plate right now too with work so I'm not taking his lack of reaction/support personally. I'm worried he'll be upset with me if I tell him I'd consider to get the tattoos removed even though it is so expensive. What a waste...thousands of dollars to remove something that only cost hundreds? I'm just so mad at myself right now. I know we all make mistakes, but I've gotten tattoos before that I ended up regretting (that I now no longer care about because they are easily hidden) so you would think I would have learned. I'm just so tired of feeling like this.
I love seeing everyone's progress on here, but some of you have been at it for so LONG! Wow..crazy to think something that took only hours to complete can take years upon years to fix.
I'm still coming to terms with all of this. It's so much all at once. I just keep feeling like I should have left my shoulder tattoo alone. I still LOVE seeing it, the rest is just too much. UGH!
I have been looking more and more into laser removal but it seems like such a risk.. like is there permanent horrible scarring afterwards??? Skin discoloration??? I don't want any of that, I think i'd just rather live with the tattoos, at least they are beautiful art. I'm scared to get the tattoos lasered off, what if it just makes me feel even more disfigured??
I mentioned to my husband tonight how I was really feeling about my new tattoos. He said they were fine and kind of blew it off. He probably thinks i'm overreacting.. he knows I've been depressed lately. He has a lot on his plate right now too with work so I'm not taking his lack of reaction/support personally. I'm worried he'll be upset with me if I tell him I'd consider to get the tattoos removed even though it is so expensive. What a waste...thousands of dollars to remove something that only cost hundreds? I'm just so mad at myself right now. I know we all make mistakes, but I've gotten tattoos before that I ended up regretting (that I now no longer care about because they are easily hidden) so you would think I would have learned. I'm just so tired of feeling like this.
I love seeing everyone's progress on here, but some of you have been at it for so LONG! Wow..crazy to think something that took only hours to complete can take years upon years to fix.
I'm still coming to terms with all of this. It's so much all at once. I just keep feeling like I should have left my shoulder tattoo alone. I still LOVE seeing it, the rest is just too much. UGH!
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Check out this guys review. I found it so insightful and it gave me so much hope. I'm not sure I will ever come to love or even like my tattoo but I'm pretty sure he didn't feel that way in the beginning either. http://www.realself.com/review/box-hill-australia-tattoo-removal-full-arm-tattoo-major-regret Hopefully you can start to love your entire tattoo or maybe add to it to make it more to your liking. Feel free to message me if you wanna talk!
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I'm so glad you read Lumiera's review - it's so inspirational in many ways! Be sure to comment on his review, I am sure he would love to know that his story helped you.
Thank you !!! I read his journey and it has really helped me! I am at the point where I am learning to love my tattoo and accept it. It has definitely dawned on me that I see it on myself quite differently than the rest of the world, and I need to stop worrying so much about what others think. As long as I am okay with it, that's all that matters. I appreciate you sharing that with me, it has definitely been so helpful knowing that there are many others going through the same thing as myself.
UPDATED FROM Cheeks88
Pictures of my arm, still feeling conflicted
Still feeling blah about my tats. Wish I had just left it alone and kept the top flowers (all the blue ones styled after Swedish folk art). The moth placement is what made me want to get the filler in the back of the two extra (random) flowers. :( I wish I had just stopped and thought about it more. Or pushed for a much smaller moth maybe in a different spot. I would be fine with the whole piece of I didn't have so many little random flowers in the back. I'm stuck right now still liking and trying to accept my tats but also regretting what I did.
I have 2 kids, school and a job on top of feeling crappy. I'm not regretting getting more tattoos, just wish I had fought more for what I wanted and originally envisioned. My tattoo artist wasnt trying to sway me to get anything I didn't want. She was very easy going and helpful. I'd go back to her in a heart beat!
Anyway I haven't been eating normally so I'm starting to lose weight. I'm already on anti depressants for anxiety/depression so at least I have that to help me as I try to get through this. I just want to have a I don't give a f*ck attitude and not care but I do care sometimes. I really do love tattoos and the look of them. I love random ones people get over time that tell a story. I love the newly inked ones all bright and fresh, and the faded ones. It's not that I don't like them on me, I'm just wishing I could make a few changes. I'm not really sure what to do other than just wait and see if I feel differently after they're all healed? I still need to get my moth touched up too.
I have 2 kids, school and a job on top of feeling crappy. I'm not regretting getting more tattoos, just wish I had fought more for what I wanted and originally envisioned. My tattoo artist wasnt trying to sway me to get anything I didn't want. She was very easy going and helpful. I'd go back to her in a heart beat!
Anyway I haven't been eating normally so I'm starting to lose weight. I'm already on anti depressants for anxiety/depression so at least I have that to help me as I try to get through this. I just want to have a I don't give a f*ck attitude and not care but I do care sometimes. I really do love tattoos and the look of them. I love random ones people get over time that tell a story. I love the newly inked ones all bright and fresh, and the faded ones. It's not that I don't like them on me, I'm just wishing I could make a few changes. I'm not really sure what to do other than just wait and see if I feel differently after they're all healed? I still need to get my moth touched up too.
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Your tattoo is beautiful and I don't think the flowers look random. I totally understand how you're feeling- there's something very sickening about regretting something you just did knowing it's not easy or even possible to undo. As I'm sure you have discovered it is possible to remove pieces of a tattoo so maybe you could get the flowers taken off or lightened to a point you could cover them up. Maybe if you just changed the color and shape of them? I was told to wait 6 weeks before starting removal on my new tattoo so just see what happens during that time. In the meantime, try to focus on the good parts in your life. That's what I've been doing and it's really helped me. I was in bad shape for about 10 days then decided I didn't want to be selfish and bring my family down with me. Good luck and keep us posted.
Thank you for your kind words! I need some encouragement for sure. I know I'm over analyzing everything right now so I'm just going to wait and see what happens after they're healed. It's so hard to not let how you feel about something like this take over your life. I'm definitely trying to not think about it and focus on more important things. It's hard of course when I see the tattoos but I'm going to just block them out as best as I can for now.
I think if anything I may get the two flowers taken off one day but before I do that I want to try and get used to them. I also thought about adding another tattoo to the back of my shoulder next to the flowers. I don't know. Maybe it's just a shock to my system at just how much ink I've added to my arm and shoulder and I shouldn't add anymore. Lol I'm sure my husband probably doesn't want me to add anymore ink to my body.
I wish you luck in your journey! It's amazing what they can do now a days to remove unwanted ink and the technology will hopefully only get better. If you don't mind me asking, what do you want to get removed? And what specific treatments are you looking at? I'm most familiar with the pico sure but that's it. I know there are other treatments out there.
Thank you for your update, I am thrilled that you have come to terms with your tattoo, and that the lady who helped you during your consultation was supportive and honest. I love your tattoo, and think you have made a great choice. Keep us posted.