8 Month Update...

I am about 182 pounds now. My results are fine. Just learning to accept the fact I'm not supposed to be super thin. I was made to be chunky and fat. So learning to work with what I got. My scar is still purple and raised in some areas. Swelling still occurs, but nothing awful. Some mornings i wake up and feel great and super flat. I will look into liposuction in the future after I've been working out for at least a whole year or so. So probably get lipo in 2016.

I have not been on here for a while. Everything is going well health wise. I did put on about 15 pounds after surgery due to lack of motivation to work out and eat well after surgery. I went through depression, and just did not care. I still do not have my eating under control, as I enjoy food so much. I realize I do not want to live my life dieting, rather just do the best I can. I have found 100daysofrealfood.com blog, this has helped me a lot with preparing more wholesome real foods for myself and my family. I started going back to the YMCA in October. I am now taking Tabata and Bootcamp classes every week, usually M-Th and then on Saturday. I feel stronger, but I will always have issues with my body and how it looks. All those years of restricting food and then binging on whatever I wanted messed my mental state up in regards to eating well.So now I do not count calories, or I try not to. I eat "real foods" most of the time, but do induldge on holidays and weekends more often. I ended up losing 5 pounds of the 15 gained. That is nice. But my goal is to just take it one day at a time, and NEVER stop working out, this is good for my mind, body, and emotional well being.I will post pictures later on today or tomorrow. I sure hope everyone out there is doing well. And if you have any questions or if you also have an eating disorder, please do not hesitate to reach out to me. This has been journey that has opened up many body issues, and food issues I kept hidden.

I chose to leave my doctor rating as 3 stars because I do not think his results are so awful that he should be given a 1. I think he is a good man, I just think I got to involved on RS, and saw too many other peoples results, and now I am not able to accept my own. I may close my account soon, but it sounds like my info will remain on this site per the terms and agreement.