Getting ready :D - Europe

Hello to everyone. As most of people in this page i hate my nose. I have a bulbous wide long nose...i have the biggest problem with my front view ,cause that's what bothers me the most...Sometimes Im so embarrased to talk to people ,and I always put my hand in front cause I dont want them to see what an ugly nose I have..Im afraid of talking to guys I like cause they all think ''woww such a beautiful girl ..with a horrible nose''/....Im so tired of wearing sunglasses everytime I walk out of home , Im tired of watching myself in the mirror , and not liking what I see....I really cant anymore...

..it looks funny but a single nose can ruin a life!! Years are passing by and I still havent done my plastic surgery. There are many reasons..First i dont have the money to pay the procedure ,and my parents think im stupid for even thinking of doing a plastic surgery. I live in a small country in Europe and things here are different..they dont even agree for me to get a job before finishing university :((( Im so sad ...is there anyone that feels the same ,or am I the only stupid girl to hate my nose so much? Is there anyone who has done a plastic surgery and their life has changed after it??

It drives me crazy that my parents dont understand me...I am so ugly with this nose ...Im starting to think I should get a part time job and I wont tell them...its gonna be hard cause I dont have permission to go out at night...after i finish school im always home...Im dying to fix my nose and then go at least once to a party in some disco :( :PP haha anyways im still have hope :))

Im sorry for the mistakes I do but english its not my native language :(

No progress at all. I dont understand how can my parents not see how much unhappy I am? And how can they think that what I wanna do is just stupid...I hate my self cause whenever I bring this topic up , tears start showing in my eyes without no reason and i cant even argue with them hahah ! And then my dad thinks im just obsessed and this obsession shall pass ugggg!!! I told him its not an obsession , I have a problem and I need to fix it . Since plastic surgery exists why not fix it ..

I just wanna feel happy with my reflection in the mirror , i wanna feel good with myself..Im not even scared of the surgery (usually i faint even when i see my own blood) but in this case im not scared at all. I just wanna do it , i really hope it turns out good , but even if it doesnt at least i'll say I tried ..

Anyways tonight my mom promissed she will talk to my father and bring me an answer of the decission he has made. Lets hope for the best xxx

Finally I can see a small light in this tunnel! My dad said he would think about this ( before he used to say a big NOOOOO ) I think he finally realised how important this is to me. I know its big cash to pay but i told him he should consider this as a loan , and that i will get him back every penny in the second i finish school and find a job.

I guess its a 80% yes since my mom was smiling and dad was in a good mood. Lets hope he'll get a decision by the end of this month ,so I could do the surgery at least in May ...and finally enjoy summer without being ashamed of my nose!! Yayy fingers crossed and i'll let you guys now how things are going..thank you so much to all for supporting me and saying im beautiful without even knowing me...!!! thanks again

So we went to the doctor to make a consult. The clinic is actually in the capital city so we had to make a drive in there and meet him ..I liked him. A LOT. He basically said the cons and pros of the surgery , said there is a 4% of possibility that i wouldnt like the result , he also said that he made lots of noses like mines and told me exactly what i wanted to change ,without me even saying it...But I told him i want the nose to suit my face , i mean a nose this big really looks bad , but a nose too small would look bad too! He agreed and said our family should disscus this at home and take a decision . Didnt said ''I SHOULD TOTALLY DO THIS and blabla like my other consult with another doctor went'' .So everything seemed to be going great until the moment my scary dad with a scary voice asked him how much will the surgery cost. The doctor named the prince and my dad said ''you plastic surgeons are going to be billionaires by doing these stupid things and convincing girls like my daughter to go through a knife just to be happy with themselves!'' How embarrasing. Like its the doctor's fault that I want a better nose...oh my god ...Anyways i got really angry with him and he got angry with me , he said I should get more worried about school and not about noses and stuff like that! Like I didnt worried for school all my life , i spend my whole life studying , during highschool my friends were all getting kissed and having boyfriends and going to party ,and I was studying home and learning english and french and german and shit arggg!! Not that I regret noone of this..i would never prefer being a stupid girl who only knows how to party and paint her nails...but I just wanna feel good about myself , want to have some self esteem ... anyways lol its kind of an angry situation going on in here...so I had to take urgent causes and call the savior. MOM . Since i wouldnt talk to him , i told her to talk to him and ask him what was he gonna do. He said there are a lot of money involved but since I seem to care so much about this , in the moment he gets the amount ( we have all our money in my uncle's company and he gives us the monthly interest) he will take me to do the crazy surgery ( my dad calls this a crazy surgery and a total waste of money) but anyways there is hope and in a month or two maximum i will be happy. Finally . :P

So If everything goes as planned ,Im having surgery in July or June (depends the 3 weeks of holiday we receive from school but Im not sure when) So i wanted to ask you guys ..who do I tell about the surgery? Now only my mom and dad know about this ,and my uncle's family heard me saying like a million times long time ago that I want a surgery and blabla so they are kind of familiar with this concept...I dont want many people to know ,but I think everyone will notice since its such a big change. It's right in the middle of my face and everyone knows I have a big nose ,so they'll understand when I show up with a smaller one. And it's a small town so the word goes mouth by mouth...so should I tell everyone Im having surgery? :(

I also put some new photos of different angles of my nose (hoping these are the last photos where my nose looks that horrible)

Im so weird. I've always been. Now that I am this near to do the surgery (which I wanted all my life) im starting to get mixed feelings. What if it changes all my face? What if I end up uglier?...And All of these can happend ..I know..but its a risk I should take..I can end up worse...but what if I end up better? So I will go throght with it no matter what happend next.

Hello peoplee :p
Its been a long time since my last update buttt I have been studying very hard for my finals ,cause this was a condition my dad put me ..if I do very good on my finals I'll get a new nose :p hahah ...actually the surgery was planed long before finals arrive but whatever I want to make him happy , and I know school is the thing he aprecciates the most.

So back to the main subject. My surgery is planed by the end of the month ( if everything goes as planned) ...still cant think and get ready for it cause my final test is on july 15...I have to get rid of that and than start getting ready for the surgery :D
I feel pretty good ..of course Im scared ..what if it turns out worse ??? but I really trust my surgeon and hope everything goes good.
Im so thrilled of getting a new nose ,I think I may actually learn how to do an eyeliner hahah ...i cant believe it...I know changing a nose wont make me beautiful but at least it could make me feel better with myself..maybe Ill even be more secure

One of my best friend told me to start straigtening my hair and get a new colour cause ive never colored my hair...and my mom wouldnt let me anyways...can I do something alse to draw atention from the new nose? maybe straigten them?

i marked the tip which the doctor said it needs some good work..the tip is a main concern cause it hangs and its just too big