Obsessing over a Small Part of New Tattoo.. - Florida

It hasn't been that long, but slowly and surely I have been growing to accept my new tattoo a little more every day. The other day I wore a tank top at home and managed to not be bothered by the site of my tattoos out of the corner of my eye. My children don't notice them, and when they do they say "Ohh pretty". They just seem to accept them, without worrying that mommy is now different, or changed. My daughter says how she's going to get all kinds of tattoos, ranging from princesses to butterflies/moths and flowers on her arm too. I am of course discouraging her from that for now (lol).

I had a consultation last week at an office that has the pico sure, and the woman I spoke with was so helpful and reassuring. She actually advised me against doing anything to my tattoo, as it was so fresh and that I should wait and see if I could get used to it. She told me it was a very beautiful tattoo and that it'd be sad to go through the long process of taking off good work. She did suggest in lightening the moth some if I ended up not being happy with how dark it is down the road, and then going over it with brighter colors, or even the possibility of a cover up. She was very honest with me and told me she wasn't sure my tattoos could be completely removed, it would really all depend on how much time and money I was willing to put into it.

Leaving the clinic I felt much better. I was happy with the outcome of my visit, even if I knew I would be forced to accept my tattoo and learn to live with it, at least for now. But like I said, every day it is getting easier and easier. I'm happy I am considering all of my options and doing research, because who knows, 10 years down the road I may decide to get them (or part of them) removed. It's good knowing what can be done and what can't.

It's been so therapeutic reading about other peoples journeys on here. I'm just glad I'm not alone!

Feeling many ups and downs. I uploaded pictures earlier of my tattoos but felt it was too disrespectful to the artist so I took them down.

I have been looking more and more into laser removal but it seems like such a risk.. like is there permanent horrible scarring afterwards??? Skin discoloration??? I don't want any of that, I think i'd just rather live with the tattoos, at least they are beautiful art. I'm scared to get the tattoos lasered off, what if it just makes me feel even more disfigured??

I mentioned to my husband tonight how I was really feeling about my new tattoos. He said they were fine and kind of blew it off. He probably thinks i'm overreacting.. he knows I've been depressed lately. He has a lot on his plate right now too with work so I'm not taking his lack of reaction/support personally. I'm worried he'll be upset with me if I tell him I'd consider to get the tattoos removed even though it is so expensive. What a waste...thousands of dollars to remove something that only cost hundreds? I'm just so mad at myself right now. I know we all make mistakes, but I've gotten tattoos before that I ended up regretting (that I now no longer care about because they are easily hidden) so you would think I would have learned. I'm just so tired of feeling like this.

I love seeing everyone's progress on here, but some of you have been at it for so LONG! Wow..crazy to think something that took only hours to complete can take years upon years to fix.

I'm still coming to terms with all of this. It's so much all at once. I just keep feeling like I should have left my shoulder tattoo alone. I still LOVE seeing it, the rest is just too much. UGH!

Still feeling blah about my tats. Wish I had just left it alone and kept the top flowers (all the blue ones styled after Swedish folk art). The moth placement is what made me want to get the filler in the back of the two extra (random) flowers. :( I wish I had just stopped and thought about it more. Or pushed for a much smaller moth maybe in a different spot. I would be fine with the whole piece of I didn't have so many little random flowers in the back. I'm stuck right now still liking and trying to accept my tats but also regretting what I did.

I have 2 kids, school and a job on top of feeling crappy. I'm not regretting getting more tattoos, just wish I had fought more for what I wanted and originally envisioned. My tattoo artist wasnt trying to sway me to get anything I didn't want. She was very easy going and helpful. I'd go back to her in a heart beat!

Anyway I haven't been eating normally so I'm starting to lose weight. I'm already on anti depressants for anxiety/depression so at least I have that to help me as I try to get through this. I just want to have a I don't give a f*ck attitude and not care but I do care sometimes. I really do love tattoos and the look of them. I love random ones people get over time that tell a story. I love the newly inked ones all bright and fresh, and the faded ones. It's not that I don't like them on me, I'm just wishing I could make a few changes. I'm not really sure what to do other than just wait and see if I feel differently after they're all healed? I still need to get my moth touched up too.