First of all, this site has been amazing. As a...
First of all, this site has been amazing. As a very private person not wanting to advertise my desire to get an augmentation, I appreciate the anonymity yet transparency found here.
I've always had a slight, petite frame and been self conscious about my breasts. I gained a lot of weight with my pregnancies, however, and had full, round breasts for the first time ever. Then, as I embarked on a fitness journey to lose 60 lbs, I realized my boobs volunteered as tribute and went first. Haha. I am now flatter, and saggier than ever.
I am married and have two young daughters, ages 4 & 6. My husband is extremely supportive and I have always felt he loves me no matter what shape. But I am just tired of always having to wear ridiculous padded bras and clothes not fitting right. Also, when you're this short-torsoed, it's hard to look fit when your stomach sticks out further than your chest, no matter how much you work. Haha.
I have done so much and worked so hard with consistency and dedication to change my body, and become the healthiest, fittest version of me. But some things cannot be changed by hard work, so I'm ready to take the plunge!
My consult is booked for June 27th and I've been scouring this site reading all of your stories and being inspired!
Hoping to end up looking like a full B or small C. Gummy bear silicone, under the muscle.
Here are the challenges - any advice?
- hoping not to need a lift
- extremely private and do not want anyone besides my husband to know
- how do I talk about this with my small daughters in whom I want to instill a positive body image (and also not have them tell others!?!)
- living nearly three hours away from my surgeons office, what kind of hurdles should I think about?
- will I ever be able to lift heavy in chest workouts again?
Disappointing News ????
I happened to be in the city for another appointment so on a whim I thought I'd call the ps office and see if they had any cancellations to get a consult instead of impatiently waiting for another month. She said they had an opening at the end of the day!! Perfect!!
I was super nervous, but my husband was with me. The surgeon came in and chatted with us then had me put on the gown. Came back in, said, "let's take a look", opened the gown for two seconds and said, "You need a lift." Shut the gown and said there's no way I'll do implants without a lift. You have SEVERE drooping. ????????????????
I could have cried.
I knew I was droopy but thought I could get away without it. I had finally wrapped my head around spending $9,000.00 on a "non-necessity" for myself (anyone else struggle through mom guilt?). I was in a good place about it. But now the price jumps to $16,000.00. I'm devestated, to be honest.
Any wisdom to share?
Ahhhh! Going for it! (And sooner than I thought)
OMG! Things are rolling so fast now!!!!!
Did a lot of thinking and decided to book the day she had offered - July 7th which was insanely fast to get in with this surgeon.
The office manager called this morning and said they had a cancellation, so now, get this....pre-op and sizing NEXT TUESDAY and surgery is booked for JUNE 23rd!!!!!! AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!
Only two more Flex Fridays as a flattie! LOL
Anyone else bummed and or worried about not working out for eight weeks post op? I absolutely want to follow my surgeon's orders to a tee. I don't want to mess up the healing process. But I've worked so hard to get where I'm at after two huge weight gains during pregnancies, that I fear I will lose so much progress. Any advice?
PS: Only two more Flex Fridays as a flattie! Haha
SOMEBODY talk me off the ledge!!! Lol
SOMEBODY talk me off the ledge!!! LOL!
So, I had my pre-op and sizing appointment yesterday in the city. I was super nervous but I had an open mind. I really want to submit to my surgeon's opinion, and not try to figure things out for myself, because he is the one that has all the experience and great reputation.
I got there early, and they took me in right away. He measured me then laid out four sets of sizers to try in a sports bra. First problem, he said the sports bra I had brought was not nearly tight enough. LOL I guess when you don't have much to support, you don't notice these things. So I had another one, and even that one he had to cinch up in the back.
He told me to get numbers out of my head and just see what I liked the look of. Then he left the room to let me try them out.
Fact #1: I SUCK at taking selfies! Seriously, I should have practiced. LOL
I tried on the first set, and they made me smaller than what I would look like with my current padded push up bra, so those were a no-go.
I tried on the second set, and they were maybe a tad bit smaller than with my regular bra, but I really didn't like the way they sat.
The third set, I LOVED. They were PERFECT.
The fourth set was fun, but perhaps a bit on the big side for me. To me, they didn't look like they could be natural, which is something that is important to me.
