Astanza laser

This is my first tattoo. The artist was nice and made the experience pleasant...but the outcome is not what I wanted. It was supposed to be smaller and prettier. I tried to like it, but it just looks like a huge, weirdly shaped flower on my shoulder. I tried getting it fixed a week later. I really wanted to make it what I hoped for....instead I just grew to hate it more. People say it's "not so bad," but why would I want something so huge and mediocre on me forever?? I know I won't stop feeling this anxiety until I get this faded enough to cover it up with a much prettier sunflower. I'm going to my first laser treatment consultation on Thursday to see how much it'll be and what to expect.

I went to my free consultation and told the assistant (I didn't meet the doctor) that I want only part of the tattoo removed and all of the purple shading has to go. I think most of the petals came out okay, but the ones I circled in the picture just don't match the rest of them. I also told her that maybe towards the end I could get the orange parts lightened because I'd prefer more yellow. She told me that it would definitely be possible. For each session I'll be paying $175. She said it'll take me many sessions, maybe even 13. Purple and yellow are hard to remove. I'm hoping that because the purple isn't to heavy, and the amount of ink wasn't that much, it won't take too long. I guess we'll see how this goes. I can't wait to get this faded enough to where I can fix it up, and it can look a lot better.

I decided that I'll just remove the whole tattoo. I wanted to try and salvage it, but I think it's never going to be that good. I went and bought a few cardigans to wear and cover up my tattoo while I get rid of it. I'm so sad. The treatments are going to be such a financial burden that could have totally been avoided.