Tiny Titties and I Love Them. - Edina, MN

Hey women! I have been reading this forum for about six months, and you gave me courage and knocked some sense into me.

I got implants in January of 2004 when I was 34. I was tired of being flat-chested. I thought it was a deformity, and sadly, some guys I had dated did nothing to dissuade me from feeling that way. The implants were saline, 270 cc. I went from 34AA to 34B/C.

However, I didn't love them, even from the beginning. I had done so much research, but the one thing I HADN'T done was squeeze some fake [RS bleep] for myself. I really should have. They aren't sexy. They felt like water balloons. Sigh. On the other hand, I really did enjoy my profile in clothes. I didn't run around wearing super tight clothes. I was just really pleased that my sternum was not more prominent than my breasts. I am 5'9, 120 lbs, and boy, did I get WAY MORE attention in surprising ways. I don't mean sexually. I work in a male-dominated field, and suddenly everyone wanted me on their team. Maybe it was just my increasing confidence, my getting older and growing more mature. I don't know.

In the last few years, the implants had become uncomfortable. I don't know how to explain exactly how they felt. They ached. So I went back to my doc and asked about removal. He said, "Why would you want to do that?" I kid not. "You'll look, uh, deflated." I reminded him I looked deflated to begin with! I opted for local anesthetic only, and no capsulectomy. I didn't want to deal with the recovery time of general anesthetic, and like a lot of women, I have a high pain threshold and am not squeamish.

So yesterday was the lovely day! The procedure took about 30 minutes. I did ask for a little anti-anxiety meds for the procedure, and they gave me valium. Nice. I'd love to get my hands on some of that more regularly. Ha ha. I'm not taking any pain meds at all except ibuprofen. Although come to think of it, I guess I've forgotten to take that, too. They sent me home wrapped up in a stretchy bandage, but said I could shower today and start wearing a sports bra. I will go back next week for follow-up. There's a risk of fluid buildup where the implants were. If that happens, they use a syringe to remove it, no big deal.

I can't tell you how happy I am! I actually like the way I look. Small looks better on my frame. As other women have noted, they are so soft and vulnerable. Yay! No more Trojan [RS bleep] for me. I look like a lot of women my age. Hurray! I am not deformed. Too bad it took all this to figure it out, but I don't regret it. I learned a lot.

xoxox to all of you. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for your support of one another.