So I cheated and peeked at the numbers. They were:
250s, 275s, 325s, and 350s....all smooth, round, high profile Mentor Cohesive Gel (gummy bear) implants.
So, I KNOW that when they are placed under the muscle, as these will be, you lose some size. And I know that most people suggest going up a size from the size you liked. So I thought I would be a smarty when he came back in and told him I liked in between the 325s and 350s (thinking he would say, okay, so we will go with the 350s.) He agreed with me, and then wrote a bunch of things down on his chart. Then he explained (what I already knew) about losing size under the muscle, and because I am having a lift, that they would be removing some of my own breast tissue, etc, sooooo, the size of implant they would be using is....duh, duh, DUH....425cc.
425!!!!! I nearly choked!!!!!! And immediately panicked. And said I didn't want to go too huge. He told me it would put me between the look of the 325s and 350s. I reiterated that I didn't want to look too 'augmented' and if that would still look natural. He told me it would look like I had a really good push up bra and good genes. LOL OMG. I wanted to back down, but he had already written it down and I had initialed it. I want to trust him, he said it will look right on my frame, but that number totally freaks me out. I KNOW that most women wish later that they had gone bigger, so I am trying to stay calm about it and talk myself down, but I am really freaking out a little.
1. I actually think I will like the size, but I am letting my fear of judgment hold me back.
2. What if I hate them - not ever having had much breast to speak of, what if I find out that I hate having them and they are in the way????
3. Should I call in and see if I can at least go down to 400ccs. I mean, you can always augment breasts with a good bra and a bit of padding, but it is harder to hide bigger ones!!
4. Am I overreacting and will I love them??
5ish. My husband is thrilled. He's always said "Go big or go home" LOL
Any insight, advice and calming vibes much appreciated!!!! :) :) :) I will post photos in the comments.
The last #FlexFriday for a while...!
Hopefully I can fill out my tank top a bit better, even if I do lose some muscle in my 8 week hiatus... :-(
Also, mornings without pre-workout are a drag! Haha
6 days and counting....!!!!
The early bird gets the....boobs?!
Got the call today from the surgeon's office on the time for Thursday....I live about three hours away from the surgical centre, so she assured me it wouldn't be before 9:00 am, and would try to get me in later in the morning...but surprise! Surgery go time is 7:00 am...and I need to be there for 6:30! Oy! I guess we'll be getting a hotel the night before! Oh well, unplanned date night before I am an invalid for a while. :)
I sure hope my surgeon is a morning person, though.....! Eeeeep!
The mental/emotional roller coaster....
Last workout in the books. I may have been in mourning a little wee bit this morning. Will I ever be able to do a push up again? Pull ups? Bench presses? How much strength am I going to lose by not using these muscles I have worked so hard to build over the past several years? Arghh! (First world problems, right?!)
I also have random fleeting moments of - what if this is the last time I tuck my babies into bed and kiss their sweet foreheads?! I know general anesthesia is mostly safe - but still - those thoughts enter my head...what if I DIE because I wanted bigger BOOBS!? LOL Augh. Such a mind trip!!!!!
Driving in to the city after work today and by this time tomorrow, I should be almost done! Yikes!!!
I made it! I'm alive! Haha
23 Jun 2016
Day of treatment
I went in at 6:30 and was drifting off in OR by 7:10 am. I was or etty dopey coming out of it and couldn't see straight for a couple of hours, but I made it. :)
Thanks for all of your well wishes for putting up with all of my questions and emotional spewing! ;) I felt really calm going in.
I chatted with Dr. Chong as he marked me for surgery and he warned me about the swelling and frankenboob. He was super chipper and happy this morning! Which was a relief. When you're having surgery at 7:00 am, you want your surgeon to be a morning person!! Lol
He was doing EIGHT BAs today!!! Crazy, huh?!?
I'm now resting on my massive pillow fort at the hotel. :-) I am feeling ok now. Just took my second dose of tramadol. Not dizzy anymore and the pain is all in my pecs but not too bad. Maybe a 2/10. I'm sure the tramadol has something to do with that! Haha
I took a look in the mirror. Hard to see anything because the bra is stuffed with gauze but on the top cleavage area, oh my! I have boobs!!!!! :-p
23 Jun 2016
Day of treatment
So I'm feeling okay so I put on a tshirt. HOLY BOOBIES, BATMAN!!!
