Okay, so post-op especially after having time to sit around and feel the full force of this decision 24/7, I've noticed I'm already more confident in myself!. But I'm having some regrets! Worrying, what they'll look like! Will they ever drop? Have I chose the wrong size???!! I don't know why I've done this!!!!!! In saying that, every time I have those regrets I want to be able to come back to my real self page, read this and remember why I did this... This is stupid. I'm so happy I have boobies! Lol!!
Regardless! So I just remembered that completely devastating feeing of trying to find something to wear that I felt good in, going to an event, or even to work some days.. Nothing to wear, getting unnecessarily angry with the world for not making women's clothes that fit me, hating my body so much to the point of tears.
Knowing, and being told by my spouse every day for 7years that I am beautiful, loved, and amazing!! Just not feeling it. All because of the size of the fat on my chest! I could change it, and my spouse supports it! He loves me in full force with or without breasts!!! But now I have them, and we can both enjoy them, what's wrong with that!? The answer is nothing. Absolutely nothing.
If you aren't happy, then change it! What is the point in living life, going through the motions because it's what we're just supposed to do, If you can't even look yourself in the mirror because your so uncomfortable with your appearance? What's the point!? Love yourself!
I'm not sure if I did this subconsciously or what... but 99.9% of my friends are well endowed, they have amazing boobs. They just do. Born with it. The one I had, who didn't .. Who's more like an acquaintance... Got a boob job, last year... Which was just the final straw for me. I had to do it. I can't be the only flat chested girl out there? Wtf! I am not kidding, when I told one of my friends, who btw is much younger than me, you guessed it, very large chested, like can't find bra's her size she's so big,( but she is in no way over weight, which seems crazy unfair to me) I showed her my before pictures and she just sat silent for a moment, and she was very quiet, she said "I'm going to try and be as gentle as possible, but I didn't even know it was possible, for a woman.. To be that small in the chest" I was pretty numb emotionally to hearing that, because I've heard myself say some of the most rude things about my chest, over the years. People with natural breasts, just don't get it! It's crazy!!!
I'm so glad, and fortunate to have been able to have this surgery, like I said, I'm so much more confident already, and happy with my results. And lastly, I am more thankful than I can even express, to the rest of you Real Self girls, for having the balls to share your stories and pictures with the interwebs, and being so kind and helpful!!! How sensitive of a subject that you've struggled with, yet you let yourself share your experience, with all of us! Thank you! your courage has helped me more than anything else through this process! Sorry for getting all cheese ball on you!
Again, thanks for reading!