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A lot has happened since my last update. I had the second surgery in August to fix my right breast that was bottoming out. It did not take long for it to drop back down. So on November 17th I opted to have the mastopexy on my left breast and again lifting the right. About 3 to 4 weeks post 3rd surgery my vertical incision opened and continued to open for a week. There was only a tiny bit of skin left before it was a huge opening and my skin was burning as it tore open. Friday December 16th I went back to the doctor in distress because of the expanding wound and he decided to stitch it up again. I am on antibiotics again and fresh stitches. I feel like I have been through the ringer this past year with everything. I am also fighting a sinus infection at the same time. This truly has to be the last surgery to fix my breasts. I have not been able to run or work out for almost the last year. I have gained weight and I am struggling with my self esteem more than ever. I hope my incisions heal ok this time, stay infection free and my breasts stay semi level finally. Then eventually I can get back to a work out routine..

So the last couple of months have been rough. My right breast continued to drop and I have had this constant pinching pain. I walk around cupping my breast to take the pressure off the fold. It felt like the pocket was tearing inside. I guess my 40+ year old skin was weak and not supporting the implant enough. My scar was about an inch above the bottom if the implant and it was well into my armpit. I've felt pretty self conscious in front of my husband and my bras were hurting me in the location of the low implant. I went back to my doctor. He offered to go back in and reinforce the pocket to lift it back up. My second surgery was Tuesday August 23rd. So I am now back in recovery mode. I'm feeling very defeated and scared for the outcome. I'm really concerned that now my breasts will hang completely different. I never imagined I'd be one of those ladies having multiple surgeries. I love having breasts but this is taking an emotional toll. Not to mention the expense. Maybe it's the pain meds talking, I'm just really bummed right now.

Today marks 4 weeks yay! My scars have improved so maybe my self induced pain from massaging my scars last week actually helped. My skin sensitivity continues to improve. Any lingering breast pain is only intermittent and usually from a movement or trying to do something I should not. My breasts don't seem to have visibly changed much from the last post, which is good because I would prefer they not drop anymore. No big changes this week in looks just the scars and really about feeling better overall. I feel closer to normal. I was able to get into the gym a few days this week. I did elliptical, stationary biking and a bunch of box step ups.