There's probably a good inch of gauze stuffed in there though and I know they're swollen, but WHOA! I hope they calm down sooner rather than later! Lol
Day 2: Frankenboobies!!!
**I feel super vulnerable posting these pics but I'm going to do it anyways in case it helps someone along the process!**
So yesterday, I was feeling great. Pain maybe a 1 out of 10, honestly wouldn't even classify as pain just discomfort. But I've been really on top of the pain meds.
But this morning I woke up feeling nauseous and got sick after my post op appointment. Feeling much better now that I am home. I pretty much slept the whole three hours home.
Finally got to take a look without the gauze etc and holy frankenboobies. They are totally absurd looking. But it's a good thing I've followed so many progression stories on the real self site so I know that I can "trust the process" and be patient that they will one day look human. Haha.
Oh, and my scale says a number I haven't seen since I was pregnant with my youngest (whose 5th birthday is today!). Haha. The bloat is the real deal. Wow. Looks like I got a belly augmentation! Haha
Fashion Accessories :-p
Ok, so it's Day 3 post op and I still can't describe it as pain, but WOW, is it ever tight!! It feels like the first time my milk ever came in after having my first daughter. That feeling like you're so engorged, your skin is gonna break from being stretched so tight.
Any advice, ladies? Still taking the pain meds and trying some ice now.
Also, my BACK is killing me from lying on it all the time! Hardly slept at all last night. :-(
One week old! :-p
One week old today! Lol
Swelling is feeling a little better today. It really changes day by day. At the moment I'm feeling good. They're still humongous and I know they'll drop and get smaller. At least they're a little lower than my neck now! :-p
*Cue the HALLELUJAH Chorus!!*
I JUST TOOK THE PADDING RIGHT OUT OF THIS SUCKER!!!!! Wahoo!!!!!!!!! I'm free!!!!!! Lol lol lol lol
Sneezing. Not recommend.
Let's just say I highly recommend NOT sneezing while recovering from a lift and it augmentation.
Now please excuse me while I check if my chest just exploded..... :-€
What changes do you notice??
Let's play a game of Spot the Differences!
It's so hard to be objective when you're looking at yourself, so tell me....do you see ANY changes?! :-(
2 Weeks Post Op
It's good to have some perspective, eh? :) :) :)
Took the tape off to change for the first time today. The incisions are better than I thought they'd be. Still riding high though. Still a million times better than before though. :)
5'3", 113-114 lbs (boo for post op lack of self control in the eating dept!!)
Mentor round smooth 425cc, under the muscle with full lift.
Speaking of bras....
Oh my Gosh I couldn't stop Laughing! Had to share to lighten it up.
WHAT RELIGION IS YOUR BRA?
A man walked into the ladies department and shyly walked up to
the woman behind the counter and said,
'I'd like to buy a bra for my wife. '
' What type of bra?' asked the clerk.
'Type?' inquires the man, 'There's more than one type?'
' Look around,' said the saleslady, as she showed a sea of bras in every shape, size, color and material imaginable.
'Actually, even with all of this variety, there are really only four types of bras to choose from.'
Relieved, the man asked about the types.
The saleslady replied:
'There are the Catholic, Salvation Army, Presbyterian, and the Baptist types.
Which one would you prefer?'
Now totally befuddled, the man asked about the differences between them.
The Saleslady responded, 'It is all really quite simple.'
The Catholic type supports the masses;
The Salvation Army type lifts the fallen;
The Presbyterian type keeps them staunch and upright;
The Baptist type makes mountains out of molehills.
Have you ever wondered why A, B, C, D, DD , E, F, G, and H are the letters used
to define bra sizes?
If you have wondered why, but couldn't figure out what the letters stood for, it is about time you became informed!
A Almost Boobs.
B Barely there.
C Can't Complain.
DD Double dang!
G Get a Reduction.
H Help me, I've fallen
and I can't get up!
Send this to all that will appreciate it!
oh They forgot the German bra.
?¨`*•?.•Pass it on!! Give someone else a reason to smile. ? ..•* ?
Sports bra still fits...kinda! Haha
I ventured to try on an old sports bra, one that had heavily padded shaped cups in before (which I took out before trying on). Wow. Sure didn't look like that before!!!!! Haha. Awesomesauce.
(Not that I go around working out in just a bra, but hey...!)