42G to a D Cup - Edina, MN

I am just shy of 4 weeks PO (will be as of Monday). Not sure why I thought I could get away with not being in the small percentage of people who don't have complications....I am just not that lucky. I know it could be much worse than it is, but I can't help questioning stuff. Both breast have openings at the T-junction, but the right side is much worse. I don't have any infection as of right now, but I am not holding my breath! I did see the Dr and he cleaned out both areas (cutting out the yellowish crap that was inside the wound) and pulled out a few stitches that my body was spitting. Told me to put bacitracin on with a bandage until it heals. Last night the end of my incision on the left side is now red, swollen, bleeding, and oozing (where the drain was placed under my armpit area). I am still in some pain, the bottom half of both boobs are still numb, I still have to wear bandages and will for the next who knows how many weeks, and I am itching like crazy!

Like I said, I know things could be worse, but to me I just wish I could catch a break and have something go the way it should without any issues! I am just so ready to be over with all this incision care and be thankful and enjoy my smaller boobs, Right now I am hating them and regretting them! I know when everything is over with I will be happy, but I just can't seem to see a light at the end of the tunnel at this point and it is very frustrating!

Yesterday I was 10 days po and had my first appointment with the surgeon since the surgery. He took all the surgical tape off and said everything looked good. I had one small open spot that was draining a little and he just put a band aid on it and said that is all I need on it until a hard scab forms. It was still normal and he wasn't concerned. After getting home it was draining pretty good and the band aid needed to be changed. As soon as I took it off, it was dripping with......stuff. I ended up putting some gauze on it, thinking I may have just over did things after the appointment (I went and did a little shopping with the hubby). This morning when I took the gauze off, same thing. The dripping started again and the gauze caught a decent amount of drainage too. I guess I will give it the weekend and if it still like this on Monday I will call. I will get some pictures of the spot up soon.

PS said I can start using the Palmers Oil on everything except that one area, and I can stop wearing my surgical bra and go into a regular sports bra if I want. Needless to say, that is what my shopping trip was. Picked up 2 front closures from Walmart and they are so much more comfortable than the surgical bra! Now to just get that one spot to heal so I don't freak that I have stuff dripping down my stomach or staining my shirt all the time.

PO day 6 and I am in a down mood today. Wishing I didn't do this because I am so uncomfortable! I can't sleep worth [RS bleep], the swelling on righty is not going down at all (may have increased a bit), Lefty is still a little swollen, but nothing major. The itching and pain is driving me crazy today, and to top it off everyone is outside have fun and I am stuck in the house in pain.

I don't want to wear this stupid surgical bra anymore, but I can't find anything else that fits me. And to think I thought this BR was suppose to make that easier..... I wish I could just wear nothing at all, but I don't trust myself and I think the compression is suppose to be good for the swelling? Maybe I need to wrap myself in an ace bandage or something, I just don't know.

Thankfully the kids Christmas party was postponed today because of our snow storm, so that give me an extra week to recover. My youngest was disappointed, but she is having a blast in the snow with family and friends right now.